It is What it Is!! No Regrets...

I used to think that so many others had an warp sense of what LOVE & Relationships suppose to be like.. I think it might be me with that problem.. (seriously)...  I am starting to think I live in some type of fairytale love life. The KEYWORD is EXPECT a little to much out of relationships. I have read too many love stories, watched too many movies, and saw too many soap operas in my day..

Wanting that perfect love can sometimes kill everything in it's path..

Now you know that me and my friend was trying to see if it would workout between us. We are still cool but for us to maintain that strong bond in our friendship we got to slow it down. He is still in the process of getting his life back to normal and I am just to STRONG willed to wait.. If that makes sense. It has gotten to the point where we would argue because I didn't understand what was going on,, He is one of those types that you have to beat a word out of.  (I didn't hit him)..

You know he started back working all the time.. When it was time for us to spend together he would be just too tired.. So I was feeling as if he just didn't want to be bothered.. So You know me.. I want to know why there is no time spent with each other.. Then that led into TRACY YOU EXPECT TO MUCH FROM ME.. argument.. I know I've done it in the past.. So I just started backing off.. I would go days with out talking or texting him.. Hayal, the last time I actually saw him in the physical was September 13th.. Yea that was the last time.. So this was around October 1st when it was becoming an issue with me. 

So we took the time to have a very long and deep conversation.. We love each other dearly.. We know that.. He said he rather lose me as a lover than to lose me as a friend. He rather have me for a life time than a short time.. I understand where he was coming from.. It is what it is.. I see that once again. Men only love me for my friendship.. LOL I guess that's a good thing and I am not mad at him what so ever.. Some just aren't ready for what and who I am.. 

I am quite sure no one will ever be.. 

I talked to my Life Coach about this.. He told me that is the best form of LOVE... He goes on to tell me, relationships don't always last just like friendships.. Yet to have someone to love you enough to let you go and find what you really need in your life.. Is someone that truly loves you and know you deserve the best.. 

I'll take that..