Just got to enjoy the good..

The other day I was Blessed by someone.. He always comes in the store and he won pretty good the prior week. He told me because I sold him the ticket and that I have always been nice to him. He also have notice the change in me over the last few days.. So he wanted to brighten my day.. Well as you can guess he gave me some money. It wasn't a lot but I truly didn't need what he had given me. He was right though.. It brighten my day because someone was paying me attention. Someone thought of me enough to appreciate my good spirits.. 

So I payed it forward to a co worker.. I also got this feast here for me and the girl I raised.. Me and her been going through the emotional rollercoaster with our relationships. She is also a fellow Libra and we both LOVE SEAFOOD!!  So we  cooked, ate,  watched SHONDALAND Thursday, and talked.. I enjoyed my night with my daughter.. 

You know sometimes we make choices we might not really agree with.. At the time we think it  right..
So last night was a great night for me to express myself, and to have someone to talk to who knows me the best. So I say... We can't dwell on the bad things happening in life.. You just got to enjoy the good.. I am truly Blessed to have people that will still stand by me with all the choices I make.. 

When there is nothing else but to let God...

I had to just come and write tonight.. Today has been such an amazing day full of hope and promises.. 

I had the most in depth, heartfelt, spiritual conversation.. 

Me and the man I've been calling my Bestest over the years.. 

Let me introduce my Bestest.. 

He is an amazing man who is often misunderstood even by me.. :)

He has been one that even before MC was someone I knew was going to always be in my life. 

He brings out the BEST in me and sometimes the WORSE when he pisses me off. ;) (who doesn't from time to time)..

Well in the past we have always been very close friends.. We have  always been able to talk about anything.. Have a debate and agree to disagree.. He is one man that keeps me in my place.. You know I am someone who always got to control every situation and he makes sure to give me an reality check. 

I LOVE this man to the MOON and BACK..

He is my Ying to my Yang..

I speak highly of him.. I guess you all are wondering why this isn't my husband.. I wonder that myself.. I believe in time he will be the one that walks me down the isle. Until he will ALWAYS be my BEST FRIEND the man I call my BESTEST.. 

Anyhoo I hung out with him yesterday.. I tend to always sleep over from time to time when I need to get away from home.. 

This morning waking up and seeing him, something came all over me. I mean I was feeling some type of way and I had to talk about it.. 

Over the years I have been burned by people.. Whether it was work, church, friends, and family.. So I discussed my concerns.. I have been on this spiritual journey over the last few months.. He has always been a spiritual person himself.. When ever I was in a test of faith mode, he was the one I always had turned to..  

I just say this.. When a person can cry, pray, and laugh together... REMAINS TOGETHER!! 

I never experienced this with a friend or family before..

It was like GOD was really speaking through our conversation today.. We shed tears, amazement, and had a very moving moment.. 

Then to hear Tracy, you are the one.. Never think that you aren't.. I am ready for God to lead me to you and be front and center of our relationship/friendship.. I love you and I know you love me.. So lets let God lead our direction..

(do you all know how that made me feel) I NEVER in my life had a man nor woman say that to me.. 

I started crying again.. Then laughed because I saw how serious he was.. Then I felt bad because I thought he was joking at first.. But this man is serious.. So we are going to see where this road is going to lead us.. Just know you all.. I am Happy to still have my BESTEST in my life.. 

I have learned so much from him and he has learned a lot from me.. It just seems in time.. Our paths or going to be going the same direction.. No rush just enjoying life on my way..