Goodbye 2011

As the NEW YEARS starts and the OLD YEAR ends... I have many blessings and things to be thankful for. I also have a few things that I am not so happy with. Although I will not bring them into the new year... 2011 brought so many changes into to my world. At times I don't know if I am coming or I am going. I still remain positive and hopes for the best.

This year I learned that you can't always be EVERYTHING to EVERYBODY.. You have to learn how to LIVE for yourself.  I had to STOP being a Save a person, Help a person, and being SUPERWOMEN to a person. I give so much of my self to people. Then others wonder why at times I can be a true BYTCH.

I also learned that letting go of something might  be good for you, it also helps the next person become a better person. Holding on to things that are already broken might have been the cause of your own happiness and destruction. Forgiving a person and not forgetting is just not healthy in a persons life. People change within seasons and time. It doesn't mean you don't still love and care for that person.. You just have to give time to heal the wounds... In some cases it might take days, months, and years...

2011 I found love in the most unexpected place. It's funny when you look back and say DAMN.. I mean did I look a LOVE differently? I never experienced this type of LOVE ever.. I had so much heartache in years past... I kept holding on to the negative side of it all.. I was really that song..."Looking for Love in all the WRONG PLACES.." I am now thankful and happy that I have this time to enjoy the pleasures of it...

The bad part of 2011 brought health problems, right along with stress... I never had High Blood Pressure.. Now I suffer from it day to day.. My job is the main cause of it I believe.  I just don't know what to do at this time.. Maybe 2012 will shed some light in my progress of growth.

Stress of living life also have taken a tole on me. As stated before.. I try to be all things to all people.. Stress on trying to make others happy put a lot on my emotional health. I look to places where I felt I mattered... Then I let so many people down. Not doing it on purpose but doing it cause I didn't know who I could trust with my well being..

I am looking forward to 2012  some might say it will bring the end of the world.. I think it is a NEW BEGINNING in the life of Mahoganydymond... I wish you all Love, Peace, Happiness in 2012..

Merry Christmas...

This weekend is Christmas.. I am almost finished shopping... I still have a few here and there things to get. I feel like this year I was more into the spirit way before the time came near... Now working being as stressful as it is.. I am too tired to do anything. So that is the main reason why I haven't did too much.  As I am typing this I took a break from getting ready for work.. 

I am wishing you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

Silence is GOLDEN...

Just the other day me and my moms had an disagreement..  See the way I choose to lead my life should be up to me. 

Well she told me that my father keeps questioning her about my wereabouts.. She's telling  ME that it is becoming to be to much pressure on her. I understand, but I'M NOT READY to tell my father. I think that she is the only one that needed to know. I wish she understood that..

When my sister came out my dads side of the family wasn't to loving. The words was too much for me even to sit and listen to.

So my silence is GOLDEN... When I'm ready, I will tell him..  I don't want to add more stress to my moms life... Heck I myself is dealing with a lot...

As I'm typing this entry.. I look over to SOS as she sleeps.. She has been working so hard the last few days.. I'm in love... I think this is all worth it...

Love at it's Best!! Daily Kisses!! Makes a Brighter day!!

Being with someone can sometimes be overwhelming.. I used to say that I didn't want to fall in LOVE again... Then when I met SOS things CHANGED.. This person is not typically be the type I would date.. So off... So when I looked past her flaws.. I found LOVE .. I finally found what it was ment for me. I can't ask for a better Companion... I am LUCKY... To others they might shun what we have.. Believe me I have heard all the going to hells... So if I am going... I am glad I found Love that I am HAPPY with.. I got my HEAVEN here on EARTH.. Every kiss, every hug, every I LOVE YOU.. Is worth it...