Hormones......... UGH!!

I know you all are about tired of me talking about my ranging HORMONES... I feel like I am really going to loose it and loose it soon.. What is happening to me? I never in my life felt like this. Is it me getting older..? Is it the lack of being satisfied when having sex? What in the world is it?

Just today I thought I was going to attack this man that I thought was nice looking.. I didn't even care if I didn't know him.. He was hella sexy.. I be damn this doesn't make sense.. I never been the type of drooling over a man.. I got hot just looking at the man talk.. That was the 1st...

Anyhoo, I believe if I don't get some GOOD STUFF in the next few days.. I might have a heart attack... Yea it is becoming that serious.. It is all I think about.. Even the guy that I am having sex with, sucks.. He just does that 1 fucking nut thing that pisses me off... I don't even know why I bother... I guess I will have to go back to finding  a younger man... I just don't want the freaking yeast infections that come along with fucking a young dude..  I guess that is what I need to get this off of me.. lol

Day 28... Sex or Love... What choice do I have..

Day 28~ If you had a choice between a love relationship and just sex [guaranteed]...which would you choose?

In my state of mind right now... I really can't say what I want... I live in a confused state of chaos.. I want love, just the last time I tried it, I became so broken that I am not even fair to myself.. When I love, I love hard.. My life becomes so consumed with the person I fell in love with that everything else seems so off course..  

Sex is a minute of some type of pleasure..  I feel good and I can walk away with not a feeling at all.. So I am good with that.. See just awhile back I had a lover and all I wanted from him was sex.. He had a life of his own.. I had mine.. So when we came together it was sex.. Then when things became to much for the both of us.. We parted ways.. So my heart wasn't involved and I was able to go back to my routine.. So that was good for me

Again there are times when being in love and sexing the person you love brings the happy person in me.. I can't say that I am able to give my heart again. I know they say move on and keep living..  I am so afraid to give it away again.. 

So I choose SEX!!

Day 22... Let's make a Love Scene....

Day 22.. Write the Perfect Love Scene...

It was in late September.. I was taking my yearly trip to Jamaica.. Over the last few years I been going to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city..  So I packed my bags and headed off to my favorite destination. I hate traveling alone so I asked my male friend to join me this year..

His name was Arthur. I've been dating him for about 8 months and I been having thoughts of accepting his invitation to be my Boyfriend. He was elated that I asked him to join me.. He was like baby, we going to have a GREAT time. 

The first day we just relaxed and did a little bit of site seeing. It was nice to have him there.. I was so glad I asked.. I told him that before dinner, I set up an appointment to get a massage.. He declined to go along, but he said I will see you when you come back to the room. 

I was kinda tense so that was the reason behind the massage. I needed to loosing up. I think the whole thing of finally being this alone with Arthur was getting the best of me. I vowed not to have sex with anyone unless it was meaningful. I think this might be just the one for me this time. 

Heading back to my room something was going all over me. That was a damn good massage. I truly needed that. 

I saw a note on the door... "Hello Baby, I've been waiting for you to return".. I slide the key in the door swipe. I opened the door and to my surprise there was rose petals leading to the bathroom. On the bathroom door it was another note. "Baby slip off everything and get into the tub and have a glass of Champagne" .. I began taking off my clothes and I laid a towel into the tub so I can sit on it.. (my phobia of sitting in tubs)..  After sitting down and sipping on the dry bubbly.. I saw Arthur.. I knew that this man was in shape, but his dark mocha complexion was really doing something to me right now. 

He joins me in the tub.. We kissed, played, and groped one another.. 

He began to pick me up out of the tub. All the light went out.. It startled me.. He laid me on the bed of roses...  He began going around the room lighting a few candles. The music of Luther, R Kelly, and Marvin Gaye was still playing in the background.. 

He began to kiss me again. He is such a good kisser I was saying to myself. He kissed me all over my body. I felt the warmth of his body against my cool damp body..  My love below was throbbing for his magic stick.  He begin to lick and massage my inner thighs.. He worked his way to my honeypot and practically made love with his tongue.. 

He turned me over to my stomach and I  arched my back.. His tongue going faster in and out of my sweet stuff.. I began to moan and ask for his manly thrust to enter me. So he stopped entered me and my moans became louder and more frequently.  He worked me, he grind me, he caressed me, he made LOVE to me. Arthur showed me not only he was about to become my lover.. He showed me how his love making was so passionate, intense, and was worth waiting for...  

Day 30... Re-visting... Flashbacks... Ode to Dick!!

Day 30....write an erotic poem of your choice.. raunchy or classy.. bring it!!!


This something I brought out of my archives.. I am not quite sure if I posted them here or not.. 

My Ode to Dick…

Mahoganydymond™

Oh Dick how do I love thee…

Oh Dick how do I want thee…

I need you to fill up my empty tank…

I want you to pump me and pump me until you are out of gas...

Maybe have you stick it in my ass…

Oh Dick how do I love thee…

Oh Dick how do I want thee…

I need to feel the thrust of your motion…

I want you to surf me like the ocean…

Oh Dick how do I love thee…

Oh Dick how do I want thee…

Dick, Dick you are no where in sight…

I need you, Dick, to cum in my life…

Day 28.... Give it to me Baby!!!!!!

Day 28. If you could get your hands on some dick/pussy right now, how would you want it? 


It is summer.. I am hot.... I am even on my monthly.. (I keep it real)....  If I had some dick or pussy right now... How would I want it...? I tell you how I want it... I want is Rough, Wild, and Passionate... 


I was talking to my cous the other day.. I was telling her, I am not a WHORE but I have this need to want to fuck like crazy when I am on my monthly.. I know most of you all do.. I think that is my most horny time.. It isn't healthy or sexy.. I just want to screw at this moment.. 


If the man pulls out his dick.. I might bring out my FAT GURL mode.. I would think it is a big ole hot sausage and devour that thing.. After I get it hard.. Shoot I will climb on top of him and go riding into the sunset like a Cowgirl..  He won't know what the hell happened to him.. lol 


I want it from the back too.. Him slapping my ass, spreading my cheeks and pulling my hair.. Hell he can bring those finger to the front and rub my clit while his big organ inside of me. I want to be FUCKED HARD... So yea.. If I had a dick in front of me I want him to give me his all.......... I mean ALL... 


Pussy on the other hand... hmmmmmmmmmmm Not so much in the mood for it right now.. lol

Day 27... Honey May I?

Day 27....
Your man/woman likes to have sex with the same sex. Are you willing to invite this into your bedroom? why?

My answer to that question would be HELL TO DA NAW!!!!!!!!!!!  I know it isn't fair to tell my mate something like that when, more than likely I would be bringing someone into the bedroom in the first place... Well maybe not physically but sure hell mentally... I just can't see my man grinding on another man.. I don't knock the whole Homosexual family.. I am part of it.. I just don't want MY LOVER, MY MAN, sleeping with another man.. I want it to be us... That's it... 

Day 26... Give me dat DOOKIE LOVE!!!!!

Day 26. Anal sex? are you anal about it?


What do I think about Anal Sex..? I tell you when I was in my early years.. HELL YEA!!!!!!  I would start dropping cum as soon as it entered.. I loved it.. The guy at the time that I was dating.. He had the right size penis and I was ready for him.. There was no need to stick it in the honey pot.. It would have took to long to nut.. So when he wanted a QUICKIE and I wanted a NUT.. He laid it on me.. Ya heard... I loved that type of pain.. I just didn't like the after effects.. LOL
As I got older, started going to the gynecologist more... I knew that wasn't healthy for me. It had to end.. I no longer interested in Anal.. It was good while it lasted.. lol I don't knock those who still do it.. I just got to think about myself..  

Day 25 My Motivation.... O O O O!!!

Day 25.... What motivates you to hit your orgasmic peak during a masturbation session?


 I am normally a visual person when masturbation...  SO hehehhe.. Yea that is one of my motivation... Then the pulling on my nipples while I am giving myself clitoral stimulation... It's all in the touching and caressing of my breast.. I think that is my no.2 most sensitive spot on my body... 


Boobs and Nipples is all I need to reach my peak orgasm... 

Day 24... Freak a Leek..............

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Day 23.. Sit.. Cracks the whip.. Sit... Good Boy...Now do what Madame tells you..

Day 23. Dom/Sub… sexy or just an excuse for men or women to abuse?


I don't think that is the whole thing for them to be abusive or what not.. You have to trust the person you are with to be in that type of lifestyle.. 


I think it is SO FREAKING sexy.. I love the darkside.. I am attracted to the GOTH type of female anyway.. The fishnets stockings, the tight corsets, the 4 inch heels........  SEXY.. I love the take charge GIRL POWER...  


As I stated before I always dress that way for Halloween... So it might be something in my deep deep conscience that I was one in my former life.. So yea I think it is sexy... 
I can see myself now.. Dressed in my attire.. Get a person who is willing and brings out the whip and tell them to sit and lick my toes.. Leading them with a dog chain and making them obey their master.. whewwwwwwwwwww...




Now I am singing Fishnets Black Pantyhose.. Thick legs.. that show through those holes.. :)

Day 22... You Send me Swanging...

Day 22 Swinging… your thoughts…

Swing-er (swngr)

n.

1. One that swings: a good swinger of baseball bats.

2. Slang

a. A person who actively seeks excitement and moves with the latest trends.

b. A person who engages freely in promiscuous sex.

c. A member of a couple, especially a married couple, who exchanges sexual partners.

I've thought about it once or twice in my life. Although there have been times I was put into a situation that could be considered Swinging..  I never thought of myself as being a "SWINGER"... 


I think being the type of "FREE SPIRIT" that I am maybe I would fit right into that lifestyle. I do though have my morals and my standards. I don't think that I can go to the parties and  the clubs.. I think if I was in a marriage  I think that would be just one of the couple that we would get together  EVERY BLUE MOON... It wouldn't be when ever they felt like it.. 


I remember when me and my cousin was dating friends. We would get rooms together. Her man would always say "SWITCH" and I would tell my boyfriend.. HELL to the NO.. I am not about to SEX her BOYFRIEND.. Cause I knew that wouldn't have a good outcome. I was secure, but I know how she worked and think. So I wasn't about to break that family bond.. Plus I was NO WAY near attracted to him. 


So my thoughts on Swinging.. Maybe it is cool.. It all depends on the person and how you interact with the person.. I will not live that lifestyle though.. I think it would be too much stress... I have enough I am dealing with than to be dealing with that other stuff...

Day 21.... Music to get you in the MOOD....... "SEX ME BABY"

Day 21..Make a music playlist you would like to get busy to …(name of artist, title of song, why you choose it)

1. R Kelly- Imagine That.. It always gets me in the mood... NO MATTER WHAT!!!
2. R Kelly-Zoo... As you can see R Kelly is my Favorite Man...
3. R Kelly- Sex Me... Isn't that what it is all about...
4. RaAb- Foreplay... This song was a GREAT old skool classic for getting to the point...
5. Intro- Come Inside extended mix... I LOVE this group and the song.. Great for getting me started...
6. Marsha Ambrosius- Your Hands.. This song is my NEW FAV.. I want to feel their hands all over me...
7. Raheem Devaughn- She Single.. I don't know but after seeing the video.. I been imagining him all over me.. lol
8. Floetry- Getting Late.. It is something about those women voices that take me to another place.. So soothing..
9. Prince- Do me Baby... I think Prince is the KING of Erotica.. Love it..
10. D'Angelo- How Does it Feel... I can hear him now asking me...
11. Alicia Keys- UnThinkable.. Now this was me and HEAVEN'S get it on song.. I love it...
12. Beyonnce- Speachless... I want both of us to walk out of there SPEECHLESS...
    13. Kelly Rowland... Motivation.. Imma MOTIVATE this person to bring out their freaky side..
    
    

So this is part of my List... I can't put all my songs up.. It would be a book. LOL

I already made a 12 CD's named ironically.. “SEX ME”  

Day 20.... Ooops oh My...

Day 20..Tell a story of your most embarrassing sexual experience..




Hmmmmmmmmm... I really don't have any too embarrassing moments in sex... Heck shyt happens... I will tell you a story that now I laugh about.. Also some are kinda enjoyed it...


We were chilling at my BF house.. We used to have nights planned out where we all get together and do things.. Like Taco Night, Wing Night, etc... 


Well one night our usual group of friends got together to have a few drinks and eat Tacos.. One of my friends got SLOPPY drunk.. I mean BLASTED out her mind.. I wasn't to far from it either... 
It was her first time hanging out with us as far as our signature nights.. 


She was our personal entertainer.. She was dancing up on everyone, she was groping me.. I was looking at her sideways but didn't think to much into it.. Well she was feeling woozy and wanted me to show her where she can lay down to regroup herself.. So I took her up to my cousin's bedroom.. I was laying her down and BOOM.. She got all aggressive and what not.. I was stunned but didn't back down.. I don't think she woulda took a NO anyway.. Let's just say the SHYT FELT good.. THE SHYT was AWESOME... So me being the person that I am.. I couldn't be silent..  I think the neighbors, the people outside, and those who was downstairs heard the whole thing.. 
Well I started seeing lights flashing... How about two of my friend's boyfriends done came into the room? Snapping pictures and what not.. I don't think that got anything because went I saw that door open.. I JUMP THE HELL UP..   I think she was mostly embarrassed more than me.. I know how those fools are.. They always somewhere trying to see something.. Nosy asses.. They said they  heard my moaning and yelling.. They wanted to know what the hell was going on...

Day 19.. Shower Me with your Cum....

Day 19..Bukkake? your thoughts.


When Joy was asking for ideas on this whole Blogging Challenge.. I brought this topic up... Yea I am silly like that.. I did it in a way to be funny.. Yet in the back of my mind I was really interested...


Anyway, for a long time I would see porn and see women love this type of thing. I found out what it meant then I started to wonder.. It was something that in the some of the Asian culture (which you all know I love me some Asians)... What I read was that was something that a father setup when his daughter lost her virginity.. The father would be so called ashamed of his daughter and she was considered to be DAMAGED goods. He would have her out in public and have the local men Bukkake over her face... 


Then in the early 70's it was a BIG thing in Japanese Porn. It later spread to American Porn..  Don't get me wrong, I do think it is sorta of a turn on.. Cause of the faces that the women make when they are getting squirted... 

I not so like it for myself.. I used to want to see, then one day.. As I was giving head to MC he didn't want me to swallow his cum.. That SHYT got on to my face.. For some reason he started slapping my face with his DICK...I became DISGUSTED... I don't know why, but I wanted to slap his ass with my fist.. LOL Later on that night, I told him never do that shyt again.. I was totally pissed and I felt slutty... SO that has never happened again.. It will not happen again either... I am so over that fetish. 

Day 18.. You, Me, and He...

Day 18...Tell a sexual triangle short story...


I really care about M... He is a really nice guy and I admire his drive of life.. C is the one that does it for me.. He makes feel good all over...


See M is the man that can provide, work hard, and has goals in life.. C is the thuggish, bang that ass, then leaves...   I know he isn't the man for me. He even said himself that he isn't the man for me.. So I don't know how to let go of him.. On those nights when M works late.. I need to feel him inside of me. 


So let me tell you, How I lost both....


It was one night that M called and said he was going to be working really late.. Normally when M work late it is about 3 am when he comes home.
Since I have been in the house all day horny as I could be.. I needed to get off.. So I made my call to C.. I think he was excited cause it has been weeks since I last saw him.. He told me that he would be there after he made a few runs...  
C got their around 10.. I was at the door in the nude. I was waiting, willing, and able.. "damn girl you don't want to waste time".. is what he said to me. He was so right.. I was ready to get the fuck of my life... He threw me on the couch and started eating me out.. It really wasn't a need for that, I was already wet as a slip and slide ride at the waterpark.. I know I was ready for his 11inches to grind me and take me away... 


I moan and maybe screamed a few times. He knows how to get the juice box ready.. He flips me over and stick that massive organ inside me.. Taking hard and deep strokes and pulling my hair.. I was enjoying every minute of it.. " Aww C.. Hmmmmmmmmm OOOOOOOOOOO..." I was climaxing and I can feel my cum running down my leg.. I knew it wasn't his.. He is one of those men that wants you to get multiplies of nuts before he get his one..   He kept on fucking me harder and harder.. I got louder and louder.. I called out a loud.. GOT DAMN I LOVE THIS DICK..  
As I went to let out another nut....... "Mah, what in the hell is this..." It was M.. He came home a little early with flowers and take out in hand. I was there stun and didn't know what to say.. I was there in the nude with Mr. Big DIck and my boyfriend of 10 years at the door.. C kept on fucking.. He wasn't going to stop.. I had to make him. 


I get up and trying to explain to M, why he shouldn't be upset. C was trying to make me tell him how long we had been fucking. M was yelling back and forth with C. Threats was thrown every where.  M told me to pack my bags and leave his house.. C told me to deal with the situation.. He was out.. He was mad cause he saw me begging and pleading M not to give up on us... M didn't want to hear it.. 


So I called my best friend T... She agreed to let me stay at her house for a few days.. Until I am able to find another place to live... Three months has pasted and I have yet to hear from M or C... I was caught up in a sex triangle.. Damn I really miss C.... 




"a fictional story"

Day 17.. Oh Hell to da Nah! Bill you was his homie...

Day 17... You walk in your bedroom to find your lover deep in the sexual act with the same sex.. what do you do? 




Hell I don't know what I truly would do... I know there could be so many scene that can be played in this situation... 


I am all kind of freaky and I love new and exciting things.. Yet my mate, my lover, my man Sleeping with another man.. I would FLIP the HELL out.. I think if he was interested in men he should tell me up front.. I just can't allow myself to date a man that is getting love from another man.. I might can deal with receiving head.. But if my man is the BOTTOM.. He better hope I wasn't having a bad day... Cause I would cut a MF up... 


So if I catch him and after I flip out.. I would tell him to kiss my ass good bye and I am gone..  I am always up front with my males that I date... So the secret would kill me...  It would hurt me.... 

Day 16...Get cho freak on.. Aint no fun if the homies can't have none...

Day16... You are invited to a party that turned into an orgy, you just arrived…what would you like to see? 


At this point there isn't anything I haven't seen or done.. So I frankly don't care what they are doing... Just tell me where the Tequila at..  I will get my drink and sit back and watch.. 

Day 15...Getting Caught.......

Day 15...Have you ever been caught masturbating or having sex? tell the story..


Nope I have never been caught... It was always done right before anyone ever came around. Thanks Heavens for 
that.. lol They would have gotten an eye full.. So since I never been caught.. I don't have a story to tell...

Day 14...Doing it Outside...

Day 14.. Public sex: do or don’t?


Today challenge is whether we do or don't do it outside... I prefer NOT to do it outside.. See back when I was young and dumb. I had a few embarrassing moments with public places... Well, not too embarrassing. Me and my boyfriend at the time, both lived with our parents so we had to find a place to screw... Ever Sunday we would go to the park.. The park has a spot that is  tree covered.. So we took our blankets and some music.. Well one thing lead to another and in BROAD daylight.. It was some people walking by, they couldn't see us (I don't think) but I know they HEARD my LOUD tail...So ever since that I no longer feel the need to do it outside... 


Now if it is an Nudist Colony or a private back yard.. Hell go for it.. Especially if it is raining.. I love doing it in the rain.........

Day 13....... Strapped...

Day 13..... A fantasy you know you will never fulfill!!!!

I have talked about this before.. A FANTASY I have wanted to do for quite sometime now.. It started back in the year of 2005.. When I chatted with a few like minds via 360 days of Yahoo... I talked to this guy who was into all kind of freaky stuff.. I told him I wanted to use a strap on with a STRAIGHT man.. I don't know why I want to do this, I just do.. 

I guess it is the Girl Power in me.. It gets me warm and fussy inside thinking on Anal play.. I just can't do it with a Homosexual Male.. Once I was able to to talk a guy into letting me do it.. The sad thing is, when it came time to get with the get on.. He got scared and declined.. He said I had to much built up anger and it showed. So he felt that I was going to tear him up. lol

So I have given up.. There is no man who is so SECURE in his manhood I believe.. If you love women, and you adore women.. Why worry about it? Hell it is a woman doing it.. It aint me trying to punk you...