It looked like a relationship.. We acted like we were in a relationship.. We shared everything together like a relationship... I said "I loved you".. He acted like he loved me back... Maybe he did... Maybe he didn't...
I never could understand the whole thing.. His actions at the time was as if he loved me.. It was the reason why I fell so hard for him.. He was a wonderful person.. Our life seemed like it was going to move forward.. We made plans to be together FOREVER.. If it wasn't in marriage, it was going to be in friendship..
I sacrificed a lot for him. I lost friends behind him. I didn't care, I finally had LOVE like no other.. I was with a man I loved.. My life revolved around his.. It seemed like my life was revolved around him too..
Then one day while out on a trip.. He had moved to North Carolina a few years earlier.. So I thought he would have been happy that I came up there.. My online group was having a meet and greet.. He seem at 1st to be happy.. The he started acting really funny.. I came all the way out of town just to spend time with him and my online group... I barely saw him at the time. When I did get to see him, he was short with me. Even when we had sex that night he was really off.. That morning he leaves really quick.. I called one of my online friends to go downstairs with me.. I proceed to see him eating breakfast with a group of women he just met.. I was getting really pissed, but didn't say much.. I waited for him to finished.. Me and my friend walks outside.. I went to confront him... I could have dropped dead right there.. In front of my friend he goes to say.. "TRACY, LEAVE ME ALONE... I DON'T LOVE YOU the way YOU LOVE ME!!!"
Six fucking years... Six MUTHERFUCKING YEARS... I thought I had him figured out.. I wasted SIX YEARS..
You can go back and visit what I had to say back then...I still love this man.. Too bad he didn't love me back.. I'm slowly getting over it.. I came to the realization, Love isn't for me.. So I deal with it..
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That's his damn loss, I'm mad as hell after reading this.
Jazmine Sullivan - After the Hurricane (what this reminds me of)
I'm so sorry you had to experience that. I've certainly been there and it IS his loss! Ol punk azz moves are SO not cool.
Toshi it does... To this day I don't understand why I let coop take so much from me..
I agree--it is definitely his loss; you are just getting prepared for even bigger and better; you just wait.
I know it is his loss.. I lost a lot too..
IC he is a punk..I think lot of it was his friends.. They always joked about us. They used to tell him he was under my ass too much..
I hate when you relive him. I know a lot of us are reliving our pains in this challenge, but I saw what you went through and I coulda jumped on his back and beat the melanin outta him for his selfish shit. ~woosah~
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