Sunday, June 26, 2011

Is it really a BIG DEAL?

I am blogging fool right now aren't I? I was talking to my cousin about an issue that came up a few months back.. Yea I have made some stupid choices in life, yet that is part of life right.. You learn from your mistakes, right?

Back when I was in my early 20's I made a lot of bad choices.. Do I regret them, HELLS NO!! This was back when J had went to jail. Note: I wasn't J only girlfriend.. I was just the one he never brought out into public.. I was the one the family loved. I am still close to the family.. Only after he went to jail.. After awhile of becoming a little lonely and bored.. One of my friends that I hung out with.. Which we both knew, introduced me to another one of the friends... See J was looking at 10 years of prison. I was just 20.. So I wasn't about to put my life on hold.. I cared for him, but he wasn't that special... So as time when on, I started dating the other guy R...
Me and R hung out almost everyday.. I would stay at his house when I was off of work.. We would do things together when he was off.. We went to parties together.. We went out of dates together.. We just got along really well. His friend's knew about me. So everything was cool.. Well you know how men talk.. J cousin found out about me and R..  J wasn't too happy about it.. A matter of fact he called me all kind of names you could think of.
Ok for the history summary.. He ended up getting married, still messing around, and etc etc... So one day me and him was talking (a few months ago) he was hearing about my issues with R.. See I am able to still be friends with J because of his family and my family ties.. Me and R are still friend just cause he is a nut.. Anyho J was mad and told me how he felt about the whole thing. I told him why does he even care.. I had to break it down about things.. J we was dating but it was mostly about sex.. He never took me out.. He never introduced me to his friends.. I only knew his intimate family.. I only knew them because of the family ties..
Me and R went out, we dated, and we had fun...
So for him to get mad was just plain stupid... Men just don't get it.. Yea Yea just cause they knew of each other. They wasn't close friends.. Plus what could he do for me when he was locked up..

I can't believe...

 It has been this long since I last posted here. Nothing really has changed but my mentality.. I truly believe that I've gotten wiser an...