America The not so Beautiful...

I tell you this past week has really been draining and just so uneasy... I hate the events that has happened.. I know last week I talked about Mr. Sterling.. Then right after that Mr. Castile lift ended in the hands of a Police Officer.. Then the killing of 5 officers in Dallas.. I tell you Friends that I grew up with really showed me their true colors.. I am glad that they did.. It gave me a sense of ease.

This world really need peace... It is going to take time and I don't see it in my lifetime..
This is something I wrote on my status on Facebook...

"Hey Faces... I can't say this is a good morning because I woke up PISSED... I have slept on and I've prayed on this.. I might lose some friends, I might lose some family members.. I'm just TIED! I changed my ways of thinking about 20 years ago. I did it for my way of life and not anyone elses.

Everyone wants us to sing Kum Ba Ya and hold hands and be subdued... I get it. I want to live in the world where I can live peacefully .. I don't want to be judged because I wear my African Garb and my keep my head in a turban... I am what you can Black as a person can get... My way of thinking, my way of life, and the way I dress. I can love all people and give them respect but because of the way I look and act some might look at me as a threat...

It seems like I have to say this over and over and over....

You don't know how it feels to be Black and in America if you aren't.. You just DON'T.. White Privileges is real... Back when I was working and I was good at my job and it was time for me to be promoted a manager asked another one "Do you trust her with this job?" "The regional manager at the time sent a email out to the company stating "Do you want someone like that Leading a Store"... Yea, I know all the things that were said about me... I am a Black chick with dreads... I am a threat (they think).. I went own to show them I am more than qualified to do my job and done it well at that... Weekly was getting emails about how well my office ran... I also got emails on how my customers loved and enjoyed me.. My name was mentioned all the time.. So am I really a threat?

This is not the 1st time this has happened in America... Those men was MURDERED... Then for SOME of YOU want to tarnish those Men name is RIDICULOUS! It's always they don't want to believe that it is some bad cops out here.. It is... No man deserves to be shot down that wasn't given no threat.. Alton Sterling WASN'T A CHILD MOLESTER he was 17 went the female was 15.. They both were kids.. So for SOME OF YOU TO SAY another child molester dead is a good thing... You just don't know how strong my side eye was...Him being behind on his child support.. Damn it man, he sold CD's... At least he was freaking trying... Hell, I sell cd's 3 to 5 dollars aint shyt....You all are being FUCKING judgmental... No one deserves to be murdered but SOME OF YOU want to justify this shyt.. CRAZY! I have lost all respect, just know that.. I will never be rude.. I will never say anything out the way.. Just know I have lost all respect...

When things like this happen WHITE GUILT gets all up in uproar... They think the NIGGERS about to show out.. Nah, man... We were raised on the teachings of MLK.. We are not crazy folks... Yea it's some dumb arses but that's in any race...
Bringing up black on black crime... "we kill where we live"... The media only show Black on Black crime because it gets ratings and because it is another way to paint a dark picture on our race.. Whites are perfect, Blacks are evil...? Remember it's always been this way in the media.. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP! Don't act like it doesn't exist... It does and we see this.. We see we aren't respected and we aren't valued... So this is why I always show images of black people.. I always so when we do good things in the world.... I sometimes feel I stand alone but damn it man... WE ARE NOT ALL THE SAME! Get that in your head and you will understand how we feel..

Now, it's sad what happened in Dallas.. Again no one needs to lose their life. I hate it happened and I want this world to heal. I want Dallas to heal.. This being a national crisis though? It was a separate isolated indecent.. Cops killing unarmed or non threatening Black Men and Women been a national crisis in the last 6 years...(Don't want to admit that) Police Brutality been a national crisis since hell before I was born...(you wouldn't know if you aren't black or brown)..

I say 1 <3 span=""> Love at most of my statuses because I want that one love... I want to live together in peace and happiness,,, I have no hate in my body.. STOP THE JUDGMENTS.."

I swear everytime things like this happens you see people ugly faces... No we aren't going to live in a perfect world, I just wish it was a nice one...

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In My thoughts: When I think Racism will end..

I been thinking of this for awhile but I really didn't want to say anything about it. Well after watch a video on Facebook today, it got me thinking. It was a video on how Black Women act differently over seas with white men.. You know how black men think we are aggressive and non submissive.. My opinion, we act according to how we are treated.. If you talk mess to me, I'm gonna talk mess to you.. If you are good to me I am good to you..

Back to my post..

The way some Black men lust and swoon over white women or bi-racial women, and how NOW some white men are finally being honest with liking black women.. Also with Black men hooking up with other races... It the future let's say 2047 there will be no true race.. So this will cut out a lot of racism, It will hardly been any pure race. I am starting to see it now.. Especially in my little ole town of Easley, it's mixed kids popping up everywhere. So maybe, even though this town everyone is mostly undercover racists. This might just bring a closer relationship with each other..

Although I choose not to date outside my race because I have no desire too.. I also don't find what I would have in common with someone of another race unless they are Asian or Latin and that is food that we would have in common.. LOL

I am ready for all this to end. I want us all to get along or be able to have a great dialogue on why we have a hard time to communicating and understanding one another. The headlines the other week was they Love our Culture but doesn't Love us.. It is pretty accurate in my eyes. They are now getting butts, big lips, doing the whip, and the shanae-nae..  My only issue with all of that, is don't try to be hood if you never grew up in the hood. See it is so easy to pretend and never had to live it..

I just hope my theory will come true.. I give it another 50 years.. Since we are the only country that define people by race instead of the country we live in.. We will see, God Willing..

Black Girl gets no Respect.. (came from a show I watched the other day)

The other day I happened to flip through the television.. It was a show on TVOne.. I don't remember the name of the show.. It was aired back in 2007.. I sat and watched most of the show. It was a panel of 5 Black  Men. They were talking about dating outside their race..  I know we keep hearing how Black Women are this and that..
A few months ago, one of my favorite people on the net, she posted a twitter status that made me think.. She said that "Black women are the least desired in the world".. So watching this show it made to realize that this could be true..

 Out of the 5 men only One said he would never date outside his race. The others say that they prefer dating White or other races other than black..   I just shook my head. See I prefer my Black Man. I wouldn't date outside my race.. It isn't because I am black. I am just attracted to what I am attracted too. I love deep deep deep purplish black. They were given all kind of reasons as to why they wouldn't date Black Women. Why do we get such a NEGATIVE light.? Yea I know we have a few that we could be ashamed of..  It is no right to generalize us though.. One man said that he like white women cause they are easy to talk to.. He said that they are very friendly and supports their man no matter what... I don't know what land that guy came from.. Support, we have supported Black Men from day one.. You rarely see Black Women with any other race...  I know in my town you seldom see Black on Black relationships.. Most all the black men do date white women. I used to be upset about it.. It was not until I saw they types of men that they dated..  I wouldn't even want that man myself..Anyhoo.. Friendly.. Hell I have came across some mean ass White Women.. Especially those who do date black guys.. They come into my store all the time. I speak and they roll their eyes.. If I speak to their man, they look as if they going to slap the shyt out of me.. Sorry boo boo, I don't want ya man..  I don't know if they feel intimidated by me or what..  I must say this though.. Women are women.. It doesn't matter what color they are.. So why diss the Black woman..  I just want Black Women to know.. We are freaking BEAUTIFUL... Fuck what anyone else says...