Regardless of what you say....

Hi everyone.. This week has been a very busy and long week for me.. On top of that, I wasn't feeling up to par...  I finally got my hours back at work so they have been keeping me really busy. So when I get home I just relax and play my games. 

I dealt with a lot of other issues to. I am still hung up over the fact that my crush is now saying he is just to busy to come around. I seriously doubt that though.  I hear more things about him in the last few weeks.. I send thanks to God that I wasn't going to regret sleeping with him. I found out about him spending time at what was suppose to be an ex girl friend house. Let's just say, he might be living there. I was like WTF... 

I tell you some men are just flat out ass holes.  Yet on the other hand.. I don't even care anymore. I am just tired of the games that some play. I am going to enjoy myself.  He always told me that he tells me what he wants me to know.. So be it.. One day he is going to need me more than I need him.

I was discussing this with another one of my male friends. He thought that I have no reason to be mad at my crush.. He told me I will never be a Queen to a man. I started looking at him sideways. I was like a friend would tell me that. I said, please tell me more. Well he feels that I would always be a second. A man will not see me as his woman. He goes on to say that I act to much like a man. Which I thought was hilarious. I am really prissy and girlie.. .

He goes on to say, I tend to tell men what to do. I might have had more women than some of the men that I've dated.  I am always take the lead and never the follower when it comes to a relationship. 

I agree that I am demanding. Most of the men I ever dealt with needed some kind of direction, because they acted like they didn't know any better.  I just want respect and honesty.. Is that too much to ask for. 

Regardless of what my friend guy said.. I know I will be a Queen to someone someday.. I just need to find a man that is worthy of it all.. I keep on finding wolves in sheeps clothing. I must don't know how to pick them anymore. I really thought my crush was going to be some what of a good guy. He really is a nice person. He just keep to much to himself. I wish he was more up front with me. 

I will get this all right oneday... I am starting to focus more on me anyway. So I will be back to normal soon.. Thank you Jesus...