Be Careful of who you tell your problems to... #FamilyRunMouthatrateofSpeedingLight

I tell you... I feel that I can't do anything without someone always got something to say.. If not who they are going back to say it too..

A few months ago I stopped talking to my father. Mainly because he was being an ass.. He really has never done much for me and I was ok with that. My sister and brother has had more of a relationship with him than I ever had.  I am ok with that too.. You all know my mother is my beating heart.

With things being so tight and not able to have extra funds I had to let some of my bills go.. I am behind but I don't care because my mother is important to me. I don't have much of a life that I didn't have much of to begin with. Anyhoo... The light bill has been TOO DAMN HIGH the last couple of months.. So I went without my cell phone and I didn't get my medication..

Well my auntie knows about what is going on and she told my dad.. UGH!  I am totally in a head space to where I still am mad at him. He never called to see if I was ok from my last doctors appointment. That was back in June after he showed his arse on me. Plus I never wanted to say anything I would regret so I walked away from him and didn't say anything else. He calls told getting on my case about my medicine. I was being petty... I asked him why was it any of his concern and why is he questioning me. He has offered to pay for it and I am like I don't want anything from you. I truly don't.. He hurt my feelings very badly and I just don't know if I can deal with him.

My auntie is bad about telling stuff. I love her dearly and I know she might told him to make him pay for it. My aunts have a way of making my dad feel bad. (what I love most about them)... He listens to them and if he upsets me they show their arses on him.
As a child they did more for me than my dad ever did.. I was always with them...

At 40 I never thought I would still have to depend on my parents.. NEVER! However me being my mother caregiver, I wouldn't change nothing.. As I say, she is my heart beat. Hopefully by next month I will be back on track.. Especially with the power bill going down.. I know it is because of it being so hot...