This just wasn't the month for me... I am so lost... I don't really know how to get my happy back... I'm trying.. Lord knows I am trying my DAMN-EST to get it back... There has been NO LUCK for me.. I keep getting hit in the head... I surely don't know where to turn... So I came here to write out my frustrations... I tend to do that..
It started off my Grandmother dying... Which it was during the time of my vacation... So just say my mourning took place while I was on vacation.. Enjoyed my time off but I miss my grandmother... I still haven't got over that...
Then the one person I finally felt I could connect with start having trouble.. So we ended the relationship that I lost everything to have... I am still not over it... It seems not to even phase her.. She has been coming around but it isn't the same. I can't even talk about my feelings. I think that is the part that hurts the most. She goes to say.. My family comes 1st... So yea.. Can't argue with that...
Then this week I took ill.. So I been sick all week.. I haven't felt good in awhile but had so much going on.. I ignored it and try to play that I was ok... Well it caught up with me... I am doing better but not my best...
Then just yesterday I got a call from my Aunt.. My uncle died... He died a month later after my grandmother (his sister)... I can't take much more of this..
I spent most of my day crying... I want my LIFE back... I just don't know how to go about picking up the pieces...
