Day 3.. Whip Me, Chain Me, Tie Me up, and Cuff Me...

Your thoughts on S&M..

(sexual) sadism and masochism; sadomasochism

Hmmmmmmmmm? I always like the thought of being a Dominatrix... Most of the time that is what I dress up as on Halloween. Yea Yea Yea.. I love the control and power that I could have over a person when it comes to sex. Although I have never acted out on someone. I often want too.. “Hint”.. A entry awhile back about my fantasy.

I am sorta of a dark person when it comes to a lot of sexual acts. I love the leather, I love the whips, I also love the feel of HOT WAX poured over my body. I think I have that type of aggressive behavior.. I like to see pleasure in the most odd cases..
So I can deal with it if I am playing the dominant role.

As far as me being submissive, I have a slight problem. I can't see myself letting anyone really tying me up.. I do have some TRUST issues. I don't want to be blinded folded. I can deal with the whips and the cuffs though.. I love a good slap on the ass or the heat hot things pressing on my body while fucking. I can also  deal with the nipples being pulled or bitten.. I think that is as far as I would go if I was being submissive.

Day 2... Me break in a Virgin... NOT!!!

Day 2...

 If you meet someone right now that is a 30 year old virgin, would you be willing to be their first? 

Absolutely NOT.... I like to think of myself as an experienced sexually being.. I can not scare anyone with the things I know and do. Especially if they never has sex before... I would be flattered though if they wanted me to be their first. I would just have to turn them down.. I want someone that has the experience and about as equally as freaky as I am.

I just can't see myself doing it. I could teach him/her a lot of things but it just wouldn't be right.. I rather learn something new with someone that is equally yoked as I.. Heck I might teach this person some BAD HABITS... I have been told that I am too much.. So why leave that type of impression on someone who isn't experienced.  Plus if becomes to the point where it is hard for them to catch on. My attitude might scary the hell out of them.  It also when I get tired of them, it might make it hard for them to leave me alone. Then that becomes a whole different situation.. So again.. I can not, I will not.. Have sex with a VIRGIN............  

Day 1... The 1st time... A young girl looses her Virginity....

Day one of The 30 Days of Erotic Truths.... 1^st time having SEX....

The 1^st time having sex.. I will not say it was when I lost my virginity because it wasn't. My first time having sex was more comical than sex, erotic, or even enjoyable. It was more on the lines of, everybody is doing it type thing. I was with this guy that was friend's of my cousin and my best friend was dating my cousin. I kinda always thought that he was a nice looking guy. So that also helped me give into the temptation.

It was at my cousin house while his mother was away. They was in one room and we were in another.

I stood there at first. We looked at each other and asked was this what we really wanted to do. I said, yea why not. He was like good, I want to also... So I took off my clothes while he took off his.

It was also his first time so we both didn't know what in the hell was going on. He cut on some music. Our background music was “We Got Our Own Thang” by Heavy D and the Boyz. So for years that song played in my head. We started kissing and we was getting in the mood. He was a little older than me and I felt so awkward. So once we started getting our groove on. I was just laying there not doing a thing. I couldn't even really get into it. I was already tarnished from other prior events that happened in my life. So I really wanted this to hurry and be over with.

So the pounding and pounding he started working up a sweat and it kept falling in my eyes. It burned so bad. I started feeling all kind of grossed out. So I had to tell him to stop. I could not take it anymore. I once saw dogs humping and that was how I felt. I felt that he was lapping me like a dog and it was just not a good experience with him. 

After that, I never let a friend talk me into anything else... To this day, I look at him so sideways...

30 Days of Erotic Truth....

I would like to Thank Almond Joy for sending me and invite to this.. Since I have been in such a BLOG funk this will keep my brain flowing... So for 30 days I will write something with each topic assigned...

I will put the first entry up later today....

Here is the list:

1. The first time you had sex …details please


2. If you meet someone right now that is a 30 year old virgin, would you be willing to be their first? 


3. Your thoughts on S&M..


4. If you were approached and offered to do one porno scene for $20,000, would you do it? and why?


5. She doesn’t suck dick/He doesn’t lick clits…is that a deal breaker?


6. Tell a story about how you would seduce someone you must have …


7. Write a letter to the best lover you’ve ever had.. 


8. What is your definition of rape? Date rape?


9. Does your religion/beliefs hinder your sexual expression?


10. A letter to the person you regret screwing .. tell em how you really feel…


11. Write a letter to the person you faked it with.. tell em why he/she didn't take you there once and for all…


12. A fantasy you want to fulfill


13. A fantasy you know you will never fulfill


14. Public sex: do or don’t?

15. Have you ever been caught masturbating or having sex? tell the story..


16. You are invited to a party that turned into an orgy, you just arrived…what would you like to see? 


17. You walk in your bedroom to find your lover deep in the sexual act with the same sex.. what do you do? 


18. Tell a sexual triangle short story


19. Bukkake? your thoughts..


20. Tell a story of your most embarrassing sexual experience..


21. Make a music playlist you would like to get busy to …(name of artist, title of song, why you choose it)


22. Swinging… your thoughts…


23. Dom/Sub… sexy or just an excuse for men or women to abuse?


24. What is your definition of freaky?


25. What motivates you to hit your orgasmic peak during a masturbation session?


26. Anal sex? are you anal about it?


27. Your man/woman likes to have sex with the same sex. Are you willing to invite this into your bedroom? Why?


28. If you could get your hands on some dick/pussy right now, how would you want it? 


29. What makes you sexy to YOU?


30. write an erotic poem of your choice.. raunchy or classy.. bring it!!!

I'm Bored....

I am SO BORED... It is already near summer and I haven't did one thing to be entertained by.. I hate being this way.. I tend to turn to food and smoking a lot of newports.. I need do get up and get out and do something...

That is the hard thing to do right now.. Since money is tight.. No form of transportation because Gas is so high.. Friends occupied with children, marriage, and relationships. I am not doing much.  I kinda miss the days  when you can hop in the car and have a night on the town for under 50 dollars. Even being able to go out and buy an outfit.

I can remember when I just did all of those things. I've been out but the things I did was so limited.. I plan on taking a vacation this year right before I move. I hope when I do this I will be able to knock some of this boredom away.  I am also looking into finding something else to do with my time. I tried walking yet the heat, rain, and these bugs are getting to me.

So on this Sunday.. I just sat around the house.. I ate, slept, and typed this short blog... LOL I am even getting bored with my Facebook games.. I never thought the day I would say that...

Untitled....

Thinking of a Master Plan

Over the last few weeks and not posting any entries... I have been focusing on myself. I am my own breath of fresh air sometimes. I tic toc like the clock... I am always thinking of way to make a better me.

After leaving the doctor on May 2nd, I had to take alot of what I heard from the doctor in to consideration. He claimed that I am suffering High Blood Pressure and a High Blood Sugar level. I didn't want to fall in to those categories. My parent and most of my family all have this problem. I didn't want it to be me. I have to make some changes in my eating habits. I know it is going to be rough because I am the COOK..  Although I love all types of food. I just like what I like and I want others to like it.
I also noticed that everyday stress is also taking it's tole on me. I tell you some days I want to SCREAM my head off..  My job, my family, and these stupid ass wangstas.. So I have learned the word NO.. No I can't help you.. No I am not willing to do that.. No No No...  I tell you.. I am finally happy to say it. I no longer feel guilty. I can't be all things to all people anymore. I hope that they will understand that.. I am a month and a few weeks away before I go on my VACATION.. So that will be some type to relax...  I suppose to be moving then.. I hope that it happens... I am still keeping the faith on that too...

As far as anything else.. I am still in my Happy Space... I am getting a kick out of life.. I truly love being me........

Bright and Beautiful......

I've been sorta taking in all the beautiful things around me. These sunny days have been a reflective blessing.  As I get ready for my doctor's appointment tomorrow.. I am sorta scared of all the things I might here. I thank the Lord for giving me so many chances in life. I am thankful to the Lord that he get to let me see another day..  I let myself go and I am praying that I can get back on track...

I am a lover of bright colors. This is the part of spring that I have always loved. The colors of the sky, flowers, trees, and grass... So this is my out look of life now.. When you see just the small things.. It helps give you the love of the big things... Life is just so important. We tend to take things for granted.. I sure won't do that anymore.. My life is important.. I truly have to start living and reap my blessings... God is good... So where ever you are today.. Stop and smell the beauty of live... It has such a wonderful scent... Just so bright and beautiful... Live life, Love Life, Enjoy Life...