In my Thoughts:Cosby.....

I have been on the fence with this since the news broke on this.. I was just like many others on Cosby Defense. It was until so many women came out. How did this many get away with doing that to all those women.? Why did these women wait so long to come out and why did some keep going back afterwards.?

My biggest issue is them taking the Cosby Show off the air... On Saturday's that was my thing to watch if I was at home.. The Show was funny and very good.. It was part of my growing up and I just don't understand why would you take that away from those who love the show. 

This cover of EBONY brought all kinds of words into my mind and I don't like it..

Why can't they separate the man from the show, as they did many others? Cliff was so different from Bill? Actors with money and power think they can get away with so much so they do the most..  We don't base their characters they play with the person they are.. So why tarnish our love of the Huxtables..? I know that Media will ruin a lot by just getting that Story... 

I want the show I watched as a youngin and a show that to this day still love to watch be remembered for what it was,,, It was a show that showed us the Blacks could be successful and raise families.. We need to be reminded that this show impacted us all and in a good way.. 

If you want to punish Bill Cosby, that's one thing.. Don't punish the rest of us.. 

I am now 40 Something...

Lord, I am here.. I am here and I thank you for allowing me to see another day... 

Yesterday was my Birthday and I turned 40 years of age.. 

I may not look it, I sure do feel it most of the time. 

This was Birthday 1st for me... It felt like any other day.. I went to work (yes, I am back at work,, Another story I have to fill you all in later on).. I didn't make a big hoopla about my Birthday.. No, one took me out or gave me gifts... I had to remind my mother several times that it was my birthday..

So it was sorta of Bittersweet.. I guess that is the age where you just thankful to see another day..

I see myself changing so much.. I had a health scare last month so I have been just taking it easy.. Plus my mom's health isn't too good either.. So I been laying low and staying close to home. So there isn't much going on and I guess it gets like this.. I had 2 friends to recently get engaged so I haven't been out in months.. So I am the last one of my friends that has yet to meet someone... LOL

It would be nice but with my health and my mom, I am not in the mood, trying to meet someone new.. I already had one walk away because they felt like they were in the way of me taking care of my mom.. So I said go the hayal on.. I tell you the character of folks is something else.. 

Let's see if my 40's is going to be better to me than my 30's were...

Lifestyle Changes...

I am sorry that I have been away for such a long time.. I been busy and on that same not I was wearing myself very thin.. I am now officially in the High Blood Pressure Club... :(

I know things going on with my mom, me not working, me wanting to start my own business, and things with the Bestest have taken me through loops.. I still don't see how I am now part of this club..

So now I am going back to trying to exercise and also not put too much pressure on myself.. I am always trying to be the superwoman, when I just need to sit down and just chill..

On Tuesday I was just going to the doctor for an infection that I thought I had.. I have been suffering real bad headaches so I thought it was a migraine or a sinus infection..
I got to the Doctor and they took my BP and told me to go straight to the Emergency Room...
I got to the ER and they told me I was on stroke level high.. (crying).. My life has just changed... I didn't want to be one of those women who has to be depended on pills. I am not a bad eater (at least I don't think)..

So right now I am on bedrest for a week.. Man, this is so hard, but my life is really important..

My changes is going to be to stop worrying about things I have no control over.. I also going to cut my intake of fried foods, and stop smoking.. I ask my followers to just send a prayer for me..  <3 p="">

In my thoughts... This week in History..

Well Well Well.. This week has been so full of emotions and a lot of news..

Starting with this Flag issue and Woo Hoo to Bree Newsome.. I guess she is about tired of hearing about they flag as I am. 

I was highly upset that the focus was more on this flag than the 9 innocent lives that was taken by a terrorist.. 

Facebook showed me a couple of my friends acting all crazy about why they don't want their heritage taken away.. I had one go as far as say take away Black History Month if they take the flag down.. I had one talking about they aren't going to celebrate Martin Luther King day if the Flag is taken down. I tell you this thing has gotten out of hand. 

When they whole mess started I didn't see the point of the flag taken down. One is that it's will cause more problems here in the south (in my opinion) you know Racist Redneck will do a sneak attack.. Also that the flag has been flying this long it isn't going to change anything...

I had to delete so many people off my list because it was getting on my nerves the bickering..

Then seeing President Obama give the Eulogy at Senator Pickney's Funeral, was AMAZING!! I love it. Even if he can't sing a lick, it was still moving.. I don't care what other's say about that man, he is the 1st President in my lifetime that has showed so much Humanity.. I told my mother today we might not ever see again that much awesomeness in the White House again.. Then he had to say Nigger and people go in an uproar. He had to for that context.. People gonna be mad regardless..

Another good thing ObamaCare isn't going anywhere no time soon... I am glad of that because being unemployed right now, it's a life saver.. 

Then all HAYAL breaks loose when they legalized Gay Rights for all 50 states.. 

Facebook blows up again.. Every religious person came out of no where.. I am like this is the 1st time they ever said anything about religion. 

It's been a week.. of Historical Events I should say.. Just be careful and not get to distracted.. These events are just being distractions so we won't pay attention to the real issues.. I still pray for the families of the Charleston 9... 

Prayers for Charleston SC... My heart is so heavy...

My Beloved City is in morning.. Since last night I been sick to my stomach. 

Someone so Evil and Hateful could so something so horrific... 

My prayers are with my friends and family affected by this in Charleston.. 

I hope they catch this suspect and alive..

#prayersforCharleston

The Baby is almost here... My weekend fun family time!

My cousin Maya is about to have baby Madison come next month.. So over the weekend we had her a Pink Lemonade Baby Shower.. It was great, stressful at first because of the prep.. It turned out awesome. Me in my costume was fun too.

I am waiting for Baby Madi because you all know I love the kids.. Me and my mom brought her tons over clothes and what nots., I already told her I want her every weekend that I am not doing anything. A baby is still something I want but I know I am at the age to where, it might not be possible. So I am ok with that now.. So I get to spoil other peoples babies.. LOL

Thankful for family and friends...

When the fight isn't worth fighting..

This is the year I turn 40.. Yea I have mention that a time or two already..

I am TIRED everyone.. So tired.. I feel like I am back in my 20's.. I am dealing with some many emotions right now. I am trying to remain positive and keep my head up. 

Over the weekend I was just debating how and why things are the way they are. 

I am not fighting anymore.. I am tired and I going to let things be as they are.. 

You can't save or be there for someone who don't see the wrong in their ways..