I know it has been awhile for me.. I am sorry that I have lead my readers astray.. I had to get myself together and figure out what was really going on in my life.
I think the last time I wrote I was telling you all about the person that was in my life. You know he wanted GOD to lead our relationship.. Been a friend for YEARS! The man that knows everything in my life, from good to the bad.. Yea that man.. :)
Well I have also gotten back into church. The conversation with THE MAN really help me let go of my fears and mistrust in the church. My eyes have been open to so much.. I thank him... I know that it has been on my mind. I had missed the fellowship and going to church to receive my word. It was just so much going on and I didn't know how to deal with it. I am overcame it all though.. I still have my days but everyday Thanking the Lord for allowing me to get it right, is a blessing itself..
This man is no where near perfect, yet there are things about him that makes him a great and loving person. We built our friendship years ago by just getting to know each other.. At the time we both were going through some spiritual and emotional issues.. So we would talk and talk and talk.. Sometimes you would have thought we were the only people in the world. He and I would be joined at the hip.. LOL Then we lost contact, not completely but not as we once was.. His girlfriend at the time didn't like me. She didn't won't him to have anything to do with me. I really didn't understand at the time. Now over the years I figured it out.. He told me after that relationship ended.. He said he once told her how he felt about me. He also told her no one and he means no one would break the bond that we had together. (You all know me, I was cheesing)... He also said he is always at his happiest when him and I are together. (that right there made me melt, because I feel the same with him)..
So we been going through it since early April.. We have our days but I know this man LOVES me. As I said that he wants God to lead us.. So we have been chilling and letting things take it's course. Not rushing into anything but getting to know each other on a different level. So we won't sacrifice our friendship. He is my best friend and I truly don't want to lose that part of him. We kid about how we have been through different relationships and we seem to always be there for one another when it fails.. Then we always realize we didn't need those people to begin with.. It seems that our failed relationships always gets us closer and closer together.. He was there for me with MC and he was there for me with that woman I dated. So whose to say that this might not be the man God has for me.
I get along I think with his family.. His mother sometimes questions me. I over look it though.. She is just being a mother. I am good to him and he is good to me. I think his mother only see the things I do.. Or she just think that a man should do it all. I cook and I coupon. So she sees the things I give him.. She also think I am making him fat because the way I feed him.. Well that's my man.. I don't mind giving him a meal.. I don't mind giving him free toilet paper and paper towels.. :)
All in all I am in a happy place.. Not cause of him but seeing the change in me. I think it took my best friend to show up and give me the reality check. Yea, you know after me and that woman had broken up.. I was just so tired of love and being let down. I became once again depressed.. He got tired.. He was 100% blunt with me. So it took me a few weeks to get what he was saying. Then I realized.. I have always been a snap back type of woman. So why was I drowning myself. I was a better swimmer in this game of life. So I give him thanks for that..
Anyhoo I am sorry that this BLOG was so long.. I just wanted to give you all the run down on what's been going on with me.. I will be back on Friday or Saturday to give you all my input with the Mike Brown situation.. Until then take care...
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