Iylana "Fix My Life"... The Pace Sisters!! (my thoughts)... Weighs to cover the pain!!

Oh this show!! This show!! This show!!..

Knowing that I am such a fan of Iylana... This show made me very very emotional.. 

I had all kinds of emotions going through me.. 

I saw their hurt.. I saw their pain.. I could feel their struggle..

Being in a Powerful Family and deep rooted in the church..

Those skeletons will be the death of you.. Maybe not physically, but mentally and emotionally..

You are raised to be a lady at all times, don't sin, and put on a front for the church family..

You want others to think you are perfect all the while you are dying inside..

Growing up there are some things you just don't talk about.. You got to keep it on the hush.. I know when I was younger and something happened.. My grandmother would say.. Hursh it and pray about it.. God is going to make it alright..  Well I am now 37 years of age and I am still waiting.. 

Hey I know praying and my faith in God is helping me cope with all the pain, hurts, and emotions.. I haven't got  to that alright yet.. 

I realized I am a BROKEN woman that wants LOVE to heal me.. 

On this show These sisters main reason for the show was to get behind the reason that all of them being Over-weight and how to do something about it.. How the world know them.. How they came from a strong Religious family.. They have SECRETS... We all know that SECRETS can hurt or kill the family..

The sisters were controlled by the men in their family (father and brother).. One sister was violated by her uncle.. One sister was violated by her brother.. One sister was battling her sexuality.. We all know people will cast down those stones when something like that surfaces.. So they keep the secrets within themselves or within the family.. 

Sometimes weight hides other things.. I don't know about you all but food comforts me.. So growing up in that environment, when you get older it can really shut you down..

After watching this I was speechless.. Not because finding out the the family I grew up listening too and idolize in the Gospel industry... It was because I saw some of me in all them.. Maybe not to their extreme, but how secrets can weigh you down.. How we mange to go day by putting extra coverage over us to hide it..

Life isn't perfect... A Family isn't Perfect... We all have to have our day.. If we can sit and talk let it out.. Then the healing would begin.. If you keep those things inside you it will eat you alive.. If it is hard to talk to someone (in which it is so hard for me) write it down.. Release whatever is troubling you.. Then maybe your Prayers to God will show you a sign and let you know everything is going to be alright.. 

I also heard the word Nice Nasty.... I have had a few people tell me that I am nice and sweet person but at times I can be the nastiest person standing.. I don't think that I am really a bad person.. I do know I don't do well with others.. This is my defense mechanism.. If I give the cold shoulder then I know I won't get hurt... Another way I cover my pain..

I pray that the family continue to heal and become stronger than ever...