Our Issues...

We both (me and my Bestest) have some major issues that we both have to work on.. 

This is one of the reason why we are still in a stand still about taking our love and friendship further. We've been fighting this feeling for so long.  We both agree that our friendship is more important than anything. I believe that is why we are able to talk about our feelings. 

As I sit an think.. We are so much alike. Our mood swings, Our in search of ourselves.. 

He tells me that he doesn't want to lose me. I believe him.. Even on the days I want to knock the bat shyt hayal out of him...

It's been days that I have been so MEAN and Hateful toward him and he just ignore me. We even stop talking for a few days.. Then when we have calmed down, we talk like nothing ever happened.. 

I love that man.. I have for a very long time. It's just it becomes clearer everyday.. To have a friend that means so much to me is priceless.

Today me and his sister in law (my childhood friend) had talked about US.. She is so team US for some reason. She wants US to be together so bad.. I have to tell her when it is time, it will happen.. We aren't going to rush into anything. We were talking about how he is so crazy about me and how he loves everything about me. She was like Girl, that man has and still is trying to change his ways.. She said the change in him is due to him wanting to be a better man for me. 

It is so weird.. I told him that the song Think Out Loud is really us.. It was a point and time, I just looked at him as just another dude I know.. Then we became the BEST of Friends.. Now we are at the point to where we are so in love with one another but scared of what that Love can do to the both of us. So we got some work to do.. :)