My Thoughts of Today... Happy Easter and Church Folks

Happy Easter to everyone.. Today is the day we celebrate Jesus resurrection. Also the little kiddies go out in their Easter outfits and find eggs... It is also a day that the church houses are packed out.

I am not so big on the church. I am spiritual and not religious. I have said that so many times, people just don't understand. I believe and I worship Christ.  I love Jesus. It is just hard right now finding a church that can really deliver me the word.

This morning my Mother was fussing at me because I wasn't going to Church. I told her I would be just like most of the hypocrites that will be there today.  When I used to be in the church, I always wondered why so many people where there on Easter Sunday. As I got older I think I have it figured out.  It is because it is an Holy day and also people want to show off their new fits..

I am thankful for the grace of of Jesus. It is because of him, I live. Believe me I have lived with demons all my life. I don't have no one to thank but him for keeping me out of the storm. My body is my church. I pray that one day I will be able to find a church that I can call my own. I do want to be a frequent member of his house.

The things that made me stray a little from attending the church was the people. My family's church the people are not what they appear to be. I mean I have seen some do all kind of things. Then on Sunday you would think they had a twin. They are the total opposite.  Once I went to a church and the woman pastor literally called me out. It was because I had on makeup. I thought that was something that was so uncalled for. I see people that speak to me at church. Then when out on the street, can't even say one word. I am like how Christian of you to do such a thing.

I am not saying that the Church folks are keeping me from attending. It just that I am searching for a loving and deeper congregation. I want a deeper connection with the Lord. I want someone to move me and make every Church experience to be meaningful and a lesson learned.

I don't want to play with the Lord. I know he forgives and he died for our sins. I just don't think that sinning all week long and going to Church on Sunday being holy than thou is the right road. I sometimes wonder how a person can live with themselves by doing that. 

I wish each and every one of you all again Happy Easter...