It's My World...

It's been a long time since I've been here. I will be blogging just a tad here..(until I get my site back up)

There has been a lot going on in my world as of lately. I tell you, people change sometimes for the good or the bad. As of right now, my changes are for the good. I don't know about the other people.

I finally let go of the one person that was holding me back. It was things that was done and I can't change them. I also vowed to be celibate. It was a stretch from something that came deep within.

I also lost some friends over the last few months too. I don't know what came about it, but I am cool with it. If they tend to leave for no apparent reason, they were never friends to begin with. I never been one that don't give people a reason why I stop talking to them. I am so straight forward. I believe that could be some of the reason.. LOL

The saying " It is my world, you are just a visitor.." Well this is the life I am leading now. I have for so long put people before myself. Look at what has happened to me.. I am left by myself. I have no trust in anyone anymore. I look to my family and God to be on my side. Everyone else are just people that come by for a visit every blue mood.

I strive for happiness.. I am going to get it too. Over the last few month, it has been a pleasure that I can focus on just myself. Although I have someone that is ill and wants me to be there for them. I am there only for emotional support. I would hate to be ill and not have someone by my side. I understand what it feels like to be left alone and out in the cold. I just can't do other people the way they do me.

There will be no more trying to reach out to people. There will be no more giving all my energy to others. There will be not more people stealing my joy away from me. It is my world now... I am going to be happy, free, and loved... It will be with or without help from anyone else.