He says I am just a Friend.. A series of stories...

Hi everyone... I have been working on a story and I thought I would share a little of it here with you all..

He Says I'm just a Friend

By:Mahoganydymond™

Vedda has always been a looker, her spirit, her fashion, and her intelligence is what draws people to her. 

Vedda just has bad pickins when it comes to the men she chooses to fall in love with. She has been dealt bad hands when it comes to relationships. She is going to come across a man who she thought was her everything. He was fun, strong, compassionate, and everything she wanted in a a man, so she thought.

His name was, Andrez.. 

Vedda and Andrez met by passing.. They always knew of each other but never really met..

It was the Summer of 2011 and Vedda was at a friends house for a cookout. She made time for her friends. They always came to Vedda for advice or just to have a great time. Vedda is the life of any party.

While dancing and laughing with a few people Vedda eyes were still on Andrez. Thinking to herself, He has always been attractive to me but his bad boy image was kinda the turn off.  It was just something about him tonight.. 

The sun was gone in and everyone was starting to leave. Vedda stayed on to help her friend out with the clean up. It was more like getting some more info on Andrez. Vedda and her friend Ceisha ended up talking to about 3 in the morning. Vedda headed on home and once she got home she looked up Andrez on Facebook..

Vedda: Hi Andrez, I was noticing you at the cookout earlier.. We have been in passing for years and we have so many mutual friends. I wanted to say hi.. I am going to send you a friends request if you don't mind, accept it.. :)

Vedda gets in the shower and then get ready to go to bed. Church, is in the morning..

As she turn back the covers, the notification goes off and it was Andrez..

Andrez: I accepted your request.. :)  So Miss Vedda, what's up?

Vedda never responded but she stared at that message over analyzing it.. Thinking to herself, did she make an mistake or not. 


Andrez is a guy that don't have all his shyt together, but is a really nice guy. He is in the process of getting his life back on track from being in a little trouble a few years ago. He also getting over a past relationship that he was in for 4 years. 
He is a dark medium built guy. Sorta a loner but is also the life of the party when around a group of people. His growing up is way different than Vedda's.. Vedda's family was loving and free spirit type of family and Andrez was strict and religious..

As this story goes you will find out how Vedda and Andrez connects and how their love for each other blossoms.. You will also find out how both of them become toxic. Especially when there becomes a big obstacle they both face...  

Day 10... The Open Book..

My life so many know has had it ups and its downs.. I can a very well say that over the years it has been an OPEN BOOK.. I share a lot with folks when I feel the need to let those in. 

 I am currently in the process of writing my own  BOOK but have been afraid of letting others read it.. I know ODD right, just cause I have shared so much with you all.. I got to work on my writing skills, my words, and learn how to stop putting so much of my personal self in my writing..

The Saga never ends!!

Fading a Memory..

It was a time when everything was so perfect..

In my eyes I saw nothing wrong…

At the time I needed the attention, the affection, and the warmth of you..

The laughs, the good times, and the passion that was between you & I…

Every day was a joy waking up next to you..

The morning kisses and the tight hugs..

It made me fall more and more in LOVE.

Then that came to an abrupt end…

Your eyes, your mind, and your heart wondered..

You failed to realized what an impact that made in my life..

It really changed me.. The life I had before you was no longer..

The secrets of my personal life were out in the open…

I was lost, didn't know how to mend and bring back the pieces that was broken & shattered…

So I fell back.. I lost contact… I wasn't going to allow you to hurt me anymore..

That went on for months and months..

Until one day, my emotions, my heart, and my feelings came in daily spurts..

I didn't know who to turn to..

So I came to you..

You promised to always be honest..

You promised that you wouldn't lie to me again..

How was I so naive to think that?

Was my love for you that strong?

Once again, LIES were told…

Now I see the REAL you…

No more blinded by the Good Times we shared..

It is starting to become a faded memory..

All I see it the Pain and the Hurt..

I can’t allow my heart, continue be stomped in the dirt..

So now I pop my collar and dust off my shirt..

To thee be over..

You chase me…

You said yourself; you wanted to get to know me…

At first I didn’t want to start anything with you…

I saw you around, but I never knew of you..

You weren’t my type and It was so new.

After all the weeks of talking,

I started falling…

You promised that you would never hurt me, I was the one that made your life complete.

Cards, hugs, kisses, even date night were so special…

Came close to moving in with you, by that time I knew it was official.

I fell in love with you… Flaws and all….

We shared laughs, we shared cries.. We shared secrets and from my part they were never lies..

Months started passing…. I started to feel comfortable… I told most of my family about you..

I was happy I came out with you…

You started to change, things wasn’t the same..

It became too complacent… The things you used to do, you stopped doing…

You would do things with me not included. Going out of town on trips…

It was a time where we were inseparable. The loneliness I started feeling was unbearable.

My world came crashing down all in one month… You said, “ I don’t have time for this relationship”…

I couldn’t believe… How could this be true.. You said you Love me and you know I love you..

All the changes, all the sacrifices that were made just to make you happy.

You wanted us just to be friends no longer soul mates..

Now I stand here alone with nothing or no one. Missing out on doing things I used to do and facing the world.  I can’t get up enough energy and too embarrassed to face it.

You HURT me in ways you once said you wouldn’t..

I know that things aren’t promised to be forever.. I just can’t forget those words you said, WE WILL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER…

Yes, I fell in love with a false sense of a person.. You weren’t completely honest with me. I know this to be true..

I can say, although we aren’t together in the relationship sense of the word. You have been there for when I was sick and down.. Is it that you still care? I’ll never truly know..

I can’t keep going on this rollercoaster emotional ride. You already have another woman by your side.

You say it isn’t like that… I know it is.. It is a true fact…..

I would never be able to trust you again after all the pain you caused me. If that time comes again when you say you want me…

So now that we are friends, it seems you still have a hard time dealing with me. It’s like when I say things about me wanting another, you get so agitated.  When I bring up your relationship with the other, you get so defensive..

I no longer try to read you.. I no longer even care about the other.. I just hope that the way you did me, you won’t be that way with her..

I don’t hate you.. I am disappointed in you.. You broke my heart when that was the last thing you said you would do from the start.

I made a vow to forgive you.. I figured it out you wasn’t the right one for me. I need someone to understand, love, cherish, and inspire me…  I wasn’t right for you.. So as I close this and remember the times that we shared… The good, the bad, the ugly is not going to make me sad… It was an experience that I needed to go through… After all is said and done… Life goes on.. New memories need to be made.. You was a person I loved.. Now, where do we go from here?