Have you ever want to fade to BLACK..? The re-appear as something or someone else.. I know that I am not the only chicka with problems.. It just seems like I can not get out of my problems.. I have no one I can count on for my woes.. I have nothing even keeping me sane..
Its like I have cut back on a lot.. I have even tried to budget the best way I know how.. I WORK so hard.. This is what kills me.. I give my job 37-40 hours a week and I am STILL drowning.. I don't know what to do..
I am tired of crying myself to sleep.. I am tired of putting on my fake smile.. What is a girl to do.? I just want to fade to black and disappear.. It looks like my isolation is gonna happen once again. :(
I was trying SO HARD not to get in that place.. I wanted this year to be so much better.. Now, look it is starting off on the wrong foot.. So sad , So sad..
I think that I am just gonna give up.. I am tired of this fight.. So now I am going to be emotionless.. I am NUMB to everything around me.. There is no more fight in me. Why try and be better when we are still going to be at our worst..
Well I am about to do what I always do when I get down and depressed... Isolate and Sleep.. Until next time.. Be Blessed..
