Yesterday I was feeling some kind of way.. I am not quite sure what went all over me.. I became frustrated with things once again. I was wondering why I keep putting myself in situations that I know will affect me later.

  I don’t like being alone. I really don’t.. (Well not alone in that sense)…  So I always linger on to people I need to let out of my life.  I try holding them as friends. Some I hold on to just in case the next person doesn’t work…  Ex-boyfriends, Ex-girlfriends, associates, friends etc… etc…

This is not going to help me seek the relationship I want.. I say I forgive these people who have done things to me. Do, I? Cause the more I think about it. It still bothers me. I still feel that once they done those things, they still doing it. I don’t think I get over it, at all.

So I am finding time to find ways to clear things up.. I disappointed myself. I let myself down… I refused to let it get the best of me anymore. I feel the need to get back to me. I was doing just fine until this last ex…  Once being with her, I realized that I was missing the need of companionship. So that brought all kinds of emotions again.  So here I am picking up pieces of my face…

I don’t know why LOVE always does this to me.  I have truly been in love 3 times in my life.  After those relationships FAIL.. I become so depressed and feeling worthless, I just don’t know why.  I hate to fail at something.  I also question myself to why they never worked..

I had a very good talk with God…  I feel that if I keep myself on track and focus on what is important. I will be ok… My path is leading me to the right destination… It is going to end a peaceful place.  I am going with the flow….