The last few years to months I have learned so much. I feel like I can say I am finally grown.
I have not been writing because, I am living my life. I didn't even know where to begin when writing. I let go of the website, mainly because of it. It would be one way to save on money too.
I am still in the process of trying to find a home and a purpose. There are so many things I want to do with the remaining part of my life. I want to feel that I did do what I was set out to do. I want to own my first home. I want to open my own business (either cater or restaurant). I think that my drive is finally here.
In the life lessons I also realize that loving someone is not a reason to let go of your hopes. For so long the love of him was keeping me down. I've learned how to love from a distance. I still think of him, yet he is not my reason for living. I am glad that I got the courage to let go, but not forget. Love of self can be the most rewarding love of all.
Then it come to a person I have kinda adopted. It was an old friend that I promise to be there for to help him get through it all. I think I can't no longer do it. It has cause me some stress. The stress of feeling like I am being taken advantage of. I helped this man and even tried to build up his confidence. It seems like he isn't even listening to me. I learned, a person who is down and out, they have to want to do better for themselves. You can't heal a person. You can't tell a person to believe in themselves when they don't.
I even learned somethings to help me at work. If I just listen and talk to my manager, she will be a whole lot better to deal with. Over the last few weeks. Just listening to her babble about life and her family. She has been so much better. I still don't like the way my schedule is, but it has been some improvements.
So as I continue to ride this life. I will continue to learn things. I will continue to grow. It is not the age you are that gives you the title of GROWN. It is how to handle the lesson in it all.
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