GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! I guess it is about that time!!

It must be that time.. Ever few months I go on this roller coaster of emotions..   I am trying so HARD to become a better person.. I am trying to HARD to stop being mean, rude, and angry.. It is just people IRKS me! I am so tired of the front I have to put up day after day after day.. 

I don't know if it Menopause or P.M.S.. I just know it is lasting longer than expected... 

Seems like the more I try to calm down.. No matter if I take my medication.. I am still errrrrrrrrrr with people.. It is mostly my job.. Then a few around here who chooses to make my life a LIVING HELL!!

People think that every thing is so peachy over here.. Well it isn't and I don't say much when people ask me what it wrong.. Heck.. It aint nothing they can do about it.. The only good thing that is coming out of my anger episodes is me writing..  I am able to write this gory suspense dark short story.. I guess I am channeling in my dark side.. LOL

I just want this all to be over with.. I feel that I am pushed back into a wall of sorts. 

I hold stuff in until I explode.. I am trying so hard not too.. I told my manager today that I feel like I am on this grumpy old woman status.. 

I am hanging with my bestest tomorrow.. So hopefully he can get me out my funk.. He is the only one I really open up too.. He is also the only one who know when I need prayer or need a hit upside the head.. Hell he is the only one I truly let get close to me no matter my mood.. He is loyal to the max.. Even though sometimes I wanna punch him too..  

So maybe the weekend will look up and I can get out this funk..