A day Late but Yea...Valentine's!!

Y'all know that Valentine's is not one of my fondest Holiday's.. I guess you say, Do you like any Holiday's.? 

I do but this year was a little better for me.. It was that I wasn't really expecting much and my heart is tired. This past week I have worked so hard just because the snow storm.. I work at a supermarket and we don't close... 

My Valentine got me a pair of Nike Shox's, A Big ole Bear, some Bath & Body Works, Twix, Linder's Chocolate,A Carton of Smokes, and treated me to dinner.  I thought that was a sweet jester.. I got her a speaker for her Ipod, card, Balloon, a mixed cd, and a Big Ole Bar of Chocolate. It was nice.. It turned out to be a decent night... Until I got pissed.. Y'all know my mood change with the quickness.. LOL I didn't act out this time though. I was really sucking in back it.. It took everything in me, but I did.. (I was so proud of myself)

Then once getting home and settling in to watch a few movies, (in which I fell asleep).. Then a big rumble and the house was shaking.. We had an earthquake. Yes something South Carolina rarely get.. It would have been nice if that earth shaking was actually me having sex.. (i am in a drought.. lol) 

I hope that you all had a wonderful Valentines Day... Remember Love one another Everyday!!!!!!

Tatts with your significant other on you!

I think that it is ABSOLUTELY dumb as HAYAL! Now I am one that believes that I only would get my name, my children, or my parent's name AFTER they DIE... Yet putting my girlfriend or boyfriend or even a husband and wife on me.. HAYAL TO THE FONKING NAH! Unless they are dead.. They reason it cause to get it removed or to cover it up. It is nonsense to me. That relationship might not last or was doomed from the get go. 

The other day I was doing something for my ex. I saw that this BOTCH had her so called wife name tatted on her. In which this was the 1st time ever seeing this. I was like WOW you are a dumb arse.. LOL.. She was like I can always cover it up. Still I thought it was  a dumb arse move.. She said I told you awhile back that I got it because she had got my name. I said again.. Dumb Arse.. She goes on to say.. Your mad.. When she said that I went off.. I was not Hayal NO.. What in the fonk would I be mad cause you did something stupid.. I said you are the dumb one.. 

I don't know and I am not knocking people who do stuff like that.. Maybe because I have trust issues and I don't want to be remained of the sorry arses on my body. It also I dont want no one name on me unless they are dead. I guess to each is it's on. 

What are your thoughts?

Update: As of September 2015 they are no longer together nor the tattoo... She got it covered up.. 

Honey Chile I know you aint trying to downgrade anybody!!

I Love misguided individuals..  They just don't know any better... They will always be lost.. 

The other day I was listening to a Co Worker who happens to be black.. (I had the same conversation with another co worker a few years ago).. He was talking to another Co Worker.. One that I always tell him he is going to be my Husband one day.. He always flirt  with me and he really does like me, but he has some growing up to do.. SERIOUSLY..

Well the conversation was how the other co worker who is black so I will call he BW and I will call the other one who is white WT...  BW isn't attracted to Black women and never dated a Black Woman and he said he will NEVER date a Black Women because he don't find any of them attractive.. (Note: He is not attractive himself and he always ashy and has dirt in his nails... ewww) Then he proceeds to tell WT how he someone told him he had a beautiful child.. He said because he didn't have one with a Black Woman.. ( That's when I almost fell to the damn floor).. His girlfriend aint cute and neither is he.. So what the hell? He said he never wanted his children to come out black.. WTFH? So I busted him and said.. He might not look Black but in everyone eyes He is still Black..  

I read him after that.. I told him the only reason why he feels that he will not be with a black woman is because of his mentality.. I said if he thinks all black women are ugly.. What does he think about his mother..? He wouldn't even answer.. So I said ok.. You hate that you were born black.. Yea that is.. You hate yourself so much you want to belittle anything black.. I said you are living a sad life.. I said hopefully your son one day will end up loving a black girl .. What you gonna do?

WT was stunned by his statement and even shock that I blew him up.. WT said I don't care what color a woman is.. As long as she has a beautiful spirit and soul.. Then he said helll I rather be with black women anyway.. He said all the white women I dated is crazy and always tripping if you don't call within a few minutes of a text.. He said the last black woman he dated was the best thing that happened to him but he had to break up with her because she was going away into the army.. LOL

I have learned that everyone has a preference... I for one don't date outside my race.. I don't believe you should belittle another race though.. You feel what you feel but you do not say a race is ugly.. I for one love my color.. I wouldn't trade it for the work.. I think we are the best things happening, but you aint gonna talk about it.. 

If you have that much self hate.. Then you need to really know how it feels to be black son.. I think BW thought it makes him a better person.. Nah Son!! 

Oooo Light bulb... You Crazy!!!

My woman's intuition told me that something just wasn't RIGHT... Just a few months ago, I ran across a guy that I thought was nice... He seemed to be cooler than a fan.. It also seemed that we had ALOT in common..  As the weeks progressed... I noticed that something wasn't quite right.. I kinda over looked it..

It was until that day I allowed this man to come over to my cousin's house.. I was sick.. It was back when I had bronchitis.. So he was saying that he wanted to take care of me and hold me. I thought that was also strange.. I mean I didn't know this guy really for him to be all giving..

Anyhoo he came over the following week. I was still sick but I was like what da hell.. I do miss being around men..  Why oh WHY did I let this man come around.. He was very very touchy.. He kept on touching me in ways I didn't like. I also told him to STOP.. Then he became some type of devil.. Really rude, very mouthy, and just FLAT OUT NASTY... So I told him to leave and I meant right then. So then I get text messages about how dumb of me to pass up on a good thing such as his self..  I was like Dumb isn't what  I am...

A few weeks passed by.. He apologized. He was saying he just can't help himself around me. (That was the second light bulb click).. I wasn't falling for it, yet I did allow him to text and call.. I did like talking to him. He was funny.. I just had to make sure he KNEW the RULES... We things were kinda looking up. I still wouldn't  go see him or let him visit me. I told him that it was just going to be a time to time phone conversation. I just didn't feel safe around this man.

Last week I was off all week. It was because I had jury duty. So he wanted to met up. Again I told him no. I didn't feel like it would be a good idea. Although I might come by that Saturday with a bunch of my friends.. I was going to be in the neighborhood and it was my friend's birthday.. So when Saturday came  I changed my mind. I didn't even want him to get the pleasure to meet them.. This wasn't a guy I was feeling.. In no way shape of form.. It was because he violated me.. He had no respect for me... So why would I give this man any more of my personal space... Let's just say.. I think he finally has the hint.. I was just not into him... On Sunday he sent this VERY NASTY TEXT... Basically it was on the line that he will no longer deal with me..  I thought that was very funny noting because I was the one giving him the cold shoulder to begin with...

Then one person that I think is such a nice person.. I consider them being a friend. This friend came to me out of concern. This friend was worried about me and this guy dating.. The friend saw that me and the guy had been communicating. They know each other through other circumstances..  This friend was telling me just how crazy this man was.. I found out some of the things that he has done in the past and trying  to do now.. It was becoming a pattern for him. (I knew it) this man was a crazy disrespectful human being..

I told my friend that I had it covered and didn't have to worry about me.. I already knew just by this man's actions and his words.. I am so thankful that I have learned to notice these things.. Those flashing lights are something else... I am glad it never went any further than it did..

Try to do something Positive... Then it turns out.. Negative...

I saw a lot of my friends on Facebook changing their pictures to give Awareness to Breast Cancer Month.. So the picture that you see above is me giving my contribute. I know it is kinda sexy, but I think what better picture to use. I am showing that I love my breast.  Since I posted that picture above, it's been hell on Facebook.
I think I should have put it under my other account. I didn't think this picture would cause a world wind of comments via messages.

I had guys that barely say anything to me say something. I had some that was asking why did  I put the picture up. Was it  just to tease them. The funniest one was from my ex.. "You just posted that picture to get back at me for leaving you"... WTFH? I was like do they not see that it has the Breast Cancer  ribbon on it.. It also states "Love your Boobies"...

I understand that people are visuals beings.. I didn't mean for anyone to get any ideas.. I was just trying to be positive and show people that I support Breast Cancer Research... Those crazy men turned it into something way beyond. It's funny is that these people know I have ample about of breast.. I have worn clothes that revealed more that what that picture shows.. So why me posting a picture on Facebook, cause so much uncalled for comments...

My Thoughts of Today... People are flat out crazy...

I've been paying a lot of attention lately to people in general. I am starting to wonder what is really going on. It seems like the older I get, the more I witness people my age just showing out. Is it in the water?

On the news the other day, A woman turned her mobile home into a strip club. It was kids that live there. A stripper pole and alcoholic beverage was found in the living room of the home. They said out of the 20 people there 8 of the were juvenile.  The economy is bad true enough. That is just not the way to go.


On the news today they said a man went to the grocery store and attack meat in the meat case. It was all because his grandmother wanted pot roast for dinner... All I had to do is shake my head.. What in the hell was he thinking? A new way to think of beating up meat...

I swear sometimes watching the news it is amusement to me. How and what are these people thinking?  People trying to take over the government and calling themselves Christians.  People are unhappy about others being able to afford health care.

Teachers messing with their students, police officers beating up homeless people.  I for one am not saying that I am perfectly sane. I just know some people need to think before they react.  Do they know how silly they look. I mean come on now.. I wish I was there when the guy was beating up the meat at the market.. I would have fell in the floor laughing...  Then again,  I wouldn't because he might would have stabbed me. You can never be too careful. People are crazy and they would flip at any giving moment.

My thought of Today...Jumping to Conclusions.

I am so tired of people jumping to conclusions. I was at a blog yesterday (last night). I made a comment that was directed to the people that were in the blog entry. They were talking about how the women republicans are going to boycott Oprah and her magazine because she refuses to have Governor Palin on her show.

Well majority of us said that Oprah has the right to do what she wants on her show. So Come on, it is her show, they are a bunch of anger white women that wants to make a big deal out of nothing. I was correct about it too. Oprah already stated that she would have Palin on her show after the election. She did not want her show to be a political forum.

O why in the Lord did I say that. I had white women thinking I was talking about them. I was like if you read my response I was not stating all white women. I was saying those women that are boycotting Oprah.

We all know that most of Oprah viewers are middle class to high class white women. Heck those are the ones she normally have on her show anyway. So why jump to the conclusion that I was referring to you..

I have to learn not to be so blunt and direct when stating something. It is too many sensitive people on the net. Why get angry over something another person writes when it was in the comment section in the first place, it wasn't directed to you. It was directed to the person who wrote the entry. It was my response to what she wrote, not the person who wrote it and those who viewed her blog.



Stop jumping to conclusions and read the dern blog... I think people just pick and choose what they want to read. Then try to piggy back on what others think..