It's my Birthday... (tomorrow)

Yea Yea Yea... This time tomorrow I will be celebrating 35 years of my life. I thank God for everyday that I live. People always laugh at me. I am one of those people who thinks your Birthday is just as special as Christmas.  I see a lot of folks complain about how old they are etc etc.. Well I tell you  I love it.. I love being able to say I am getting older. It are a lot of folks who aren't so lucky.

I also take time off for work to celebrate. To me I need that time off. People at work call me the Queen.. They never saw someone make a Big Deal about their Birthday..

Today I started getting myself geared up for tomorrow. My job had a Banquet for years in service awards... See me, I've been on my job for 15 years.. The food was great and I am glad that I went.

Well tomorrow is that big day.. I hope it all comes out as planned.. Going Downtown to hear my favorite local band.. Then off to Club Money to see my FAVORITE stripper..  Then after that who knows.. I just going to enjoy it no matter what  I end up doing...

My Thoughts of Today... Happy Easter and Church Folks

Happy Easter to everyone.. Today is the day we celebrate Jesus resurrection. Also the little kiddies go out in their Easter outfits and find eggs... It is also a day that the church houses are packed out.

I am not so big on the church. I am spiritual and not religious. I have said that so many times, people just don't understand. I believe and I worship Christ.  I love Jesus. It is just hard right now finding a church that can really deliver me the word.

This morning my Mother was fussing at me because I wasn't going to Church. I told her I would be just like most of the hypocrites that will be there today.  When I used to be in the church, I always wondered why so many people where there on Easter Sunday. As I got older I think I have it figured out.  It is because it is an Holy day and also people want to show off their new fits..

I am thankful for the grace of of Jesus. It is because of him, I live. Believe me I have lived with demons all my life. I don't have no one to thank but him for keeping me out of the storm. My body is my church. I pray that one day I will be able to find a church that I can call my own. I do want to be a frequent member of his house.

The things that made me stray a little from attending the church was the people. My family's church the people are not what they appear to be. I mean I have seen some do all kind of things. Then on Sunday you would think they had a twin. They are the total opposite.  Once I went to a church and the woman pastor literally called me out. It was because I had on makeup. I thought that was something that was so uncalled for. I see people that speak to me at church. Then when out on the street, can't even say one word. I am like how Christian of you to do such a thing.

I am not saying that the Church folks are keeping me from attending. It just that I am searching for a loving and deeper congregation. I want a deeper connection with the Lord. I want someone to move me and make every Church experience to be meaningful and a lesson learned.

I don't want to play with the Lord. I know he forgives and he died for our sins. I just don't think that sinning all week long and going to Church on Sunday being holy than thou is the right road. I sometimes wonder how a person can live with themselves by doing that. 

I wish each and every one of you all again Happy Easter...

My Thoughts of Today.. Valentine's Day

What a day that most people spend money on things that makes you fat or can die... I am talking about Valentine's Day. A story that has a lot of mystery behind it (History of Valentine's Day).

I for one think that it shouldn't be a Valentine's Day. If you love someone then you should show it every day while they are still living. I really don't care for the gift part of it all. Just someone calling to see how I am doing, or just saying I love you. That is good enough for me.

I am allergic to Roses and that is the main flower for the Holiday. I also don't like how it cast out with Black History month. (selfish I know)...

Me and Cooper talked about how he feels Valentine's is not for men. It is a holiday that a man suppose to show the woman how much he cares for her. I think that is kinda true. It is hard to find a man a gift on this holiday. All the pink and what not is not a good gift for a manly man. A card is about the only thing that you can give, without him going ballistic.

I just don't care for the holiday. I don't see the big deal. I don't knock anyone who does. You know mainstream can suck you in at any time. Some of my friends think it is because I am single that I don't care for it. I tell you even when I had a man, It wasn't a big thing for me.
I hope that you all enjoy Saturday.. I will be working and seeing all these people spend all this money on Candy and Flowers...

My Thoughts of Today... Halloween

Well today is October 31st, 2008.. Today is Halloween... I never been big on this holiday. Yet it seems the older I get I have a great time dressing up in costumes. When I was a kid, I hated it. I didn't like getting in and out the car. I didn't like the ugly makeup and so forth.
This year I am dressing up as 1980's punk/pop rocker. I will be the black Cyndi Lauper... (LOL)..

The thing that I really and truly don't like is giving out candy. I swear some of these kids around here are greedy. You give them one piece of candy and they look at you all funny. Then it is also a dangerous time for kids to be out without their parents. I just have a problem with parents let their kids walk the streets in the dark without them. I frankly don't care if it is just in the neighborhood.

I also enjoy the horror movies that come on television. I am a big horror and suspense movie goer. I am a fan of South Carolina's haunting and ghost stories. What is the funniest thing to everyone else, is the fact I am death scared of The Wizard of Oz. So my friends pick on me about the horror movies.

Be save and have a Happy Halloween....