This economy...

This is ridiculous. I have been looking for a part time 2nd job. See at my job I am only getting around 25 hours a week. This is crazy knowing that I am full time. The business is really slow right now and it is driving me nuts. I am really struggling to make it right now.

It seems like this time every year I get really mad about my financial situation. I am also going on my 4 year without getting a raise. I know that sucks and I feel like it is going to get worst. I am about to get my budget in order once again. I have to also let go off somethings once again. My cell will be cut off until I can get back on my feet. Due to this ordeal.. It is getting my spirits down.

I don't even want to a party on Saturday. They want all of us to bring something and I won't even have extra to bring. So I might be just chilling at home once again on the weekend. I don't want to borrow the money cause they will bring me further in debt.

So keep me all in your prayers that I don't flip out... I am sitting here thinking why am I even working.. So many people abuse the system and I just don't understand those of us who work so hard still get shytted upon.. 

My Thought of the Day....... Bills, Bills, Bills....

I don't know what to say sometimes.. Bills can get out of hand. Especially when there hardly any funds to cover them.

It just seem that the price of things are so outrageous. I never thought to watch TV would cost you a grip. Cable runs around 70 dollars these days. Then the telephone is around 80. When you have them bundled then it will get you around 150 dollars a month.

I even noticed that Lights and Gas has risen to high for my taste. Who is benefiting from all these high prices. I know it is not me. I barely watch TV or use my lights. So why would it be over in the 200 dollar mark for it.

The insurance companies are tripping too. I don't even visit the doctors like I should. Heck I pay 47 dollars a week in that. I said this year I better start using what  I pay for. Heck on top of that the doctor bill is going to go up.  You still have to pay what the insurance won't.  I just don't get it.

I am not having such a hard time as I did in the past. I still don't have enough to really do what I want too.. Hoping that one day that lottery (when I do play) will pay off... I am tired of all these bills....

My Thoughts of Today.. Tough Times

Right now I am in a state that I don't know what to do but leave it to God. I thought that this year would be so much better than last year. Oh boy wasn't I wrong. I am at the point where I feel like I am worth more dead than alive.

I keep saying trouble don't last always. When I say I cut back I have cut back. I am losing hours on my job. They don't want to pay me more. I had to have work done on my mouth. I am living on a costly overdraft as we speak. Well it isn't too much in overdraft, but hell I had to pay my bills. I have even went off have the cable modem. (now that sucks) I had to resort to the free trial of AOL until my fiances get a little better.

I know that I will make it through I have made it through so many times. I have went as far as looking for another job or a part time job. I worked 2 jobs before and I hated it with a passion. So I am looking for at least 3 days a week. I need the extra income coming it. I am the only one working in this house and it is putting a strain on me. My mother gets a retirement check but that is not much. I am basically taking care of her (because of her health).

We does this all leads me. I know pretty soon some more bills going to come up and I am not sure how I am going to pay them.. I hope a change is going to come. I hope it comes soon. Lord be with me..

My thoughts of Today.. The Welfare System

Those who know me know that I am very passionate about this. I am one of the many Americans that live paycheck to paycheck. I might have about 20 dollars left to my name afterwards. I am just fed up with the many people who abused the system. I know there are many people out there that has no choice in the matter.

I want to first start off with those who are in the country illegally. I know that some come here for a better life. Don't get me wrong, I would do the same thing. I just will work harder to get the things I want. (That is what I am trying to do now). I know many of them live in a 4 to 6 families to a house. I know cause I have a lot of them as neighbors. I work for a supermarket so I see a lot of them come in with EBT and WICS. They already getting free health care and do not have to pay taxes. This is what I am mad about. How come I am the one working my ass off, having to pay taxes every week when I get my check. I am over 25 single with no children, that is almost 150 dollars of taxes taken out my check a week. So I feel if they are going to live here, PAY DAMN TAXES... Then when it comes to healthcare, I pay about 50 dollars a week because of my insurance. Someone got to tell me what is up with that. I might go to the doctor about 3 times a year. After paying my co pay I am still spending about 50 to 100 dollars for the visit.

I also get fed up with the whole EBT system. I have wrote about this on my website many of times. I have also stated my dislike for it on my and MrChap's blogtalk show. I have applied many times to get the EBT card. I done it because I am helping my mother with her medication (too much dern money, no Medicine should cost 100 dollars). So I said having an EBT card will help out with the food bill. Well they only offered me 10 dollars the first time. The next time it was 25 woop de fu do...

I have seen people in there buy nothing but JUNK food on that card and still had about 600 dollars left on a card. They might come in and spend 300 dollars full of junk and have about 900 dollars left on a card. Heck I don't get to eat Shrimp, Crablegs, and Ribeye Steak. I am the one paying for all of that though. It is freakin ridiculous. Then they turn around and get into a nice SUV or Car. I can't even afford to buy a car at this point.

So what is wrong with this system.. A lot is wrong if you ask me. Someone can get a disabilty check if they can't manage money. They can get one if they are Bi polar, pees on themselves or over 300 to 400 lbs. I can't believe we live in a world that people just can lie, cheat, and steal from hard working people and get away with it.