Just one of those Days!!

Over the last week.. I have been up and down.. 

I am glad that I am having more good days than bad.. I thought I was about to loose hope in all things...

For one I am still having issues with life, friends, and work...

I cut all ties with those two that were being messy... I had to delete and erase them from my life...

So in due time they will be a faded memory.. I can't deal with Dikthrust women.. 

I had just last night I had to also SHOW someone the ROLE they wanted to play in my life. They cheated on me (well never left their last) then have the nerve to still try and treat me like a GIrLFrienD.. It has gotten to the point I had to break it down.. I was trying to hard not too.. I value the friendship but since she is having a hard time separating that friendship from what we had in the past.. It no longer exist either.. Yea I am dropping these ishes like flies.. 

I am still learning.. I have always be the one that suffers in all this.. I got to STOP dealing with these folks.. 

I just wonder when I am dead and gone, WHAT WILL I BE REMEMBERED FOR… Everyone always tell me how wonderful of a person I am.. How my smile brightens everyone up… So if this was the case… Why I sometimes feels I am not noticed or my feelings doesn't matter..

I hate when the very person that has hurt me and broken me, tells me… “You hurt my feelings!” I don’t get it neither do I can  process the thought. I hurt your, feelings?   To even hear those words rubbed me the wrong way and changed my whole MOOD…

I don't know what people expect from me.. I used to try and figure it out.. Now I know there is no way.. I plan on stop trying. I let things and people get under my skin to quickly and to often.. I know now why my blood pressure stays on the high side. 

We been having one of those crazy weather patterns lately.. Yesterday we had ice and freezing rain.. Today it is warmer and the sun is out.. LOL  It's just nuts.. I guess it is going right along with the way I am feeling.. Sometimes Sunny and Sometimes Gloomy.. 

I am going to go and finish updating my site.. That black and white was driving me coo coo..