Bye Bye 2016

In all my life I think this has been the hardest year on record..
A lot of changes happened.. I learn who my real friends are. I also realized those who genuinely supports and respects me.

Seeing the changes in my mother have been heartbreaking.  I am glad that she has me though. Back in May I had to leave my job to be home with her. When I tell you when you are at the bottom most people that you have been a support to will leave you with no problems.  I guess you can say, They were never a friend to begin with.

This year I lost one of my best friends from childhood. She lost her life due to cancer... She fought long and hard for about 3 years with the disease. I truly miss seeing her smile.. My prayers are with her family especially her Daughters.. She was the glue to the family..

The celebrities death, man oh man... So many of them.. Prince was hard on me, I still upset about that... Then Rickey Harris, Boy George, and Maurice White, and so many others.. I think I counted around 50 of them that passed away this year. So sad...

2016 seem to have been a year of mourning, disappointments, and hardships for so many people.
So yes, I am ready to see this year go. I thought at 1st 2015 was bad... NOT it was a doozy  compared to this year.

I think the good thing that came out of this year was that I moved into a home that I can be proud of. A nice home, a beautiful home, and comfortable home.. Now paying the bills is another thing.. LOL


I hope each and every one of you have a Happy New and Prosperous New Year...

1 Love!!

Settled in....

I never thought that I would ever move out of my childhood home. So many memories...

Besides still going through it day by day.. I am finally settled in...  I think I am happy in this new place.. It is a step up from the old and so much space... I wanted and needed a bigger house and I finally got it.. It still is taking a little to get used to because I rarely in my bedroom like I once was.. (haven't had a lazy day in months)..

I am kinda scared of what my electric bill is going to look like. I'm barely making it as is.. I am hopeful though.. A way will be made some kind of way..

Mom is liking it. Her sleep patterns is so much better than it used to be. She occasionally wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom but as far as that, she is sleeping very well.

I pretty much have all my decorations in order.. My living room is Afrocentic and my Bathroom is too.. My bedroom is a little of Afro, Bohemian, and Glamour.. You can call it eclectic.. My kitchen is red and sunflowers... Mom's room is old country chic..

I hope to make this home a home that I can be comfortable in for a long time. So far it is..

Ready for a blessed and promising new year!!

America The not so Beautiful...

I tell you this past week has really been draining and just so uneasy... I hate the events that has happened.. I know last week I talked about Mr. Sterling.. Then right after that Mr. Castile lift ended in the hands of a Police Officer.. Then the killing of 5 officers in Dallas.. I tell you Friends that I grew up with really showed me their true colors.. I am glad that they did.. It gave me a sense of ease.

This world really need peace... It is going to take time and I don't see it in my lifetime..
This is something I wrote on my status on Facebook...

"Hey Faces... I can't say this is a good morning because I woke up PISSED... I have slept on and I've prayed on this.. I might lose some friends, I might lose some family members.. I'm just TIED! I changed my ways of thinking about 20 years ago. I did it for my way of life and not anyone elses.

Everyone wants us to sing Kum Ba Ya and hold hands and be subdued... I get it. I want to live in the world where I can live peacefully .. I don't want to be judged because I wear my African Garb and my keep my head in a turban... I am what you can Black as a person can get... My way of thinking, my way of life, and the way I dress. I can love all people and give them respect but because of the way I look and act some might look at me as a threat...

It seems like I have to say this over and over and over....

You don't know how it feels to be Black and in America if you aren't.. You just DON'T.. White Privileges is real... Back when I was working and I was good at my job and it was time for me to be promoted a manager asked another one "Do you trust her with this job?" "The regional manager at the time sent a email out to the company stating "Do you want someone like that Leading a Store"... Yea, I know all the things that were said about me... I am a Black chick with dreads... I am a threat (they think).. I went own to show them I am more than qualified to do my job and done it well at that... Weekly was getting emails about how well my office ran... I also got emails on how my customers loved and enjoyed me.. My name was mentioned all the time.. So am I really a threat?

This is not the 1st time this has happened in America... Those men was MURDERED... Then for SOME of YOU want to tarnish those Men name is RIDICULOUS! It's always they don't want to believe that it is some bad cops out here.. It is... No man deserves to be shot down that wasn't given no threat.. Alton Sterling WASN'T A CHILD MOLESTER he was 17 went the female was 15.. They both were kids.. So for SOME OF YOU TO SAY another child molester dead is a good thing... You just don't know how strong my side eye was...Him being behind on his child support.. Damn it man, he sold CD's... At least he was freaking trying... Hell, I sell cd's 3 to 5 dollars aint shyt....You all are being FUCKING judgmental... No one deserves to be murdered but SOME OF YOU want to justify this shyt.. CRAZY! I have lost all respect, just know that.. I will never be rude.. I will never say anything out the way.. Just know I have lost all respect...

When things like this happen WHITE GUILT gets all up in uproar... They think the NIGGERS about to show out.. Nah, man... We were raised on the teachings of MLK.. We are not crazy folks... Yea it's some dumb arses but that's in any race...
Bringing up black on black crime... "we kill where we live"... The media only show Black on Black crime because it gets ratings and because it is another way to paint a dark picture on our race.. Whites are perfect, Blacks are evil...? Remember it's always been this way in the media.. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP! Don't act like it doesn't exist... It does and we see this.. We see we aren't respected and we aren't valued... So this is why I always show images of black people.. I always so when we do good things in the world.... I sometimes feel I stand alone but damn it man... WE ARE NOT ALL THE SAME! Get that in your head and you will understand how we feel..

Now, it's sad what happened in Dallas.. Again no one needs to lose their life. I hate it happened and I want this world to heal. I want Dallas to heal.. This being a national crisis though? It was a separate isolated indecent.. Cops killing unarmed or non threatening Black Men and Women been a national crisis in the last 6 years...(Don't want to admit that) Police Brutality been a national crisis since hell before I was born...(you wouldn't know if you aren't black or brown)..

I say 1 <3 span=""> Love at most of my statuses because I want that one love... I want to live together in peace and happiness,,, I have no hate in my body.. STOP THE JUDGMENTS.."

I swear everytime things like this happens you see people ugly faces... No we aren't going to live in a perfect world, I just wish it was a nice one...

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Another Black Man Killed... Is it or will it EVER End... #AltonSterling

I woke up this morning with the news and saw the video... 

May this Husband and Father rest in peace...

#AltonSterling

My prayers are with his family and friends.

I don't normally write about this.. I just make a Facebook or Twitter Status.. 

From what I have heard that Mr. Sterling had permission to sell cd's in front of the store. 

One of his family members also stated that he said the Police have been harassing him all day yesterday or for some time now.. 

I am watching CNN to hear his family speak.

Stuff like this hurts me to my soul. This happens so much and not always does it get video or media coverage...

This very thing seems like it happens every summer... 

I pray for peace and understanding in all this.

CNN interviewed his Aunt and she said beside of a small incident her nephew didn't carry a gun nor was he a violent person.. She called him a Gentle Giant..

May God keep his family covered with love, strength, and peace..

#BlackLivesMatter

#AltonSterling

#StopKillingUs 

Welcome 2016..

It is a New Year.... I am thankful to see another year.. Another year to get it right.. I lost so much in 2015.. I am happy for this New Year.. I've started my frugal living too.. I want to be able to save money.. I trying to get back on the financial track. I trying my best to catch up my bills and what not. So maybe soon I will be able to be free from this debt. I was almost on to the good credit until life happened.. :(

My goals for the new year are:

Spend no more than 50 dollars is groceries a week..
Save at least 20 dollars a week..
Pay my bills on time...
Find another part time job...
Continue to live in peace...

I know it seems minimum  but hey... I live for the simple life..
I wish you all well in the new year!!!1 <3 br="">