Hello Readers.....

I know I have been MIA...  I am ok and I am keeping my head above water... So much has happened since my last post. I sometimes feel that if shyt happens it happens to me and me only.
 I am still coping with my issues.. I am still single...  Which might just remain until the day I die.  I don't have no more love left in me.. I still believe in love... I am just not able to give it.. I realize that my emotions is not capable of dealing with another heartbreak..

Which is odd right now.. The one person who has been here for me, is the one who has broken my heart.. I had surgery back in May on my back...So physically and financially has been really hard.. She has made sure I have everything I need. She calls me everyday to check up on me. Also coming by almost everyday just to sit and talk to me. She knows at this point I have no one around me, besides my mother.. So she tries to give my mother a break.. So I really don't know how I feel about this. We aren't going to get back together... I choose that is not an option for us. I am grateful for her being here.. Really I think she should be. It's cause of my relationship with her left me alone with no friends...

My other issue is with my Insurance company... SMDH!! I pay these people faithfully every week.. It's been so hard for them to hurry up and get my short term disability started... Bills are piling high.. I have called and emailed for the longest.. All I get is we working on it.. I go back to work in July.. I feel like they are giving me the run around until I go back to work. I am about tired of the run around....

The lastly... My new word is NO... I am always the person that people run to when they need something done or want something from me.. I used to be so giving and willing to help everyone out.. Well I am TIED.. I am at my lowest right now.. I noticed that none of those people I break my neck for has even picked up the phone... None of those people have came by to see me.. None of those people even offered just to check up on me.. Well once I get back on my feet.. My word is NO and Fuck You..... I can't be a people pleaser anymore.. I am riding on SOLO and #ICANT no longer.. It doesn't mean I don't love ya... I just can't help ya,......


I am sorry for the long wait.. Maybe sometime soon I will be back on the up and up.... right now Life is boring and I am healing...