Starting November 1st.. 

I will be doing a Writing Challenge of 30 days of Thanks...

It will be 30 things I am thankful for..

I challenge you all to do the same..

If you would like to participate in this writing challenge.. 

In comments let me know with a link to your site or where you will be posting your entries. 

Also be sure to link back to here. 

Continuous Drips

Title: Continuous Drips

Authors: The Collective (composed of Da'Kharta Rising, Synful Desire, and Queen of Spades)

Genre(s): Short Story Anthology, Multi-Genre Anthology

Word Count: 28,990




Blurb: 
Different colors of ink collide in this short story anthology Continuous Drips:

Take a trip into darkness with Da'Kharta Rising with "Unrest", "Omitted" and "The Kutters".

Love, loss, and erotic heat hypnotically swirl in the mind of Synful Desire when reading "Derailed Endurance", "Final Prep to Happiness" and "FAN-tasy Island".

Episodes of human interaction displacement are given in doses when Queen of Spades presents "Misfortune", "Afro Shock", and "Útil."




Amazon Pre-Order
The official launch date for Continuous Drips is November 12th but pre-order is available:
http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00OTQVO9C



Networking links:


Da'Kharta Rising

• Facebook (https://www.facebook.com/dakhartarising)
• Amazon Author Page (https://amazon.com/author/dakhartarising)

• Blog: Thoughts of a Slightly Social Anti-Socialite (https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/8183620.Da_Kharta_Rising/blog)

• Koobug: (http://www.koobug.com/dakhartarising)

Synful Desire

• Facebook Author Page (https://www.facebook.com/synfuldesireauthor)
• Amazon Author Page (https://amazon.com/author/synfuldesire)
• Blog: Synful Interludes (https://www.synfuldesire.blogspot.com)
• Twitter @synful_desire (https://twitter.com/synful_desire)

Queen of Spades

• Facebook Author Page (https://www.facebook.com/authorqueenofspades)
• Amazon Author Page (https://amazon.com/author/queenspades)
• Blog: A Queen's Ramblings (https://www.aqueensramblings.blogspot.com)
• Website (http://www.authorqueenofspades.com)
• Twitter @authorqspades (https://twitter.com/authorqspades)

Just some Randoms...

I don't even have a picture to even go with what is going on in my head.. LOL
It is basically a world wind of a little bit of everything..

First off I am ready for some fun.. As I stated I've been tied up with someone since March.. Now that he is no longer a BIG issue for me.. I want to enjoy my freedom.. I no longer have to wait on him to decide on what is going to go on with us. I am not going to lie.. I do miss her dearly and I miss our talks and time together.. He wants us to slow down, so it seems we are just at a complete hault.. I aint mad at him.. It's his life.. It's his loss..I can't control what goes on in his life.. I only have control over mine and I am going to enjoy what little Life I have..

Now my job.. As you all know I was promoted back in March too.. LOL March use to be the worst months for me.. Now it looks like everything just happens in March if it is good or bad..
Well with me taking on this new job.. It seems like I am always at work.. Then it has became that I am the go to girl when there is a problem.. I kinda like being needed.. It is just on my days off, I just wish it was my day off.. LOL Then when I do get back to work it is a mess.. UGH!!.. I am thankful to have a job otherwise..

My emotional state has been all over the place.. One minute I am OH SO EVER happy. Then the next minute I feel like I can punch someone in the throat.. I have tried to be calm in certain situations but I think some people just bring the Debil out of me. Then watching the news and all these shows on the ID channel can wreck a sistah.. It is causing me to be paranoid and scared to go out the house and what not.

That pretty much is my randoms.. All the other stuff I can't tell you.. hehehe

7 Lovely Things...

I was Tagged by My Friend Moni... Who I love and one of my favorite writers EVER!

To write 7 Lovely things.. 

 Here are the rules:Share seven lovely things about myself, nominate 15 blogs that I enjoy reading (or as many as possible), and nominate those fifteen blogs to do the same, linking back to my post.

1. I love to smile and often..  
2. I am a goofy person and some think that I am an air head.
3. I love to cook and I am a master of the kitchen
4. I am my mother's only child and I wasn't spoiled. Go figure!
5. My favorite colors are: Black, Gray, Red, and Purple.
6. My Favorite Flower is Sunflowers
7. I am a mid-level couponer

Now here are the folks I am nominating.. 

Regina, She writes about her family, her life, and all other good things that makes her...

Joy, she is awesome... Her life, her thoughts, and Music.. She is a writer to look out for..

My Sister Amber, Her realness.. Her Life, Her movement.. I love her..

I don't have a total of 15 because one of the has already been chosen and the other one has already nominated me.. :) I do have other blogs in the past that I loved to read but no one has written anything in the last wow.. 3 to 4 years.. Is blogging becoming distant thing of the past?

About Last Night...

It's must be the season of reflecting.. You know the Fall is always my favorite time of the year.. It also brings a lot of emotions my way.  I become distant and isolated...

Last night I cut everything off around 6:30 I laid in bed in total darkness and silence. 

I was that way until around 12 this morning. I even cut my phone off and disconnected myself for everything on the outside world. 

I would lay there listening to my thoughts.. I would also get up and get on my knees to Pray to the Lord.  It got to the point where I felt no one but God with me. As I cried to him and poured my heart unto him. 

I believe that this is one of my things to do when Life as I know it is about to change and not change slowly but drastically. It's about to be something that is beyond my control take major hit in my life. I shouldn't sound so negative but I feel it. This is why I had to take this day and give every thought to silence. 

I do believe some of the energy is released from me. I wish that all was but as I woke this morning I still had the uneasy feeling go through my gut... I just wish things would be better.. I often wonder why do I go through so much.. Especially since I have been so go to so many people. What have I've done wrong to go through so much pain and suffering.? 

Am I really built for this? Am I just over-reacted to all that is hitting me at once?

Why am I so sensitive?  I try not to question the Lord..  He has everything already planned out.. This is what I believe. It's just becoming too much.. Just entirely too much for my spirit..

I hear that I bring so much joy and happiness to others.. Then when why does it drains so much out of me? I look for the good in the world but they world isn't good to me. 

I don't know what is to become of all this and I gather that it will make me stronger or kill me slowly..

Have a wonderful Sunday and Be Blessed!!

Viola Got a Standing O...

Ni Ni Ni!! I have loved Actress Viola Davis for quite sometime.. I think she is an Extremely talented.. After last night... HUNTY!!! I have got more respect for her as an person...
Now this show is starting to get BETTER.. I have been catching myself fall asleep during the show off and on.. Yet last night.. BAM! I woke up at the right time..

This show the plot is starting to thicken.. I am not going to spoil it as to what I think she is going to do.. Hey the show is How to get away with Murder..

Anyhoo her taking off the wig, the lashes, and the makeup... I gave her an standing ovation.. She went against the grain and made herself HUMAN!! RESPECT!

I am Glad that ABC Thursday's belong to Shonda.. It has brought forth a slew of Great Black Actors and Actresses.. WE need to see more of us.. These are talented writers, talented actresses, just GREAT TELEVISION...

#SHONDALAND #TGIT #AMERICASBLACKCHANNEL

I figured it out!!!!!!!!

For awhile I was thinking it was me.. I was the reason for all my failed relationships.. Or why so many men see me as just a friend type person... 

I am partly the reason because of the men I attract.. Also the type of men I am attracted too..

See I have no qualms in being single.. I have to work hard and I also have to take care of my mother who is now in 1st level of Dementia.. Yes I haven't spoken on that because I really don't want anyone coming to my mother feeling sorry for her.. She is still strong willed, she just have some good and bad days..  So I think I was just looking for outside fulfillment to get me through the rough part. 

Well anyway the common words I always get from men is :You are too good for me: You are Heaven Sent: You deserve better:... So am I continually going for the wrong men.. YES!!

The light bulb  lit up after talking yesterday to an old internet friend.. He asked me what do I look for in a man (relationship) and what are the type of things I do in the relationship..

He said I all the qualities of a GOOD WOMAN and a GOOD Wife.. He said I just go for the wrong men. He said he doesn't understand how a person like me fall for the uneducated, crazy, temperamental, Childish men.. He said he has watched over the years the different types of men I've dated.. He asked me was I truly ready for relationships... I told him after he put that out there.. I am not quite sure. 

Then I talked to my Life Coach and how I told him about a few things that were bothering me yesterday.. It was my birthday and I tend to go all out with others. The only things I got from my Bestest was a call early in the morning singing Happy Birthday.. :(  I went all out for his.. He even promised to call me back later in the day... He did not.. I even got drunk and called him.. He didn't answer or did he even respond to my Facebook message.. He told me to let that go, squash it, and just do me.. Why am I still drawn to this type of pain.. I really don't know..

I was watching last week Fix My Life.. Another light bulb moment.. Brokenness attracts Brokenness.. I have said before I have Daddy Issues.. Me and my father are some what closer than we ever been once I got older..  Growing up I didn't have a bad childhood I was just one who had to grow up way earlier than most.. I was cooking full meals at 8 years of age.. I had to help my mother take care of my grandmother and when my mom worked I had to make sure my grandmother was set, fed, and cleaned.. 

Then I also have separation anxieties..  Everything I love the most tends to leave me.. I thank God my mom is still here though.. I am somewhat anti social but when I get around folks I feel comfortable around I am good.. I sometimes feel at ease with strangers than I do people I know the most.. That way they don't know the pain and struggle I have on day to day life..

Besides all the emotions I was going through yesterday on my Birthday.. I can say it turned out to be pretty decent.. I got money, cards, balloons, hugs, kisses, and a dinner.. The most important thing was to still be here to share it with those who love and care for me deeply.. I will be having a few friends over on Friday.. :)

It is What it Is!! No Regrets...

I used to think that so many others had an warp sense of what LOVE & Relationships suppose to be like.. I think it might be me with that problem.. (seriously)...  I am starting to think I live in some type of fairytale love life. The KEYWORD is EXPECT a little to much out of relationships. I have read too many love stories, watched too many movies, and saw too many soap operas in my day..

Wanting that perfect love can sometimes kill everything in it's path..

Now you know that me and my friend was trying to see if it would workout between us. We are still cool but for us to maintain that strong bond in our friendship we got to slow it down. He is still in the process of getting his life back to normal and I am just to STRONG willed to wait.. If that makes sense. It has gotten to the point where we would argue because I didn't understand what was going on,, He is one of those types that you have to beat a word out of.  (I didn't hit him)..

You know he started back working all the time.. When it was time for us to spend together he would be just too tired.. So I was feeling as if he just didn't want to be bothered.. So You know me.. I want to know why there is no time spent with each other.. Then that led into TRACY YOU EXPECT TO MUCH FROM ME.. argument.. I know I've done it in the past.. So I just started backing off.. I would go days with out talking or texting him.. Hayal, the last time I actually saw him in the physical was September 13th.. Yea that was the last time.. So this was around October 1st when it was becoming an issue with me. 

So we took the time to have a very long and deep conversation.. We love each other dearly.. We know that.. He said he rather lose me as a lover than to lose me as a friend. He rather have me for a life time than a short time.. I understand where he was coming from.. It is what it is.. I see that once again. Men only love me for my friendship.. LOL I guess that's a good thing and I am not mad at him what so ever.. Some just aren't ready for what and who I am.. 

I am quite sure no one will ever be.. 

I talked to my Life Coach about this.. He told me that is the best form of LOVE... He goes on to tell me, relationships don't always last just like friendships.. Yet to have someone to love you enough to let you go and find what you really need in your life.. Is someone that truly loves you and know you deserve the best.. 

I'll take that.. 

Just got to enjoy the good..

The other day I was Blessed by someone.. He always comes in the store and he won pretty good the prior week. He told me because I sold him the ticket and that I have always been nice to him. He also have notice the change in me over the last few days.. So he wanted to brighten my day.. Well as you can guess he gave me some money. It wasn't a lot but I truly didn't need what he had given me. He was right though.. It brighten my day because someone was paying me attention. Someone thought of me enough to appreciate my good spirits.. 

So I payed it forward to a co worker.. I also got this feast here for me and the girl I raised.. Me and her been going through the emotional rollercoaster with our relationships. She is also a fellow Libra and we both LOVE SEAFOOD!!  So we  cooked, ate,  watched SHONDALAND Thursday, and talked.. I enjoyed my night with my daughter.. 

You know sometimes we make choices we might not really agree with.. At the time we think it  right..
So last night was a great night for me to express myself, and to have someone to talk to who knows me the best. So I say... We can't dwell on the bad things happening in life.. You just got to enjoy the good.. I am truly Blessed to have people that will still stand by me with all the choices I make..