Is it me..

I have been talking to one of my past loves... We normally talk at least once a month, to see how each other been doing... Lately it's been almost everyday..
No, I'm not falling for him.. We are friends and sometimes I think he is the only one that I can confided in.. He is unlike my bestest... Me and him been through hayal and back.. So he understands me.. A lot of our 1st were done together.. I have a lot of love for him. 

This the thing, he told me he has always loved me... He still loves me and he never wants to hurt me.. So me, think its too late for him to tell me.   I know that he has cared for man, over 20 years.. If not we wouldn't still kept in contact with each other..

Plus 5 years back he got married, so I backed away.. I was hurt a little but I said as long as he is happy, then I'm happy.. I didn't get in between him and his wife... I let them be.. Well 2 years ago his wife left him, and he was so devastated.. I was the shoulder he cried on.. I hate seeing him like that, but as a friend I was there... He is still hurt by his wife leaving him and it hurts me too.. I know he has a lot of flaws and issues... I understand why his wife left.. With all he is going through he is still a good person.. Its going to take a really strong woman to deal with him. 

I don't know but I think it's me.. Everyone always look to me to bare their emotions on.. I guess I'm a comforter... Who knows!!