I never has something like this happen this close to my family before. I have been depressed before. I even had these thoughts. I am sure many of you have. I am thankful that I have the Lord and my family on my side. Also with the help of a few friends, this may never be my option...
Monday my cousin (my crackhead cousin half brother) tried to end his life. He hasn't been himself in a few years. It seems when he came back home, he couldn't walk the way he used to. I am not sure of the cause of it. I never knew of him until a few years back.
Since I've known him he was on the strange side. I didn't think much of it because he was raised up north. You know us Southerners think alot of Northerners are strange. Heck it is goes both ways. So I did my part and speak when I saw him. Matter of fact the last time I saw him was on Mother's Day. He was at my Godmother's house.
On Monday when my mother came home from a funeral. My aunt called and said that her neighbor had saw the police talking to my cousin and he was shot. Well the acts of violence has been going on a lot in this town as of late. The Crackheads and Thugs are running wild. So when my mother finally got in contact with my Godmother the news was different.
To come to the point he shot himself. He also said to the police that he was waiting to die. Someone called the police and he feels that is why he didn't die. He is now in the hospital getting the help that he needs. I hope that they will also find out why he wanted to do such an act on himself.
Depression and Failure seems to always be the reason of people having suicidal thoughts. I just want anyone out there that might read this. It truly gets better. The only thing you need to do is think better about yourself. God will carry it through for you. Don't worry about other people. It is you who makes your life worth living for. So please talk to someone. They have phone numbers posted everywhere. If you are afraid to call on anyone, kneel down and pray... God truly does listen...
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