It's my Decision..

Pretty soon as I stated in my last post, that I will be out of work come next month.. I choose not to stepdown and go to part time when I have been full time for the last 19 years... People want me to stay with the company and they want me not to draw unemployment.. Everyone is trying to talk me out of it.. I refuse to do it.. For sometime now I have been praying to release myself from anything that isn't making me happy.. I Loved the job I did but it was taking so much of my life away. Then as hard as I work I wasnt getting the pay for the type of job I was doing. So I feel like it has run it's course and it is time for me to find something else while I am still some what young. 

I been on that job for 20 years and I just feel it's time.. 

What am I going to do? The question everyone is asking me.. I don't know but I want my dreams of my own restaurant since you know I love to cook.. I am still praying for that and in time I hope I will be doing that. 

I wish well to my fellow co workers that choose to stay within the company..  

Silence is GOLDEN...

Just the other day me and my moms had an disagreement..  See the way I choose to lead my life should be up to me. 

Well she told me that my father keeps questioning her about my wereabouts.. She's telling  ME that it is becoming to be to much pressure on her. I understand, but I'M NOT READY to tell my father. I think that she is the only one that needed to know. I wish she understood that..

When my sister came out my dads side of the family wasn't to loving. The words was too much for me even to sit and listen to.

So my silence is GOLDEN... When I'm ready, I will tell him..  I don't want to add more stress to my moms life... Heck I myself is dealing with a lot...

As I'm typing this entry.. I look over to SOS as she sleeps.. She has been working so hard the last few days.. I'm in love... I think this is all worth it...