Like yesterday My manager talked to me. It was my eval and he wanted to discuss something with me. He said I have the potential to do great things, but he don't see me having any interest in doing so. I tried to tell him it is like this.. I've been there and done it. I didn't care to much about it. See when I was the IN store Manager it was always problems. I did my job, I enjoyed my job. I was good at it. I was just not the right look at the time. One night the regional manager came in. I think the whole thing when I had dreads always gave them the shivers. Well the next day they demoted me. I don't know why and really I didn't care at the point. I have seen so many others not do their job. I was doing mine and they didn't like it either. Well I got demoted but still keep the same pay. So it was their lost. So I don't want them to build me up to bring me back down.
I also had two ex boyfriends who just didn't like my laid back character. See I am happy the way things are in my life. I don't usually complain much. Then only time it gets me down is when people hassle me. I know I might be afraid of doing a lot of things. I just don't like failure. I move at my own pace. When I choose to do something that is when I do it..
I have those who complain about me being at the same work place for the last 15/16 years. I have people fuss because I still live in the same city that I grew up in. I even have people fussing about me moving back home with my mother. Why is it everyone is trying to tell me how to live my life?
So what I live at home.. I moved out 10 years ago. I stayed away for 6 years, I ended up moving back home to help my mother. Out of those few years I did let my boyfriend (one of those who argued with me) at the time move in. I didn't like it. I was being a wife without the ring. I kicked him out and I was content. I said the next time I do move out I will be married. I have gotten used to not living a lone and I don't want to. I don't ask my mother for NOTHING.. I don't ask a man for NOTHING.. I might not live a lone but I sure hell am independent.
So what I've been on my job for a long time. Well I don't like working but I have became comfortable. I enjoy the fact that if I need off I get it.. I might not like all the people that I come in contact on a daily basis, but the ones I do like is worth it. I don't work hard if I don't want to. As long as I got a paycheck, benefits, and work, it shouldn't matter that I been there 15+ years..
I just don't get why people think they have the right to choose my life for me. If I am happy and content with the way things are. Don't try and force me to be something I will never be, I do have goals and I do have some motivation.. I just choose to wait.. When it is my time God will give me the okay..
So yes I am complacent. Why are you so worried?
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