Tuesday, August 8, 2017

I wish I had something good to say...

I have lost my feel for blogging... I don't think many even read these things anymore... Facebook and Twitter is the blame for that, I think..

I wish that it was something good I could write you all about.. I am still in my feels.. I still feel alone and that no one is here for me. I try to remain positive but when I keep feeling like the road blocks are more constant I just keep losing hope. I cry daily and today I been crying all day long... I even had to walk away from Facebook because I see others living their lives and I am here not knowing where my next meal is going to come from.. It just makes me even more depressed...

Everyone keeps saying you gonna be Blessed one day.. Well I am already blessed but I need HELP..
Every road I go down it is a disappointment.. 

I know that it is hard being a caregiver for an elderly person, most of it is because this Government that we have refuse to help them. I went all avenues I knew of to try and get help for mom.. All have been denied.. Now, we would be able to get back on our feet if I go back to work..  Going back to work is impossible because the money I get would have to go to someone to sit with my mother. She has to have 24/7 care and all the programs I knew to get all gave a deny stamp... 
What I don't understand is Dementia not qualify as a disability? My mom has that, kidney disease, Seizures... She can not cook, comprehend, and take a bath without help.. 

I am just really trying to understand all this.. It is very hard.. 
I keep praying for a break.. Maybe this is God's way in keeping me humble....


One day I will have some good news.. I hope anyway.. 

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