This humdrum life I live....

Getting mom the help she needs.. Me wanting to go out and do things outside the home... I sometimes feel like my life is just humdrum and doing the daily routine is driving me INSANE...
I have found ways to get her on a schedule to where it is finally working.. However it is making me move on autopilot and man... I want something different to happen..

A couple of weeks ago I went out two weekends straight and I LOVED it... The only problem those who said they would stay with mom while I was out didn't do what needed to be done also acted like it was just a lot of trouble to deal with.. Talk about making me furious.. I don't understand.. When I have family members who say I am going to help you.. You would think that is what they will do.. NOT!

Then these dreams I keep having about this man is making me nuts as well.. See me and this guy have grown up together.. I know that he is bad for me and I am not really interested in his lifestyle but in this dream.. LORD! I want the dreams to stop anyway.. I am going on one year of celibacy (yay me, I did it) and I don't want any drastic changes in my life.. I am happy to say I have overcome my addiction.. So with that being said, I say NO to my dreams.. Don't need it or want it..

I have been trying to keep my distance from Facebook.. It seem that people on my friends list are angry or really in search of a relationship.. I know everyone have mood swings but dang... Is it really that bad.. I know for me it would be nice to be with someone outside talking to my mom all the time.. Yet, I don't have the time, energy, or patience to deal with someone else feelings and time.. I tell you since mom has needed my attention for the last year... I get guys asking me when I am going to make time for them. I am like..  UGH....

I have some much else I want to talk about put my finger tips are killing me right now.. LOL
Have a great day, Be Blessed...