30 Days of Thanks... Day 4 through 8...

I am sorry that I wasn't able to post other days.. I have been under the weather and you know Life.. It can get busy sometimes.. I don't even really have a main picture for this one.. It is a little bit of everything...

1st off I am THANKFUL for everything God has blessed me wit thus far.. I don't know what I would do without faith in him. He seems to always pull through when I think life has failed me.

I am thankful my job, even though it has been times I can't believe that I am still there. I get crapped on at times but I am thankful that I have been there long enough that I finally feel like I am appreciated

I am also thankful for my Real Friends... Not to confuse with my associates.. . The ones that know my everyday life is always a test.. The ones that know my struggle with my anxieties and issues with my mom. I can't trust everyone and I do have a hard time doing so. So those who are extremely close to me.. I am so thankful for them.

Then the last thing that I am most thankful for is my ability to still love with all the times love has totally knocked, slapped, and burned me.. I am still able to see that ONE DAY I will have that everlasting and that love that is perfect for me..

Day 5.. The loneliest number...

Over the years I found that the only person who could love me the way I needed to be love is Me..

I am the One that knows what it right for me. People will try to sell you some false hope and romantic dreams... In the words of Sweet Brown "Nobody got time for that"... I am the One who is going to make my dreams.. I am the One who is going to make my happiness.. Single and Loving it..

Uno, Solo, Single One..

Day 5.... Teenager's Love.... 1st Love...

This is a HARD one... I can't say if I was in love or not.. 

I am weird... 

I think I loved him.. Me and him are still friend's to this day.. 

I was 14 years of age when me and him first started talking. 

So this is all I really got to say about this.. We didn't get to spend much time together because he lived in the town over.. I didn't drive and neither did he.. We only saw each other on a few weekends and on holiday's... 

He is still a amazing friend and I will love him until I die...