At times I wonder what would my life be like if I made different choices... Its now early Sunday morning and my mind is on over load... I want to go to sleep but Its so hard to do so...
I have pushed so many people away and I don't have many solid friendships.. To be honest I have only one and that's a family member.. In which she is about to get married and moved to another state. My other close friend is locked up. She will be out early 2018.
So I lay here bored out my mind. I don't really have time (mentally) for a relationship because me being my moms caregiver. Plus I don't get out much anymore to meet people. Then when I do men tend to think I'm mean and unapproachable. I do sometimes give the stank look (habit)...
As you all over the years that have read my blog I've been hurt by love so much, I just guard myself really tight now. I know exactly what I want now and instead of being patient and overlooking I'm blunt upfront. I know it might result in a lonely life but, Hey... What am I supposed to do?
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