Honey Chile I know you aint trying to downgrade anybody!!

I Love misguided individuals..  They just don't know any better... They will always be lost.. 

The other day I was listening to a Co Worker who happens to be black.. (I had the same conversation with another co worker a few years ago).. He was talking to another Co Worker.. One that I always tell him he is going to be my Husband one day.. He always flirt  with me and he really does like me, but he has some growing up to do.. SERIOUSLY..

Well the conversation was how the other co worker who is black so I will call he BW and I will call the other one who is white WT...  BW isn't attracted to Black women and never dated a Black Woman and he said he will NEVER date a Black Women because he don't find any of them attractive.. (Note: He is not attractive himself and he always ashy and has dirt in his nails... ewww) Then he proceeds to tell WT how he someone told him he had a beautiful child.. He said because he didn't have one with a Black Woman.. ( That's when I almost fell to the damn floor).. His girlfriend aint cute and neither is he.. So what the hell? He said he never wanted his children to come out black.. WTFH? So I busted him and said.. He might not look Black but in everyone eyes He is still Black..  

I read him after that.. I told him the only reason why he feels that he will not be with a black woman is because of his mentality.. I said if he thinks all black women are ugly.. What does he think about his mother..? He wouldn't even answer.. So I said ok.. You hate that you were born black.. Yea that is.. You hate yourself so much you want to belittle anything black.. I said you are living a sad life.. I said hopefully your son one day will end up loving a black girl .. What you gonna do?

WT was stunned by his statement and even shock that I blew him up.. WT said I don't care what color a woman is.. As long as she has a beautiful spirit and soul.. Then he said helll I rather be with black women anyway.. He said all the white women I dated is crazy and always tripping if you don't call within a few minutes of a text.. He said the last black woman he dated was the best thing that happened to him but he had to break up with her because she was going away into the army.. LOL

I have learned that everyone has a preference... I for one don't date outside my race.. I don't believe you should belittle another race though.. You feel what you feel but you do not say a race is ugly.. I for one love my color.. I wouldn't trade it for the work.. I think we are the best things happening, but you aint gonna talk about it.. 

If you have that much self hate.. Then you need to really know how it feels to be black son.. I think BW thought it makes him a better person.. Nah Son!! 

Is it really a BIG DEAL?

I am blogging fool right now aren't I? I was talking to my cousin about an issue that came up a few months back.. Yea I have made some stupid choices in life, yet that is part of life right.. You learn from your mistakes, right?

Back when I was in my early 20's I made a lot of bad choices.. Do I regret them, HELLS NO!! This was back when J had went to jail. Note: I wasn't J only girlfriend.. I was just the one he never brought out into public.. I was the one the family loved. I am still close to the family.. Only after he went to jail.. After awhile of becoming a little lonely and bored.. One of my friends that I hung out with.. Which we both knew, introduced me to another one of the friends... See J was looking at 10 years of prison. I was just 20.. So I wasn't about to put my life on hold.. I cared for him, but he wasn't that special... So as time when on, I started dating the other guy R...
Me and R hung out almost everyday.. I would stay at his house when I was off of work.. We would do things together when he was off.. We went to parties together.. We went out of dates together.. We just got along really well. His friend's knew about me. So everything was cool.. Well you know how men talk.. J cousin found out about me and R..  J wasn't too happy about it.. A matter of fact he called me all kind of names you could think of.
Ok for the history summary.. He ended up getting married, still messing around, and etc etc... So one day me and him was talking (a few months ago) he was hearing about my issues with R.. See I am able to still be friends with J because of his family and my family ties.. Me and R are still friend just cause he is a nut.. Anyho J was mad and told me how he felt about the whole thing. I told him why does he even care.. I had to break it down about things.. J we was dating but it was mostly about sex.. He never took me out.. He never introduced me to his friends.. I only knew his intimate family.. I only knew them because of the family ties..
Me and R went out, we dated, and we had fun...
So for him to get mad was just plain stupid... Men just don't get it.. Yea Yea just cause they knew of each other. They wasn't close friends.. Plus what could he do for me when he was locked up..

In just 2 days...

All I can do right now is laugh my ass off... In just 2 days I have managed some how to piss some people off.. Yea really...  I frankly don't care about it.. It is just the saying comes to my mind... "What do I look like, Ho?" What do people really want from me? Seriously.. I have been nice.. I have been cool..  I haven't did shyt...

First of all it started yesterday with my ex...  MC... He has moved on.. He claims to be happy.. So I haven't talked to him in a few weeks.. Why should I anyway?  So he kept on saying that we aren't friends anymore..  I was like ok.. So boom out of no where.. He started cursing me out.. He was mad and saying all kind of shyt to me.. So I just deleted everything that had to do with him.. I was not about to let him talk to me any kind of way... I am still dumbfounded...

The new guy I was talking about.. He too is now deleted... Just say the things that he said to me wasn't what he actually wanted.. He came to my house today.. Just say he wasn't looking for nothing more than him getting  his kicks.. I am sick.. Went to the doctor office today and I have Bronchitis...  Thinking that he just wanted to come and check up on me..  Oh well he had other ideas.. So when I showed him that isn't what he was going to get.. He got mad.. He got pissed..

So in just two days.. I guess those who didn't mean me a bit of good are out of my life.... I sure do know how to pick them don't I...