My Thoughts of Today... Weight Loss

I've been on this diet since June 30th of this year. I have lost a total of 41lbs. I have been slacking off just a tad. See last week was a busy week for me. I had 3 birthday parties and 1 of them were out of town. So I was only able to work out 1 day last week. We are now on Tuesday and I still haven't been able to work out.

I normally workout once I get off work that is around 5pm or 6pm. Well today I had every intention on working out. Then I had company and I didn't want to be rude with them. Then I had to cook dinner and so forth. So I put it off again.

I am very afraid that I have gained some weight back. I know it wouldn't be that much, but the idea that I haven't worked out. I also did a little over eating the past weekend. While I was in Charlotte North Carolina with family. We all celebrate with food and good food to be exact.

So this is what has been heavy on my mind the last few days. I have came so far with so much will power. Now I am starting to see I am giving up a little hope. My goal was to be 144lbs before my birthday. My birthday on October 15th.. I am weighting in @ 195. So I know those 50lb is not going to come off in 3 weeks. So I am a little depressed...

My thought of Today... Do love Change People...

I know people my say that I changed just a tad since I have been in love. Ive noticed that I don't do certain things that I used to. I don't talk to some of the people that I used to. I still remain the same person.

I know a few people that I deal with on the daily changed, because they are in love. You know you start saying the same things that their partner says. Start hanging with the same people their partner's hang with. They become the similar version of the person they are dating.

In the beginning there was other things they person liked, different from the mate. Then once the hearts and twinkling stars came out. They don't like anything that their partner doesn't like and loves everything their partner's love.

What makes a person do such?

What makes a person lose themselves?

I can say, I might have been so in love with MC. I can say I never changed my ways because of him. I said earlier that I stop doing certain things and talking to certain people. I did that all for the better me. I never once picked up a habit he had. I never say the things he says. I never once wanted to hang out with his friends.

Don't you think some differences can save the relationship?

My thoughts of Today... If I had children...

I had an debate with MC last night. It is starting to concern me. We have been together for years now. If we take our relationship future, I want to be able to adopt or try to have children.

I am a firm believer that a mother (if possible) should stay home with the child until the child turn at least 2years old. I think that is the perfect time to send a child off to daycare. He believe 6months is enough time. He thinks that way the child will get an early start to becoming a genius. He said that the child will be able to talk, walk, and react well with others. He feels that if the child stays with the mother any longer than 6months the child is going to be spoiled and not be able to interact with other people as well. Also being in a household needs to have two incomes to keep it running.

My mother took a year off with me. I think I was a very good child and I turned out to be pretty smart. I might not apply myself but that is my choice.

I feel that a child needs their parents. I believe that me being home with my child we will have a better bonding. I also know that kids that go to daycare to early get sick a lot.
I want my child to be old enough to tell me if someone is doing something bad to them. See I don't have that much trust in anyone.

I think a child that is loved and the parents talk to them they will learn just as quick. I just don't see myself leaving my child that early on in his or hers life. I feel like if it is a money issue, I will make a way just to be home with my child.

What do you all think?

My thought of Today...Happy Birthday Mother...

Today is my mother’s 61st birthday. I tell you she is my girl. My mother has always been this different type of mom. She has always talked to me about things in life. She has never been afraid to give me the good, bad, and ugly. I think that is why I always had so much respect for her.

In my earlier teens I felt that my mother wasn’t always there when I wanted her. It was until my grandmother took deathly ill I came to realize something. My mother took care of my grandmother almost her whole adult life. So after my mother and father broke up. She just wanted to start a new life and find happiness. It just so happened during my teenage years. I am glad that she did find it. I think I was just a selfish little girl. I was so used to being spoiled. Yes my mother spoiled me and still does.

I think she raised me well. I thank her for everything she has done for me.I can say when I had broken heart, to the best days of my life, My mother has been there.

Happy Birthday Mother… I love you.

My thought of Today...Headaches

As I sit here thinking about all the problems that is wrong with the world today. I get a major headache. I am a lover of the news but it is starting to work every living nerve in my body.

It starts here in my state of South Carolina. I know there is crime every where we go. It just this particular town that is near by I am getting tired of hearing about. You sit and wonder these kids have got to find something else better to do. It has been string of robberies in the last few months. It seems that they are all done by young black men. I bow my head in shame. I want so much for our youth. I want them to understand that crime does not pay without a price. You robbing, killing, and beating others for just a few dollars. Think of what comes with that. You will never get away totally. Prisons is not the place for our kids. Our kids belong in a University or a local College. When will they learn that education is the key.

Then the race that is about race. So what if Obama might be the next president. Don't judge what this man can and can not do because of his race. He is a well educated Black Man that wants to make a difference. Please give him a chance. He has proved to me and other people that he is willing to go the extra mile for his country. Do we really want another 4 years these Republicans who can't see there is something wrong with our country. They are so much consumed of what goes on in these other countries. Leaving us with, no jobs, failing economy, children with no proper homes, and high taxes. I think if someone wants to live their life paycheck to paycheck with little or no hope. That is them, I know I don't want to be one of those people. All boils down is that they do not want a Black Man in office.. How sad...

We are living in tough times right now. We all got to watch our backs and keep faith in the Lord. Oneday we will live in peace...

My Thoughts of Today... Friends

I think I am a very good friend. I have always went out of my way for the people I care about. I am there to listen, give advice (when needed) and been there for emotional reasons. I think that is what a friend is for.

Now I don't have many people that I am close to. In this world today, we have so many people who are just out for self. It makes me hard to trust others. I have about 5 friends and two of them are male. I think it is easier for some women and men to be as such. I know some think that is crazy. Just say with my male friends I don't have to worry about them trying to steal my clothes or my man.

So this is a dedication to all my friends... I love you...

My Thoughts of Today....Governer Palin..

I know some of you are about tired of hearing the whole thing. Well maybe not all people. I know for one I am one of those people that is tired. Hearing about Governor Palin is starting to next to my living nerve.
I mean yea she seems to be an ok people, I guess. I know she is the big ticket for the Republican party.

Have you notice no one is talking about McCain? I mean is Palin the one that is running for President. All the covers of the recent magazines have Palin all over it. OK did an issue and put Palin on one side and Obama on another side. When I saw that I was like, hmmmmmmmmmmm Where's McCain.

I am a news buff and this is all I am hearing. Frankly I am not caring at this point. She made it so clear to me when I saw her first interview the other day. OOOOOOOO didn't Barbra give it to McCain on the View... I am just not feeling this. It is going to get worst until Election Day.

I watched both of the CNN programs about her and Biden last night. It was an ok show. I think I got to see more personal things about them. I didn't know some of the things that I heard. At times I was starting to believe that this woman was like an angel. Not really, but the way some of the media is painting her. I do see human in her. I just am not ready for another Republican in office.

This morning on the news they were talking about how much Tina Fey looked like Palin. She did a few skits on SNL on Palin. I didn't get to see it but the clips were hella funny.