He didn't come for me, He came for her!

Last week I got some news.. I mean news 5 years ago would have been exciting to me.. It hasn't phased me much since I heard the news..

MC told me last week that he was moving back to Greenville for Good.. For years I wanted him to move back, just to see if there was something still between us. After the last couple of visits he made down here, he promised to meet up with me.. He never came.. Beside about one time, when I went up there I never saw him.. He was either busy or just didn't have time. So they you know the way I felt about him, I felt that it's a lost cause and just move on.

I think he has been in town for the last  3 days and I haven't heard a word.. I know when he was dating someone else from this area they broke up because she wanted him to move back down here. Well I know how much he loved her. Yea, he would call and talk to me about their problems. He felt that he was getting the Karma for the way he treated me. In which that could be so.. LOL Anyhoo, I don't know but I do know when he comes here he does see her..

I used to wonder, How can he love her? She has several kids, she is materialistic, she thinks everything suppose to be about her.. Then I got to see her once.. She is gorgeous.. She is a redbone (high yella almost looks mixed). She is a heavy girl but big in the right places.. You know big hips and booty.. Me... Darkskinned, Out of Shape, Flatbooty, and Dreads.. Now I know I am cute, you can't tell me I am not. I do know these men around here I am not appealing too.. I posted before how the light brights and the white chicks get all the men around here. Also me being a woman who loves black men (darkerskin) I get over looked..

Even my bestest still lusting over his ex girl. So I decided to just stop fooling myself with him. We are friends and we have been friends for years.. I am not going to taint that relationship with him, because I love him. So I don't want to lose what we have. So we are going to remain that, nothing more.
Even me and MC have grown to respect each other as far as being nice to one another..
So he is back, and it really doesn't matter.. I can say I am finally moved passed that and going to continue to live my life..
I wish him well...