Day 31.. Free Day

This is the final day of the challenge and it is the day just to use some word that is at the top of your head.. Well I have a few floating around just cause my brain is always moving left and right.. LOL

So I guess my word would be Happy.. I seek my Happy.. I am at the happiest right now that I have been in the last few months.. I have no worries.. Bills are paid.. I have everything I need that is right here.. I am in my loving spirit right now.. So I am gonna continue to stay Happy.. It looks good on me..

Day 30....... Simple

I love the Simple things in life.. I don't need expensive thing... 

I take pleasures in the small things that have bigger value..

Small

Inexpensive

Memorable

Plain

Loving

Easy..

To keep me happy.. Keep it Simple... 

Day 29... Car

For the last few years I have been admiring the latest models of the Nissan Altima...

This is my dream CAR.. I can even go along with the Maxima... I know this CAR is going to break me.. LOL I would like for it to be pearl white with chrome accents. I would be so stylish in this CAR.. It is classy and reasonable. It would also be nice for it to be fully equip with everything.. This CAR is my dream CAR at the moment.. Can't you just see me cruising the streets..

Day 28....... SHOES!!

Oh how do I LOVE shoes.....

Most of the time I go shopping I am buying shoes.. 

I even have shoes that I brought and never have worn.. 

I need a closet just for them.. One type of shoe I don't care for are Sneakers..

I think I own about 1 pair.. Get me some HEELS then it is on. Even I don't

go out much to wear heels.. Now in the house I don't like to even have on Shoes.

Day 27.. Radio

I am not a fan of the RADIO per-say..  They play the same few songs every hour.. I do although enjoy Pandora and Spotify.. You can pick the type of music you listen too.. You can choose any station and not have to listen to the repeats of your local stations.. My favorite type of music is 90's R&B... So if the RADIO stations spread out their popular songs a little maybe one day I can let my ears take a listen to them..

Day 26... Cold..

I love COLD weather.. It just doesn't love me... The last few days the high has been in the 50's... BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR my body don't like that, now anyway since shedding 57lbs.. 

I want fall season to stick around at least a month or so... It's not even November and we having all this COLD air.. Then with changing weather I caught a COLD to go with this COLD.. So I havent been a happy camper..

Day 25...Beach!!

Beautiful, Exotic, Alluring, Calming, Haven....

I am not the biggest BEACH person in the world.. I do love being there during the night time hours.. It is the most relaxing place in the world when you are on a secluded one.. Watching the Sunset rise and set.. I also love Seafood and this is where it all lives.. I once said when I die I wanted some of my ashes thrown out into the ocean.. 

Day 24.......... FIRE!

Flame,Fire,Smoke.. 

The flame burns for awhile..

Then the Fire starts...

It can burn hours, days, and weeks..

If no one is able to put it out..

The fire spreads, the heat burns..

Hoping that someone would see the smoke...

Things become ash..

Then finally someone appears and cool down the fire..

The clouds fills the air..

Making it unbearable to breath.. 

Days pass and nothings left... 

Day 23.. BED...

My BED is my Heaven... This is where most of my time is spent.. When you are tired you lay down to rest.. When you are having a lazy day this is where to lay to watch tv or read a book. My BED is my favorite thing about my house.. It is where either boredom or excitement starts..

Day 22.. Afraid

Living in fear for most of my life.. AFRAID of Thunderstorms.. AFRAID of Clowns.. AFRAID to watch The Wizard of the Oz.. AFRAID of Bridges.. AFRAID of never being loved.. Those are the things I am AFRAID of the most.. Everyday is a learning process and I try to face those fears that has haunted me for most of my life. I made a promise that one day.. I will no longer be AFRAID.. I want to live life.. 

Day 21... My favorite fruit...

I love FRUITS... My favorite one is Honeycrisp Apples.. This is all I got to say..

Day 20....... Friends..

What about your FRIENDS..?

Over the years I had my share of real... I had my share of fake.. 

I had FRIENDS from childhood... I am no longer FRIENDS with.. 

I have FRIEND that I've known only a few years, I am still cool with..

It's so hard for me to FRIEND people.. 

FRIENDS are someone who listen, love, and there for you..

The saying to have a FRIEND is to be a FRIEND...

I believe that I am a loyal one.. 

Day 19.. Lies... *Repost*

 I wrote this last year when I was told a bunch of LIES from someone I thought I loved..

Today I am Free

I am free to be me

I held on as long as long as I could

Today I let go, as I should

No more LIES behind LIES

No more looking in your face while you lied behind the smiles

You took my heart while it was up for grabs

I can’t believe it was the one thing would stab

I gave you everything I had to offer

I refuse to be the one who sits here and suffer

You go on with your with your life

Cause today I got to see the pictures of your wife

For that I no longer doubt myself

You go on and take care of yourself

I can walk with my head held high

I can take to the sky and Fly

Cause today I am Free

I am free to be me

©2012

Mahoganydymond ™

Day 18... Huge

Harboring

Unlimited

Grief

Emotionally

This is all I have for Huge.. 

Day 17... Clouds...

My Favorite thing to do is watch CLOUDS.. On my phone I have many pictures of CLOUDS.. As a child I thought that we could touch them.. More like I wanted to touch them. CLOUDS always look fluffy and bouncy. My mother would tell me Angels laid on them during the day to watch down on us.
The only CLOUDS that I don't care for are the ones that include thunderstorms.

Day 16... Hole

Wonders what's inside there.. It's looks dark.. Those are the thoughts walking past this HOLE... 

Trying not to step in.. The lure of it is making me question what it is inside it.. Would it take me to another land.. Will it lead me somewhere like it did Alice in Wonderland.. 

There have been times in my life to where I wanted to climb in a HOLE and get stuck.. 

Day 15.... The Path..

I never know what road I will take next. My life has had a ups and downs.

I have traveled many roads and took many turns. I even have backtracked a couple of times to retrace or reminisce something from the past.. At that time I was young and sorta dumb.. I didn't know any better.. Now as an adult I decided to take a different PATH.. I am now on the road to success.. No more going down the wrong PATH.. I am living for the now and seeing new roads.. No more getting on the beaten, ungrateful. no love PATH.. 

Day 14...My Room..

When I wanna escape from everything, I go to the My ROOM.. My ROOM is my bedroom.. I can cut everything off and close all the blinds and meditate. I often to shut myself out from the world.. My ROOM has everything I need without even leaving it.. My bathroom is a door away.. My tv, computer, bookshelf, and stereo are all in my ROOM.. It would be awesome if a stove and a fridge would fit.. 

Day 13... The Tube..

One Electronic I don't think I can live without.. The TELEVISION, is where I get most of my entertainment.. I have my favor shows.. Whom ever invented the TELEVISION and I so thankful they did.. I don't know if I could even go without watching Young & the Restless.. My Thursday nights would also be a bummer with not watching Scandal.. Most importantly on Friday's with Dateline.. So you can see that the Television is a important thing in my life.. 

Day 12.... Baby Baby Baby

For years I always wanted a child.. I wanted a BABY of my own.. I see a baby and I just get all goo goo gaga over them.. Especially if they look like they would be a child of mine. I believe that God has his own plans for me.. After my last miscarriage the Doctor said that I will never be able to carry a child to full term. It was so heartbreaking to me. I accepted the fact that I will never have a BABY. So I just admire those who do.. 

Day 11.. What every Romantic Girl Wants...

Like Lady B says, if you like it you should put a RING on it.. Me, I would love to have the RING, the house, the family.. We as women were taught that Marriage is what we should love forward to when we get older.. Being brought up by strong women who weren't married (besides my grandmother) I don't see what the big deal is.. I have had men in my life give me a RING and promised to marry me.. Well BOOOOOOOOOOO then ended up messing up the relationship.. Ever since then I haven't been asked again and really don't see it happening. A RING symbols so much... Maybe a lot that another person don't see it fit for me. If I never get  one, it's fine... If I do, then maybe it's my time...

Day 10... The Open Book..

My life so many know has had it ups and its downs.. I can a very well say that over the years it has been an OPEN BOOK.. I share a lot with folks when I feel the need to let those in. 

 I am currently in the process of writing my own  BOOK but have been afraid of letting others read it.. I know ODD right, just cause I have shared so much with you all.. I got to work on my writing skills, my words, and learn how to stop putting so much of my personal self in my writing..

Day 9... When words can't be spoken..

I keep quiet about a lot of things.. 

Even when I try to speak, It seems that no one listens..

At times I feel invisible.. 

Wanting someone to notice me.. 

Waiting for the day that my Voice can be heard..

I don't want to sound angry, upset, or sad..

So I keep to myself and remain Silent..

Until the day my words will be able to express the way I feel.. 

Day 8th... My Fear...

A Bridge is a way to get to the other side..

I have always had the fear of going across a Bridge that has body of water underneath.. 

I know we must across them from time to time. When I get on one I tend to shut down or get really nervous.. The Bridge I fear the most is the Delaware Memorial Bridge.. It KILLS me to go across.. I had do it twice in my life.. Frankly I NEVER WANT TO DO IT AGAIN.. 

Day 7... Straight through the heart....

I loved you... I thought you loved me..

I catered, I accepted, I even changed for you..

In my mind I figured it was going to happen..

I just didn't want to think that it would..

That dreadful day you said you didn't love me the way that I loved you..

You sent a SWORD piercing through my heart..

Day 6... The Song I sing....

When we are together there is a sparkle in my eye..

You are the reason I feel warm all inside..

The Passion between us cannot be denied..

Our chemistry is one of a kind..

Every waking moment is a blessing.. 

This is why I sing a Song of  love that can relate to you and I...

Day 5.. The loneliest number...

Over the years I found that the only person who could love me the way I needed to be love is Me..

I am the One that knows what it right for me. People will try to sell you some false hope and romantic dreams... In the words of Sweet Brown "Nobody got time for that"... I am the One who is going to make my dreams.. I am the One who is going to make my happiness.. Single and Loving it..

Uno, Solo, Single One..

Day 4... Standing Still

Stand Still...
Still I Stand...
My Life is at Stand still..
I keep trying to move forward in life but all I do Stand here still..

The stillness of the night keeps my mind racing..
Its so hard to fall asleep... The thoughts are becoming to much..
I want to move forward but all I do is stand here still..

At times these walls are closing in on me.. I want to break free... I haven't figured out if it is my heart or my mind that keeping me at a Stand Still..

Day 3.... I Rock...

Beautiful I consider myself to be..

I wake up every morning and thank GOD he made me..

I am a natural sister that Loves the simple things in life..

I walk with my head held high….

There have been many who have tried to knock me down..

They can’t I am Solid and I am a ROCK……..

Day 2.. Water... One of the Worlds Elements...

                                  White Rapids, Atlantic, Pacific,and even the Gulf...

Bodies of Water with the rippling waves... 

Faucet, Tub, and even the toilet...

Water everyday functions...

We drink it.. We play with it.. Can not survive without it.. 

Water

*Didn't quite know where to go with this WATER word* lol

Blog Challenge: Day 1.. In my Darkness

My world is Cold, Gloomy, and Dark.. I remain shut from the world and live in what I call my Castle. I refuse to let anyone in.. I fear whats on the outside of these walls so I live within this fortress.. I am guarded by stone, coal, and cement.. I build this to shield me from the pain.I can't remember the last time I opened up the gates.. I am not sure if I ever know when the next time I might.. I am going to stay in here until I can let go of the fear of sunlight...