Just Another Day...(In the thoughts and mind of Me)

It is the weekend and I am sitting at home.. I am so trying to find something to get into. I truly do hate this boring life that I live.  I said to myself, I should of just went to work. At least I wouldn't be sitting here trying to find something to do. 

I am starting to really get old.  I know in a matter of time, I might just go senile. Of course I don't want that to happen. I just feel it is cutting close. I sit in the house thinking to much about things. Things that is driving me insane. I believe that I was lost some where between the ok's and the not so kosher.  I guess I want things to go my way so much. So when I can't have my way, I get into a slumber.  I just don't get people anymore. I was taught to stick by family. Help the less fortune, and Pray for those who can't get right.  I tell you I had my share in all of that. Giving up so much of myself in the process.. 

I also been thinking of a new story to  write about. Heck I already know I have 4 stories that I need to finish. I get to the point where I get lazy and don't know how to end them. So I leave them stuck mid-way through the story.  I really want to do this one as a Play.  I see it coming to life as I see myself coming through the doors.  I will be noticed one day. I am so sure of it.

I might make this Saturday and Sunday a day that not only do I get back to what is truly me.  It will also the day I stop thinking so hard of what others will think.  I got to do something. I am tired of living behind a wall.  I need to really stop talking about and just do it.  Now off to find the courage to do so...