I like you...

I am back at it again.. I don't know what I can say. I sat down and talked to my crush. We still decided on just being friends, but I still am so crazy about him. It is so hard to explain. I learned over the last few weeks, that we have so much in common. When it comes to music, art, and even women. I was so shock at the things I've learned. Well not so shocked but he seems to be suck a quiet person. So to know these things, made me feel special.


He is a great listener.. I was feeling a little down after talking to my ex boyfriend the other day. See my ex reads to much into my FB Statuses.. So we kinda started arguing. So my crush was there to put a smile on my face and make me laugh. What I hate the most is I am so sexually attracted to my crush... I mean REALLY. After the 1st time I believed that I was hooked totally. Yet it seems that he rather talk that have sex. O I am not complaining one bit about it. It is a breath of fresh air. Most men wouldn't be like that.  Knowing me though, I love having sex. So it is hard for me to not bring it up around him.

Again I don't expect much from my crush. He is a nice guy, and so fun to be around. I hope that my aggressiveness doesn't run him away. Yea I am so direct and blunt to what I want. I had to catch myself just last night. I blurted out, When are we going to do it again? LOL  He just looked at me and smiled. Then I had to just bust out laughing.  The look he gave me was like, I wanna do it but I am scared of you.. It was hilarious.

All it all.. My crush makes me feel really good about myself.. My crush makes me happy... My crush is one hell of a guy.. With all his issues and what he is going through.. He makes me feel good all over..I really am not ready to let all of that go. I am really not ready to loose this feeling..