Here is the story....
You know I have been talking about my Heaven... Well there is something that I am not really approving of in our friendship. I know that most of it could be my fault. See I don't want a relationship with him. I don't really want anything with him. It is just because it is too much going on with his life. I do know I am getting tired of people coming back and telling me when they see him out. I think I am going to have to stop seeing him. It isn't because of people coming back telling me thing.. It isn't because they see him out with others.. It is just I don't want to be bothered with him all together.. I think I have gotten bored.. Then when I don't get to hang out with him.. I get upset.. What in the hell is wrong with me? I pray that I am not catching feelings... I seriously HOPE that I am not... I hate that I get so freaking confused...
Then to me moving.. I've been saving up for awhile to move back out of my mother's house.. Well something else has came up again. So trying to move in June might just take me a little while longer.. I am NOT happy about this one bit.. Why I keep running into pitfalls? I am so TIRED of this.. I want to be out on my own.. I want my privacy again.. I feel I am getting to old to be at moms.. I know I can be here and do pretty much what I want.. I just want to be out on my OWN...
I just don't know what to do... Maybe in time I will figure it all out.. I hope I get some answers soon...
1 comment:
As far as Heaven, perhaps you need to give yourself a break just to figure out where you really want things to go with him. I'm sorry that whatever came up is keeping you from progressing with your move; I know you have been dying to be on your own again. Keep the faith and I'm around if you need to vent or talk. Peace.
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