I can't believe...

 It has been this long since I last posted here. Nothing really has changed but my mentality.. I truly believe that I've gotten wiser and more stabled in my thought. 

I'm not forcing anything. I am going with the flow of life. Mom is still doing the same. I really glad i put my life on hold to take care of her. Its been so worth it..

Da Rona is still wrecking habit.. My best friends have lost one of their parents due to it. It is sad to witness their heartbreak. This virus needs to be done away with. I just hope that those that insists on not trying to follow the rules will one day wake up. 

Me and Kong is still dealing. dealing is all.. At this point my focus has really been of my self care and my mom. Plus he is sometimes moody.. He understands why things are the way they are, just he wishes I could do more with him. I guess he will stick around, heck he has been here now for almost 5 years...  So only time will tell and if he is strong to surive.

How have you all been? Do any one still read blogs? I think back when I would promote this blog and now it is what it is.. So much to do not enough time to do it in. 

I got here today just because I decided to log on to my laptop (I need a new one by the way)...

Enjoy your Sunday and be safe everyone...

My Randoms...

It's been HAWT! I mean really... Here in South Carolina it has been one HAWT summer so far.. It normally doesn't get real hot until Late July or August... Shyt!! It's been HAWT since May.. The light bill this month JESUS is going to be high... I don't know what to do.

It's been so HAWT I haven't wanted to get out the house at all.. I haven't went hardly anywhere.. I don't know I might become crazy sitting here in the house with my mom... She is doing fairly well since I have been here.. I had to let my job go to take care of her.. I am doing it for her, but this chick hates being BROKE.. It will be ok though..

Yesterday, the family got together to grill.. It was nice.. As I said, I like when family gets together.. I just don't like the clean up.. lol It's been a struggle for us all the last few months.. We are trying to make as many memories we possibly can.. My mom memory is fading and she is resorting to the past and I wan't her to see family..

I just came by to let you all know that I am well and everything is going well..  If anyone still reads blogs.. hehehe!!

It isn't even Summer yet... Just a rundown on what's been going on..

I tell you I love the South... I just HATE Summers here.. Oh man, it isn't even summer yet, and the humidity is OMG horrible.. It is so HOT! I think I won't be able to be outside much this year.. It seems that I have been having trouble breathing when it is really hot.. As a child I would have nose bleed, now it is breathing..

I left my job (again)... After working there for years and then going back.. I wasn't happy.. I worried more about my mother the whole time I was working. My mom health isn't at it's best and plus she has been doing some WEIRD things that have me worried.. So I let it go and I just have to make more sacrifices in my life. I will not have a steady income coming in but I will try to make money the best way that I can, My mother is more important than anything...

My love life is no longer either.. I am tired of the game people play.. One week they seem they are all into you the next week not some much, then to come back another week and repeat.. Then one I rather not even be bother with him and his issues... I don't know why some from your past always wanna come back when you are so OVER them, then with a bunch of baggage.. I am set in my ways.. I like to go out on dates, but that is even an issue.. Seems like people don't really date anymore either. What's up with that? People are just being lazy... Plain LAZY!!

Hopefully this summer will not get the best of me.. I have a wedding that I am catering and then a family reunion that I am organizing. So once I get my  name out there, I will be able to do more.  I am excited!

On the go blogging...

I'm sitting here in the office while I'm waiting on the doctor... Man, in the last 4 months I've been here I know 17 times...
I'm glad I finally know some of MY problems... As much as I hate being here.. I know I'm getting better... I don't like this rapid weight loss though.. Well, I do and don't.. lol

I finally let go of my dead weight, mentally... It was hard but my mental health is also important...

Its Holiday season too and my depression and anxieties are on overload ...  It always take so much out of me. ... I become so stressed because I'm not able to give gifts the way I used too.. I used to love to give give.. Now my finances aren't where they used to be... Now working part time and my extremely high medical bills. ... Nope nope Noe!!!
I do hope you all have yourselves a Merry Christmas!! ❤❤❤❤🎍🎄🎁 

What's the Hold Up?

I am so TIRED of just waiting...

I put some much of my life on HOLD.. 

Why?

Who in the HAYAL, knows....

I just know that pretty soon I will be 39..

Yes my Birthday is 30 days away.. 

I haven't made plans to do anything..

I am waiting to see what my friend wants to do..

Yet, I might be hanging with the girls because he is a last minute 

person.. He is not so predictable..

He say we will do this and end up doing something else.. 

So more that likely I will be with my Girl..

Oh back to the topic..

I am starting to wonder if  things going to always be like this..

See as I stated he is waiting on Jesus.. (which I think it is a cop out).. 

Yes I love this man.. Yes this man is my best friend..

He will always be my best friend regardless..

It's been almost 6 months...

I think my patience is about to run thin...