Thursday, November 12, 2009

If you can be with the one you love.......... Don't try dating...

I have been dating for a few weeks now. I guess you can say a few months. I decided to get out of the rut and get back into the swing of things. Life doesn't wait for anyone. So I had to get a life. I enjoy the time I have been spending with that person. It is just my heart is really not into it. I am still in love with Cooper. My heart, mind, and body still is with him. I have tried and tried to get over him and enjoy what I am going through.

I have been honest with the other person. He knows that I don't know if I will be able to love him. It is a good thing that he is understanding. I think if I didn't tell him, it would be very hard to deal with me. He told me that he has been in this type of situation too. He told me that it took years to get over a love. In some ways he still love the woman.

It has came to a point where he is falling for me. I truly don't want him too. Is that wrong? I don't want to treat him the way Cooper treated me. I don't want to say, "I don't love you the way you love me". I am going to tell him that we might need to slow things down until, I can get a grip. I hate to loose him though. He has made this transition be so easy for me.

This is becoming one of those complicated and awkward ordeals. I can tell this is going to turn into, Let's be friends...



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