Hey it's Friday Night.. Don't have shyt to do...

As you can see, I have lost my urge or need to blog..  So I just come by every few days or weeks.. I noticed I even bore my readers.. LOL

Well tonight is Friday and I don't have shyt to do.. I decided to just come over here and drop a few thoughts..  .
I am having the thoughts that as we get older there isn't much we wanna do..  It has been hard for me the last couple of years just to really go out.  So today I decided that I got to get to moving.. I need something to do.
I have even decided to try dating once again.. My problem is meeting people. I have a hard time with that. I also hate dating. I think that is why I normally stick to who I know. Once upon a time. I was such a social butterfly. I used to go out with friends every weekend. I wouldn't met any strangers.. I would party hardy and was never tardy.. Now... I think I don't even like to be around most people.

It seems that most of the men I have been meeting don't want nothing but sex.. I hate that.. I already have someone I enjoy having sex with.. I want someone with some conversation. Today I was talking to a guy that I was thinking about dating. I had told him how I hate when we talk.. He always find some way to change the subject and it becomes about sex. I told him I am not looking for a sexually friendship.. So he said, " What kind of friendship are we going to have?" When I said I was pissed.. I was.. I just hung up the phone and never answered anymore of his calls.

Why is it so hard for me?  I don't come off as a slut.. I am very nice and I don't dress like one either.. So why am I attracting these WRONG men? Is this what all men are like now... Should I just stop trying to fool myself and just crossover.. I am still trying to fight my feelings for women.. It isn't what I want.. Yet no man that I have met the last few months are willing to get to know me. They don't want the emotional, respectful, honest relationship..

I want to know where are the good breed of men.. I don't go to clubs much.. These are just men I met in the stores, online, or my job... So what is the deal here...?

My other friends are in relationships.. Although one is in a bad one... They still hanging on just cause they don't want to be alone.. I guess my standards are still to high.. Yet I've been in countless of meaningless relationships... I just don't want to get into another one..

I just want someone to talk to.. I want someone to be there for me... I want someone that I can go out with.. I don't want to continue to be home while everyone else are out having a good time.. Yea it is Friday night and again.. I don't have shyt to do...