The World we Live in.. The sign of the Times in America..

It seems as of late the Police has been on a roll. It's been going on for years now but it has taken a tole now. Just this year it seems that every time you turn on the news the Police has killed an unarmed Black man. Then the don't get charged with the murder. I tell you these cops are something else.

Just Friday night the shot a White Guy 10 times in Hollywood.. 

I just want to know when Enough is going to be Enough.. 

They are trained to disarm people without excessive force. So why are they so quick to pull the trigger now a days.. They aren't screening these people before the academy.

The Cop that killed that young boy in Ohio was once fired from one Police Department because he was deemed unfit to be a cop. So how did he manage to get another job.. That goes also for the Cop that kill Mike Brown, wasn't he fired from another department because of his racists views..

I pray for the world we live in. It's like when we (blacks) stand up for the injustice then some of our white counter parts think we are being racists and we are bringing out the race card. It irks me so much. Some want us not to say anything and push it under the rug.. Well I know for one, that is the problem.. We keep so bottled inside that it will continue to happen if we don't Stand Up..

Then the Black on Black crime deboggle. It doesn't have anything to do with this cause. We are taught by media and other races that we are animals and etc etc.. We are taught to hate ourselves and kill before being killed. It's sad but that is the reality of it all. Its the way they are raised and most of the time it is their environment that causes this.. It doesn't give the right for others to think that our lives doesn't matter.  There are plenty White on White crimes.. It's on the news all the time.. Especially when the family is in outs.. I see it everyday on the ID Channel, don't see anyone labeling them. 

We all watched that heart wrecking video of the attack on Mr Gardner.. I can't breathe..I can't breathe. Then one cop putting his knee on that man's head. It was so hurting to watch. The cop once again wasn't indicted. He although unlike the other cop apologized. I give my hats off to Mrs. Gardner.. I can't imagine how she feels.. I see that she didn't accept the cops apology, but do you blame her. When they heard he couldn't breathe they should have stopped..

When will this stop.. These crimes that they are alleged to have done is not worth their lives.. It doesn't make a bit of sense to me. We all got to know our rights and do something about this.. Police I respect them but there are some bad ones that takes their power and run with it.. 

It's like we need police to police the police....

Good Ole America Ways!! Where is the Justice!! Oh wait... There isnt any... Yesterday proved it...

February 2012 a young man was followed and killed to his death... July of 2013 the man that caused his murder, FREE... He was able to get a NOT GUILTY verdict... He also gets to have his gun that caused the death of 17 year of Trayvon Martin back in his possession.. Does it surprise me, NO! Does it hurt me, YES! The judicial system years on years haven't been fair...

After hearing about Trayvon's Death.. I was saddened that a young man lost his life.. I am saddened when any kid looses his/hers life... Children have the right to grow up and live there lives.. No one should take that away from them.. Trayvon lost his life because he was a Black Young Man. You can not tell me any different.. He was followed, hunted, and shot and all he had was some Tea and some Skittles.. WTF?

I didn't watch the trial because looking at his parents bared to much on my already emotional self... When I would see his parent talk to the media I would burst out in tears.. So I didn't want to see that any more.. I wanted to BELIEVE that NO ONE IN THERE RIGHT MIND WOULD FIND THIS MAN NOT GUILTY... Well 1st off having 6 jurors and not 12.. Have all women in which all were not mixed with different races... That to me was unfair in itself... Then to hear the defense say Trayvon cause his death.. WTF? Of course if a man was following me around while I am going home and approach me.. I AM GOING TO DEFEND MYSELF.. So if Trayvon attack this man, it was because he was in FEAR of his LIFE.. Why didn't George get in trouble for it..? The 911 dispatcher told him NOT to get out of his car.. The world we live in.. SMH..


So in today's society a BLACK MAN LIFE STILL HAS NO VALUE... It hurts to the core with me. Then everyone is talking about the Black on Black Crimes.. True in our community there are a lot of blacks killing blacks.. So in the white community, the Hispanic community, etc, etc.... This isn't the case at hand.. It is that a YOUNG BLACK MAN was being PROFILED as SUSPICIOUS...

I have always been FOR the PEOPLE.. I love my race and to see such disrespect toward us.. I SMH.. It has become top much for me.. I myself is trying to find peace and heal from this.. Last night after the verdict, I had to delete some people I once called my friend.. I've been waiting to do that because of the Hateful stuff he says about the President.. Then some of the hateful stuff he said last night.. I couldn't take no more.. His words shows me he is a BIGOT.. He is a evil, racist, asshole.. Then have the nerve to always smile, laugh, and hug me.. The same race of people you talk about are the same as me.. So it makes me to believe, in his eyes.. I AM A NIGGER TOO!!

So people are to stand.. Be more active in the community.. Get involved in the people you elected in to the local, state, and federal government.. I know even they can't be trusted but some way some how we can be more represented.. We need JUSTICE to become more morally correct than being depended on evidence..

I am going to continue to pray for Trayvon's Family... I don't know how they feel but to me it feels like I lost hope too.. I also pray for all the Black Families that had to deal with the death of a family member(s).. I also pray that BLACK MEN everywhere keep their heads up.. I want AMERICANS to unite and becoming more loving.. We got to make a difference.. We got to stop with the stereotypes, bigotry, the hate, and the judgement...

We need a better judicial system.. There need to be some improvements...

Hello Readers.....

I know I have been MIA...  I am ok and I am keeping my head above water... So much has happened since my last post. I sometimes feel that if shyt happens it happens to me and me only.
 I am still coping with my issues.. I am still single...  Which might just remain until the day I die.  I don't have no more love left in me.. I still believe in love... I am just not able to give it.. I realize that my emotions is not capable of dealing with another heartbreak..

Which is odd right now.. The one person who has been here for me, is the one who has broken my heart.. I had surgery back in May on my back...So physically and financially has been really hard.. She has made sure I have everything I need. She calls me everyday to check up on me. Also coming by almost everyday just to sit and talk to me. She knows at this point I have no one around me, besides my mother.. So she tries to give my mother a break.. So I really don't know how I feel about this. We aren't going to get back together... I choose that is not an option for us. I am grateful for her being here.. Really I think she should be. It's cause of my relationship with her left me alone with no friends...

My other issue is with my Insurance company... SMDH!! I pay these people faithfully every week.. It's been so hard for them to hurry up and get my short term disability started... Bills are piling high.. I have called and emailed for the longest.. All I get is we working on it.. I go back to work in July.. I feel like they are giving me the run around until I go back to work. I am about tired of the run around....

The lastly... My new word is NO... I am always the person that people run to when they need something done or want something from me.. I used to be so giving and willing to help everyone out.. Well I am TIED.. I am at my lowest right now.. I noticed that none of those people I break my neck for has even picked up the phone... None of those people have came by to see me.. None of those people even offered just to check up on me.. Well once I get back on my feet.. My word is NO and Fuck You..... I can't be a people pleaser anymore.. I am riding on SOLO and #ICANT no longer.. It doesn't mean I don't love ya... I just can't help ya,......


I am sorry for the long wait.. Maybe sometime soon I will be back on the up and up.... right now Life is boring and I am healing...

Imma Changing....

Have you ever been just tired of BEING nice.. Have you ever been tired of BEING the happy go lucky  person... Well I am .. It is not that I am in a pissed mood are anything.. I AM JUST FREAKIN TIRED OF EVERYONES MOUTH... I seriously want people to SHUT THE F UP...

Part of it starts with my Job.. Everyone is so UPTIGHT.. We are going through something there. We basically have to run the store with less hours to give.. So we are doing work for more than one person.. So when the other employees doesn't get hours, they are fussing.. The ones who got hours are fussing.. Then their are those who NEEDS to be fired and they are still there..  They just need to understand.. EVERYONE can't get their way.. We win some or we lose some. I wish they just get the hell over it...

Then it comes to these people with THEIR judgmental views... It is sad that someone can not live in the world and live their lives the way they see fit.. I sit back and look and say, why are you worried it that person is gay... Growing up I was taught that love everyone no matter what. Even it these people make you mad, just pray for them.. (heck I have been doing a lot of praying)...Me being a Bi-Sexual woman and My sister being a Lesbian. I take all this recent attacks on the LBGT  community to heart..  I love all people, even if I don't agree with their views... I am tired of these kids being bullied and killed. I still say that ignorance is one of the reasons My Timmy is not here with me now...

Lately I am having people tell me how I should live my life. They are telling me the things that I need to do.. Well I say F yall too.. Why is MY LIFE so important to these cats..? I believe they are seeing that I am living a happy life and they want to put salt in it. I just don't get it.. These are people whose life aren't so great, and I have always been their for them.. They are just not liking my "NEW" attitude.. Yea I am in my HAPPY place.. I am having a great time.. I am in that place because I stopped WORRYING about people. I STOPPED doing for people.  I am DOING me and I have no care in the world..

I am doing exactly what that graphic says above.... Ya Digg... :)