For the Love of Family....

 

I Love them... Lord knows I do... If not for them, I wouldn't be the person I am today... 

I was raised by two of the strongest women I know.  My Grandmother was the leader of the pack. My Grandfather died way before I was born. My Granny was the baby girl of a total of 9 kids.  So her BIG brothers was very protective of her... Growing I can remember when she told me to get ready for church... I was like NO... Man she beat me through out the WHOLE house.    I tell you I never told her I wasn't going to church after that... She could never understand why I didn't want to go to church. I told her it was boring.. Hey I was only 5 or 6 at the time. I didn't know what Rev. Cruell was talking about.

I can never really say that My mother never loved me. I used to get mad at her because she was barely at home. It was a time I was going through some really problems growing up. I needed my mother and she was working. Her whole things was she wanted to give me EVERYTHING... At the time, I didn't care about what she wanted to give me. It was simple I wanted my Mother.  As I got older I realized why she did it.  I can't never say it enough.. I LOVE HER... She was always open and honest with me. She told me about life and how people will come in and leave just like they came.   To this day, she is still my best  friend. 

I used to pay attention to my friend's mothers.. I was thankful, I had her. Not to long ago I was going through some papers of hers. She asked me to clean up her shelf... I found the cuties note... It said... I love Tracy....  You know what mommie.. I love you too...

Today I started thinking a lot about my Father.. He is one that I rarely talk about. It is not that he isn't around and doesn't love me. I just really don't have the close bond with him as I would like to have . It seems now that I am Older we are closer than we ever been.  I remember the time I was in the Hospital for a few weeks after Miscarriage #2. My dad was there every single day.  See it was one of those things that I almost died and he was there for me. He knew I didn't want to be alone. So during the day he was there, while my mother stayed there at night.   I am the Oldest of my father's three children.  So today getting a call from my Aunt Neiecy.. She told me that my dad had passed out and fell at work and he was in pain.   See my dad has been sick the last few years. The one thing that drives me crazy, is the fact that he is STUBBORN...  He hasn't been listening to me or the doctors..    So today I have been calling and keeping a close watch on him.. Hey you can only have one father.. I love ya dad....