Day 16...Get cho freak on.. Aint no fun if the homies can't have none...

Day16... You are invited to a party that turned into an orgy, you just arrived…what would you like to see? 


At this point there isn't anything I haven't seen or done.. So I frankly don't care what they are doing... Just tell me where the Tequila at..  I will get my drink and sit back and watch.. 

Time Will Tell...

I have been keeping myself busy.. If it wasn't for these Blog Challenges and Reading a very GOOD BOOK.. My depression might have been set off again.. I've tried to not think so hard on what is really going on with me. I'm keeping my positive outlook a float.

You know they say Trouble don't last always.. I so I am going to be optimistic.. Time will tell when all this will be over.. It did hurt me just for a second..

One of the people I value the most. A person who was there for me when I thought about ending my life.. A person I haven't even had the chance to meet yet.. A dear internet friend that I have known now for 12 years.. She is recovering from a bout with Cancer.. She asked me today VIA FB was I coming to her recovery party.. It kills me that I can't be there for her, when she made it a point to be there for me.
I am broke as hell, I am trying to move, and my job still not paying out any more money.. So a trip to Cali doesn't look like it is going to be in my near future..

Still holding on the the hope, that one day it will truly get better...

Day 15...Getting Caught.......

Day 15...Have you ever been caught masturbating or having sex? tell the story..


Nope I have never been caught... It was always done right before anyone ever came around. Thanks Heavens for 
that.. lol They would have gotten an eye full.. So since I never been caught.. I don't have a story to tell...

Day 14...Doing it Outside...

Day 14.. Public sex: do or don’t?


Today challenge is whether we do or don't do it outside... I prefer NOT to do it outside.. See back when I was young and dumb. I had a few embarrassing moments with public places... Well, not too embarrassing. Me and my boyfriend at the time, both lived with our parents so we had to find a place to screw... Ever Sunday we would go to the park.. The park has a spot that is  tree covered.. So we took our blankets and some music.. Well one thing lead to another and in BROAD daylight.. It was some people walking by, they couldn't see us (I don't think) but I know they HEARD my LOUD tail...So ever since that I no longer feel the need to do it outside... 


Now if it is an Nudist Colony or a private back yard.. Hell go for it.. Especially if it is raining.. I love doing it in the rain.........

Day 13....... Strapped...

Day 13..... A fantasy you know you will never fulfill!!!!

I have talked about this before.. A FANTASY I have wanted to do for quite sometime now.. It started back in the year of 2005.. When I chatted with a few like minds via 360 days of Yahoo... I talked to this guy who was into all kind of freaky stuff.. I told him I wanted to use a strap on with a STRAIGHT man.. I don't know why I want to do this, I just do.. 

I guess it is the Girl Power in me.. It gets me warm and fussy inside thinking on Anal play.. I just can't do it with a Homosexual Male.. Once I was able to to talk a guy into letting me do it.. The sad thing is, when it came time to get with the get on.. He got scared and declined.. He said I had to much built up anger and it showed. So he felt that I was going to tear him up. lol

So I have given up.. There is no man who is so SECURE in his manhood I believe.. If you love women, and you adore women.. Why worry about it? Hell it is a woman doing it.. It aint me trying to punk you...

Day 12.. What's Yo Fantasy..?

Day 12. A fantasy you want to fulfill!

I have done most all I ever wanted to do except a few that I still fling in the air... The other one is a writing challenge for tomorrow.. So I have to wait on that...


Prepare yourself and most of all, don't put no JUDGMENTS against me.. As I have said in the other entries.. I am a pleasure seeker.. I like to meet and feel comfortable with the same types of people. 

One of the fantasies I will love to fulfill is one that requires a total of 6 people. Not really a gangbag.. Been there done that..  Yet this is with 6 beautiful, voluptuous women. Have a so call "ALL GIRL PARTY"... It would be on an island vacation. You know a private resort some where near Bahamas or Jamaica.. What happens there will stay there. An escape with nothing but pleasure set to happen... 

I see myself laying in a bed full of women them feeding me.. Giving me massages and feeling their soft skin next to mine.. As we all grind, tastes, and release our powerful juices.. Me giving each one of them pure ECSTASY... Major fun for all.. Loving the visual of big brown and pink areolas and nipples surrounding my face. Ample bottoms riding and grinding on my thick rubber.. The sound of pleasure music the only instruments is their screams and moans.. 

So yea.. This is ONE of my Fantasies...  

Day 11.. O by the way......

Day 11 Write a letter to the person you faked it with.. tell em why he/she didn't take you there once and for all…




P.SI forgot to tell you...  Every time we were together I had to fake it.. I had to show some type of interest in you. You were pretty good at spoiling me.. It was just I couldn't stand having sex with you.. Then when you started showing your LOSER side.. I couldn't take it any more.. Sorry I waited so late to tell you.. I really thought things would have changed....
See the same person I hated having sex was the same person I fake it with...................... 

Day 10.. Dear Loser... You got on my DAMN nerves...

 Day 10

A letter to the person you regret screwing .. tell em how you really feel…

Dear You got on my DAMN nerves,

I don't even know why I even gave it up to you. As I think back I must have been horny as hell to even let you stick your thing in me. I was stupid, I will admit that. I thought you was cool and I enjoyed hanging out with ya. It is always a breaking point, and I am glad I saw it before someone got hurt.

For years you would beg me to let you hit this. I turned you down time after time. What was I thinking?

I made you think that you had it going on, just cause I felt sorry for your ass.. You always thought you was giving it to me good, didn't you? Ha ha ha... Sucker..

I think the 1^st time was shame on me.. The 2^nd time I was bored... Then the 3^rd time I was drunk out of my freaking mind... I think that was the best time any way, the 3^rd.. I don't really remember the shyt...

Once I told you that I could no longer fool with you.. You became all mushy and sensitive.. Grow a EFFFIN backbone dude.. I think that was the really reason I stop EFFIN with you.. Sorry ASS loser.. I am tired to this day of you still trying to call me... Haven't you noticed, I STOPPED answering the calls? F off LOSER.. You get on my Damn nerves.. I really regret putting it on you...  

Day 9...Sex and Religion.....

Day 9 Does your religion/beliefs hinder your sexual expression?

I don't believe that my religion nor my beliefs hinder my sexual expression. I think it is society that does. See me being a free spirit and pleasure seeker. Many people are so quit to judge.. I am not a person that discriminate against love... I don't care what gender a person is. If I feel a connection with them. Some might say that I live in a confused state. I don't believe that to be true.. Love has no color, no gender, and no limits...

I know that in the good book and christian belief is to save oneself for marriage. Well someone took that from me before I even got the chance. I believe that my body is no longer sacred in that stance. I found love in my sexual being and I feel that with the right person that too can be spiritual.

I have been a lot of things. I have acted out a lot of things. I already feel that if God is a forgiving God.. Any of my choices that I have made in life with be forgiven. I repent my sins and he knows where my heart lies.

It isn't my religion and it isn't my beliefs...It is those who try to judge and dictate who and what I should do or be...

Day 8.. No means NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 8....

What is your definition of rape? Date rape?

The actual definition for Rape or Date Rape....

1.the unlawful compelling of a woman through physical force or duress to have sexual intercourse.

2.any act of sexual intercourse that is forced upon a person.

3.statutory rape.

date rape

 

–noun

sexual intercourse forced by a man upon the woman with whom he has a date with.

I really didn't want to write on this topic.. I started this challenge so I must abide by it's rules.. Me being a victim of both. It is hard to really talk about this type of stuff...

All I can say is that NO means No.. Regardless if you been with the person before or even dating the person. If this person says NO they do not want to have SEX.. Just walk away and let it be.

My definition of RAPE is when a person puts force on you. It doesn't even have to be sexual intercourse. When this person is forcing you to do something that you don't want to do. That is rape. It is a sad act that mostly happens to Women and younger children. This act can change a person's life. It will make them feel dirty, unworthy, and severe DEPRESSION. It violates the persons body. It can cause the person to never trust again, and also to live in fear...

Date Rape is the type of RAPE that a lot of times is hard to prove. They build a trust, they get along, they might even have those feelings.. Especially if the two parties have been dating. The person that is doing such act, might think it ok because they already share kiss or those thoughts of having sex.. Any type of rape isn't ok. I don't care if you been with this person for years.. If you don't want to have sex, you have the right not to.

Any type of violence against a person will is wrong.. If you know someone who is a victim and is afraid to speak up.. Telling them to talk to someone.. The best part of moving on is opening up and releasing their thoughts.

Statics shows that someone is being sexually assault every 2 minutes a day... Two out of three the victim knew the person..

http://www.rainn.org/

 1.800.656.HOPE

Day 7.. Da Best I Ever Had....

Day 7....Write a letter to the best lover you’ve ever had.. 

Dear You let me be myself,

I write you this letter to THANK YOU... There have been men in out of my life.. It was only a few that I chose to get intimate with. When I met you I given up hope to finding that IDEAL lover. A person that understood my sexual drive. The person that knows who I am. Fulfilling every need when it came to sex. A person that was able and deal with my FREE SPIRIT... This person was you.....

We shared a lot of good times together.. Those will be some of the most memorable. The way you made my body feel was something so unbelievable. I must admit, I was whipped.. I never thought a day in my life I would ever let a person get the best of me, in that way.

What woman could ask for anything better.. A person who kept up with her sexual needs. I mean man, you gave it to me EVERY SINGLE TIME I asked... It was never a dull moment with you.. We tried things, we experienced things.. Hell Trey Songz had nothing on us... We invented some Sexual moves, grooves, and went away with them... Your friends and their girlfriends was totally JEALOUS of us. It was nights that they wanted us to stop.. LOL Your roommate would be at the door listening to us.. hehehe

Although we couldn't make it in a relationship... I am forever grateful for the moments... Thank you for being the BEST I EVER HAD!!!!!!!!!!

Day 6.. The Art of my Seduction...

Day 6 Seduction.....

Tell a story about how you would seduce someone you must have …

Most people say I never have to say or do anything. I always do it with my eyes.. I don't know why in the world they tell me that.. I have normal eyes.. Yet they say they always tell a story.. So I guess they all know something that I don't know... Anyhow here's the story...

It was a guy I wanted to get to know better. We been seeing each other in passing and few times at the local club. See a few weeks back I got his name when we were standing at the bar waiting for drinks.. The club was crowded that night and Miss Ghetto Glitter was being slow on making drinks. So I looked over my shoulder and took a glance at this Tall, nicely built chocolate man. All kind of thoughts went through my head when I saw him. So we chit chat for a few and when our separate ways.

Me being the investigator. I later found out how often he frequent the club. He always came there after he got of work. He work for a communication company. So I had to have this man. I was going to get this man too.. I wasn't big on the club scene, yet I saw what I wanted. After that night I waited a few weeks before going back there. I wanted to get my plan set.

I came to the club with my game TIGHT.. I wore my freak'em dress and my Black and Silver Stilettos..

I couldn't wait for this man to see me. My girlfriend's wanted to come to the club with me that night. I told them I am going Solo... I know my girls.. They are such COCKBLOCKERS...

So once I got into the bar.. I went to the ladies room to make sure I looked my best and freshen up. After leaving the ladies room, I saw him at the bar. So I walked up to him and said Hi.. He happened to do a double take and I gave him a smile. He asked how have a been... I told him that I was doing well.. We continue to chat. I asked him did he have a woman in his life and so forth. He said he was single and that was my GREEN LIGHT..

The evening went on.. We ended up with few more drinks... I asked him to dance. I swear I was really feeling this Chocolate. I made sure the songs that we danced to was songs that I could grind against him. I think he liked it anyway. After several dances we sat down at a table near the corner of the club. It was dim and plus it would give me a chance for a little more of a one on one with Chocolate.

We sat there and talk for a few hours. I hinted to him that I am not the type of girl that would just pick up a man at the club. Yet I was wanting to get to know him just a little be better. So I asked him over to my place. I felt safer there.. I have few NOSY neighbors and they HEAR everything. This would be a way that we can just sit, talk over some coffee without the LOUD music of the club.. He agreed.. He walked me to the car and then he got into his car and followed me home..

Once getting in to my home.. I kicked off my shoes and told him to relax himself. I had some movies so I told him to pick one while I went and changed into some more clothes.. Once getting into my room. I was getting hornier by the minute. All I could think about was this man's body all over my body.. So I put on my boy shorts and a tank top. Hey that is how I get comfortable and it shows ALL my ASSETS...

I went into the kitchen. I hollered and asked him would he like something to drink. I told him what I had and he said he just wanted Ice Water. He said he needed to sober up some more before hitting the road back home.. I snickered just a tad.. This man wasn't going anywhere tonight... So I brought him his water and sat next to him. He picked Jason's Lyric. Now everyone that knows me knows.. I love that movie.

 We talk some more. I started to get really relax and I got closer to him. I started starring him into his eyes. He began to look into my eyes. I could just feel the heat between us both. I reach to bring his face closer to mines.. We began to kiss. We began to fondle one another.. Then he lifted me up onto his lap. I could feel him rising and I know he felt the warmth of my honeypot. It became a grinding session. Then I asked did he have a condom. He said of course. Let's just say.. That night was one HELL of a night.. It wasn't just that night, he became my lover for years...

This was my story how I seduced a man....

The bases of the story is... When I set my eyes on something.. I go for it.. Sometimes I might break my rules.. Yet I get what I want.. I make them feel comfortable. Then I go for it.. (this part is true)

(story was fictional)  

Day 5.. Lick, Lick. like a Lollipop....

She doesn’t suck dick/He doesn’t lick clits…is that a deal breaker?

Oral stimulation.... Hmmm!!! Would I stay with someone who doesn't do it? I feel like this, if the person doesn't believe in it.. I don't know.. They better have other things to be able to make me cum. I am a pleasure seeker. Being a Pleasure seeker I gots to be able to cum. Oral stimulation is a type of foreplay for me. It is such a great feeling...It gets my juices pumping.. It helps when thrusting of the dick is in my honeypot.

I remember an ex.. I tell you he knew how to do it.. I mean DAMN he would eat me like I was the buffet at Golden Coral.. The technique how he did it, was so on point.. He would Fuck the hell out of me and when I was about to nut.. OOOOOOOOOweeeeeeeee he would start eating me out. The chills that went over my body... I tell you I saw Pixie Dust, Rainbows, Clouds.

Then I had this BEAUTIFUL WOMAN.. Man I miss her.. I would have crossed over for her.. I mean LITERALLY.... It was the first time we were out together.. We got tipsy and I found out about her and she found out about me. We later went to a friend's house.. Then the MAGIC began.. This woman sucked, licked, swallowed, and gave me the BEST ORAL STIMULATION I ever had. What made it so great I was able to get more than 3 nuts.. She ate me and fingered me for about 5 hours.. NO LIE... It became hard to be around her without wanting to get with her.. lol

So yea.. It could be a deal breaker for me.. I love giving and so I want to receive .. If they didn't, I would feel 

like they was that into me. Other issues would also come to play. Now I am having flash backs.. Dang...

Day 4....Light's Camera Asshun!!!! Boom Chicka Wa Wa!!!

If you were approached and offered to do one porno scene for $20,000, would you do it? and why?

If I was approached and was asked to do a porn scene for 20,000 dollars.. Would I Mahogany do it? Well I am not about to be in no LOW BUDGET Porn. I am sorry.. I watch and a lot of people I know watch too much porn via Internet.. I am not about to show my goodies at that low of a price.. Now if that one scene was just to walk in heels and cross my legs.. I would do that.. Now a half of mill... Will get more from me in that scene.

Now don't get me wrong.. I have done some porn in my life time.. I still got the tapes too.. It was a little of soft porn that me and a ex did.. It was at a time when I was young and STUPID.. It took some time to get the dern tape back. After his HOMEBOY happened to catch a glimpse while they were roommates. The HOMEBOY started trying to holla at me. So I MADE my ex give me the freaking tape..

I know the economy sucks right now. So that 20,000 sounds good to a broke woman like me. Yet my pride and respect plays a major role..  

Day 3.. Whip Me, Chain Me, Tie Me up, and Cuff Me...

Your thoughts on S&M..

(sexual) sadism and masochism; sadomasochism

Hmmmmmmmmm? I always like the thought of being a Dominatrix... Most of the time that is what I dress up as on Halloween. Yea Yea Yea.. I love the control and power that I could have over a person when it comes to sex. Although I have never acted out on someone. I often want too.. “Hint”.. A entry awhile back about my fantasy.

I am sorta of a dark person when it comes to a lot of sexual acts. I love the leather, I love the whips, I also love the feel of HOT WAX poured over my body. I think I have that type of aggressive behavior.. I like to see pleasure in the most odd cases..
So I can deal with it if I am playing the dominant role.

As far as me being submissive, I have a slight problem. I can't see myself letting anyone really tying me up.. I do have some TRUST issues. I don't want to be blinded folded. I can deal with the whips and the cuffs though.. I love a good slap on the ass or the heat hot things pressing on my body while fucking. I can also  deal with the nipples being pulled or bitten.. I think that is as far as I would go if I was being submissive.

Day 2... Me break in a Virgin... NOT!!!

Day 2...

 If you meet someone right now that is a 30 year old virgin, would you be willing to be their first? 

Absolutely NOT.... I like to think of myself as an experienced sexually being.. I can not scare anyone with the things I know and do. Especially if they never has sex before... I would be flattered though if they wanted me to be their first. I would just have to turn them down.. I want someone that has the experience and about as equally as freaky as I am.

I just can't see myself doing it. I could teach him/her a lot of things but it just wouldn't be right.. I rather learn something new with someone that is equally yoked as I.. Heck I might teach this person some BAD HABITS... I have been told that I am too much.. So why leave that type of impression on someone who isn't experienced.  Plus if becomes to the point where it is hard for them to catch on. My attitude might scary the hell out of them.  It also when I get tired of them, it might make it hard for them to leave me alone. Then that becomes a whole different situation.. So again.. I can not, I will not.. Have sex with a VIRGIN............  

Day 1... The 1st time... A young girl looses her Virginity....

Day one of The 30 Days of Erotic Truths.... 1^st time having SEX....

The 1^st time having sex.. I will not say it was when I lost my virginity because it wasn't. My first time having sex was more comical than sex, erotic, or even enjoyable. It was more on the lines of, everybody is doing it type thing. I was with this guy that was friend's of my cousin and my best friend was dating my cousin. I kinda always thought that he was a nice looking guy. So that also helped me give into the temptation.

It was at my cousin house while his mother was away. They was in one room and we were in another.

I stood there at first. We looked at each other and asked was this what we really wanted to do. I said, yea why not. He was like good, I want to also... So I took off my clothes while he took off his.

It was also his first time so we both didn't know what in the hell was going on. He cut on some music. Our background music was “We Got Our Own Thang” by Heavy D and the Boyz. So for years that song played in my head. We started kissing and we was getting in the mood. He was a little older than me and I felt so awkward. So once we started getting our groove on. I was just laying there not doing a thing. I couldn't even really get into it. I was already tarnished from other prior events that happened in my life. So I really wanted this to hurry and be over with.

So the pounding and pounding he started working up a sweat and it kept falling in my eyes. It burned so bad. I started feeling all kind of grossed out. So I had to tell him to stop. I could not take it anymore. I once saw dogs humping and that was how I felt. I felt that he was lapping me like a dog and it was just not a good experience with him. 

After that, I never let a friend talk me into anything else... To this day, I look at him so sideways...

30 Days of Erotic Truth....

I would like to Thank Almond Joy for sending me and invite to this.. Since I have been in such a BLOG funk this will keep my brain flowing... So for 30 days I will write something with each topic assigned...

I will put the first entry up later today....

Here is the list:

1. The first time you had sex …details please


2. If you meet someone right now that is a 30 year old virgin, would you be willing to be their first? 


3. Your thoughts on S&M..


4. If you were approached and offered to do one porno scene for $20,000, would you do it? and why?


5. She doesn’t suck dick/He doesn’t lick clits…is that a deal breaker?


6. Tell a story about how you would seduce someone you must have …


7. Write a letter to the best lover you’ve ever had.. 


8. What is your definition of rape? Date rape?


9. Does your religion/beliefs hinder your sexual expression?


10. A letter to the person you regret screwing .. tell em how you really feel…


11. Write a letter to the person you faked it with.. tell em why he/she didn't take you there once and for all…


12. A fantasy you want to fulfill


13. A fantasy you know you will never fulfill


14. Public sex: do or don’t?

15. Have you ever been caught masturbating or having sex? tell the story..


16. You are invited to a party that turned into an orgy, you just arrived…what would you like to see? 


17. You walk in your bedroom to find your lover deep in the sexual act with the same sex.. what do you do? 


18. Tell a sexual triangle short story


19. Bukkake? your thoughts..


20. Tell a story of your most embarrassing sexual experience..


21. Make a music playlist you would like to get busy to …(name of artist, title of song, why you choose it)


22. Swinging… your thoughts…


23. Dom/Sub… sexy or just an excuse for men or women to abuse?


24. What is your definition of freaky?


25. What motivates you to hit your orgasmic peak during a masturbation session?


26. Anal sex? are you anal about it?


27. Your man/woman likes to have sex with the same sex. Are you willing to invite this into your bedroom? Why?


28. If you could get your hands on some dick/pussy right now, how would you want it? 


29. What makes you sexy to YOU?


30. write an erotic poem of your choice.. raunchy or classy.. bring it!!!

I'm Bored....

I am SO BORED... It is already near summer and I haven't did one thing to be entertained by.. I hate being this way.. I tend to turn to food and smoking a lot of newports.. I need do get up and get out and do something...

That is the hard thing to do right now.. Since money is tight.. No form of transportation because Gas is so high.. Friends occupied with children, marriage, and relationships. I am not doing much.  I kinda miss the days  when you can hop in the car and have a night on the town for under 50 dollars. Even being able to go out and buy an outfit.

I can remember when I just did all of those things. I've been out but the things I did was so limited.. I plan on taking a vacation this year right before I move. I hope when I do this I will be able to knock some of this boredom away.  I am also looking into finding something else to do with my time. I tried walking yet the heat, rain, and these bugs are getting to me.

So on this Sunday.. I just sat around the house.. I ate, slept, and typed this short blog... LOL I am even getting bored with my Facebook games.. I never thought the day I would say that...

Untitled....

Thinking of a Master Plan

Over the last few weeks and not posting any entries... I have been focusing on myself. I am my own breath of fresh air sometimes. I tic toc like the clock... I am always thinking of way to make a better me.

After leaving the doctor on May 2nd, I had to take alot of what I heard from the doctor in to consideration. He claimed that I am suffering High Blood Pressure and a High Blood Sugar level. I didn't want to fall in to those categories. My parent and most of my family all have this problem. I didn't want it to be me. I have to make some changes in my eating habits. I know it is going to be rough because I am the COOK..  Although I love all types of food. I just like what I like and I want others to like it.
I also noticed that everyday stress is also taking it's tole on me. I tell you some days I want to SCREAM my head off..  My job, my family, and these stupid ass wangstas.. So I have learned the word NO.. No I can't help you.. No I am not willing to do that.. No No No...  I tell you.. I am finally happy to say it. I no longer feel guilty. I can't be all things to all people anymore. I hope that they will understand that.. I am a month and a few weeks away before I go on my VACATION.. So that will be some type to relax...  I suppose to be moving then.. I hope that it happens... I am still keeping the faith on that too...

As far as anything else.. I am still in my Happy Space... I am getting a kick out of life.. I truly love being me........